Wednesday, May 18, 2011

睡不着

不知道是那难喝的摩卡咖啡
还是自己本来就睡不着。。。
反反复复就是不肯合上双眼。。。

这一个月走来并不容易,
但也不至于走不到下一步。
我很明白,更庆幸,
这一路有上帝陪伴我。。。
帮助我。。。给我力量。。。
帮我摆平许多人于事,
让我现在还能够请得到假,
陪伴妈咪看医生。。。

当昨晚听到妹说妈咪传简讯说她很miserable,
我整个心碎了。。。真的很难过,
到现在胸口还是疼痛着。。。
无声的眼泪拦也拦不住,
连哭也不能放声的哭。。。
我真的好想跟莫人说,借个肩膀哭。。。
但我不能,不可以。。。

不能哭! 眼泪不可以流!
哭能解决问题吗?
能带走胸口上的疼痛吗?
眼泪又可以带来什么吗?

跟谁说都不好,
况且说了也帮不上,
还是免了。

上帝,
我只能靠你了。
我承认我没有全部的答案,
但我有你,你有的是答案,
有的是能力,有的是爱我的心。。。
我相信你会妥善地为我解围,
为我家人提供他们需要地,
包括我无法给的。。。
我们需要你,
我需要你!
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Saturday, May 07, 2011

Hectic April and Impt 7 May 2011

Despite the busy schedule and the exasperations, i still find this entry a must… milestone must!

Hectic work schedule did not help when you realized that there is no one else at home other than yourself and yr beloved mum… switching and trying to make time to get all the work done in unfair circumstances vs a mum who is constant complaining abt her ailing body only prompted me to get all on site work done and bring the rest hm to do after cooking dinner and washing up. Frankly, i am dying…

Then the GE has to come stick one leg coming in, frankly with all the media overload, the information flooding in, all the rally with tweets and update etc… i can barely breathe… to the point i really wanna just shout at everyone to shut down and give me some quiet time to do the things i have to… and the most impt of all is the 5 yearly decision!

Its not a uncommon thing to hear young ppl still undecided on their choices even at the 11th hr… overheard from ppl drinking, overhead in the lift, overheard all the conversations ppl are having around… they are barely breathing from all the information coming down on them, despite them following the GE2011 closely in every possible means they can.

Personally, i really had to come down to what the main issues i am concern with, what do i want for myself and this land i call home. What are working and what are not? Who is really working for us, and who are for themselves? Who are the real opportunists and who are the truly respectable? I finally came down to 1 critical question, and with it i am able to arrive at my choice.

Frankly, there is no true winning or losing at the GE results, its only the beginning! True victory comes when our country does better, our lives changed for the better!