In midst of sleeplessness

I have been very bless since the day i was born... i had the love of both paternal and maternal grandparents, and of cos my parents... In the chinese culture, grandfathers of my generation are usually man of few words, but plenty of unfriendly written all over their faces... But my sister and i had been exceptions in our family, for both father's and mother's side... in their own subtle ways......

I am very proud to recount the days when my paternal grandparents fussed abt me... My grandma has to flash out her teaching status to get me into the MPCC kindegarten, and TNS... My grandma was SUPER COOL! Then there was my grandpa who was all excited to give me 10mins briefing for my 1st day in kindergarten... The whole 10mins were actually 3 instructions: 1. If ppl beat u, PUNCH THEM BACK IN THE FACE. 2. If they beat you back again, PUNCH THEM BACK AGAIN. 3. If they cry, PUNCH THEM AGAIN. LOLx... my grandpa also very cool rite! kakaka...

Of all my cousins in my father's side, my grandma said grandpa loved my sis and most... becos we were exactly like our dad, who in turn was exactly like himself... We were suppose to learn calligraphy and chinese ink from him, cos that was his life, but lessons barely started he was diagnosed with a condition that required a minor operation. Grandpa and Dad made a pact to give up smoking after the operation, and i was super happy... but it nv had chance to come to pass...

My maternal grandparents were hardy and tough ppl, such that my grandpa looks like he is going to eat u any time... But yet this taxi man was quite a romantic; he actually surprised my grandma on afternoon by no going to his shift but fetched her to fetch me from TNS. Mind you they not young hor... and i was primary 1 bah... kekeke That's not all, he then brought us to see movie at republic cinema and have tim sum after the show. hahahaha WHOLE FAMILY WAS STUNNED TO HEAR TAT LOR! And i was there to testify for him. :)

In my short biz venture, I remembered how much pride he was wearing on his face when i told him i want to bring him to my internet cafe to drink kopi... Of cos, he declined in a LOUD way... cos i was making 3-in-1, saying instant kopi sucks. He complained tat i shld learn to make the traditional kopi from grandma, after all we are descendants kopitiam owners... Then the venture fell thru when my partner decides to pull stunts on me. I was very sad, but i guess my grandpa was too... cos i nv did have the chance to bring him down to see the place in the whole 6mths... Not longer after, he too fell ill and passed on...

I hated my complicated family issues, and preferred to stay away from my uncles and aunts, but i love my grandparents...

Tots that crept into my mind

I was instructed to attend a leadership training course, and though it was boringly uninteresting, some information that the trainer shared actually left and impression...

The first that caught my attention was how our brains do not understand the word "DON'T" ...... Here's an example, try to follow my instructions...

>>>DO NOT aka DONT think about the number 7 now.

You are thinking of the number now, aren't you? Instead of not thinking about the subject, its was all the more magnified than before... The more we dun try to do something the more attention it is getting thus leading to a greater probability that we will do it...

Another impressionable note was the question-less experience during the course... He totally whacked us with this statement, "For every question that you ask, you already have the answer." We were dumbfounded... but still i do doubt the integrity of that answer within... have an answer... YES, but correct anot???

The answers from within are usually the based upon past experiences, perceptions and the education/information imparted to us. If the past experience or perception or even the education/information was inaccurate, then how? I really do not think anyone would have the ultimate correct answer... other than God himself.

One last note for today... in the midst of my indecisiveness, i am going to rest in the decision i made... since i made it and i am going to stick by it... I am nervous, but i am not worried... strange but thats that..... a kiwi i am in the year 2009!

华丽上班族之生活与生存

This is definitely the best performance i had seen so far, rather than telling you what the story is depicting, i find that its more important and interesting on how it came about and into a performance of existance. This is a short extract of their promo event .