Monday, June 29, 2009

Time to come…

Time is an associate which i can never really tell if its a friend or foe, a companion that one can never shake off but altogether unfeeling and cold… Its like having someone walking with you, but yet this person does not slow down or stop when you take a fall or collapsed. Often we find ourselves chasing after time as soon as  when we gained our consciousness, or regained “sight”

These days, since back from Thailand, i have been bumming around grumpily… Unable to confirm or even plan, left me frustrated. And now here i am, suddenly awaken to find that time is so far ahead of me…

  • Room – unpacked… still too much to not throw…
  • Flights – booked… 5th for BKK and 8th for Hanoi…
  • Hanoi – duration unknown… 1 mth tentative…
  • US – Not sure if still going, or if i still wanna go…
  • Luggage – unpacked… cos dunno how to pack for a trip that has no duration and destination…

Still… i look forward to God’s plan… what seems impossible for me now, will be his job to bring it to pass. He knows the thing in my heart, and he knows i dun have the heart to do it… too afraid to even mention abt it to anyone at all… My fren, wait with me ok… allow me to bring u good news,  good testimony.

Ps. Still very upset and angry and hurt that my mum STILL thinks that i going Vietnam is for fun… argh! my mum leh! :(  sigh…

Friday, June 26, 2009

Made pack meal for Sis…

Its 4am in the morning, and i had been on the phone for like 2hrs… U dun expect gourmet breakfast from a tired and sleepy person bah!

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Sunday, June 21, 2009

BIZARRE SATURDAY

Its been a strange start to my weekend… since Friday evening, i had to play host to a foreigner acquaintance. (Really cannot bring myself to call her as fren, simply cos she is not lor… i am just being technically correct that's all!) Anyway, i was told to expect another 2 person, who were suppose to be the staff from Cam Chan Guan, my dad’s restaurant.  But at the airport i was met with the foreigner, 1 male staff – a cook, and guess wat… A MONK! And they address him as SHI FU (MASTER). He was all dress in his monk-ly attire in dark brown. I cant help but have a O.o expression on my face, as non one did any explanation who he was and why he was here in this group that i am suppose to play host to.

The trip barely speaks English, but the acquaintance does manageable phrases for me to understand her; she is the comms personnel of the grp. Now, the obvious objective for this madam is SHOPPING, and the male staff/ the cook is the one who make the trip legitimate… sigh… Then there is the S F guy, he said he was here to visit temples…………… and shopping! He was visibly very excited alright. I wondered long and hard on wat shopping is he into… It din take long for me to figure out.

First things first, went thru the meeting with Mr David Ong and visited their catering kitchen… really interesting and impressed with the details they went into for the services they provided… can clearly see their pride. I’m glad i participated, and i hope some day i would be like them… beaming with pride as i introduce Cam Chan or even my own cafe in the near future. :)

After their kind reception, its to the temples! My first time into a temple actually… First stop, Si Ma Lu Guan Yin Temple… so much smoke really buay tahan! But the sea of worshippers stirred up something within me. Before we stepped in, our dear SF was lured to a stall… he wanted to buy a scripture chanting CD w music. The lady at the stall told us that, if SF wants she can give him discount cos he is a monk. And my acquaintance insisted that she pays for it.

Then after much looking ard in the temple, i scooted out… too much smoke for my liking. They proceeded with shopping… The lady was looking ard at clothes but kept saying not nice, or too expensive compared to States etc… argh… GRRR… Then the SF slips off to the beads section. My sis scooted off looking  at watches, so i had to try to be help with the comms. Bargaining took place, and … GRIN … i had to help the SF to buy 108 beads. The deal closed @ a price which i still think is  a rip off for some plastic, but they insisted it was crystal. And the SF was too attracted to the BLING BLING of the beads to wait for a further slash in price… OMG! SUPER BLING LOR! Question marks and exclamation marks were raining on my head like snow, but i kept to myself… If Christians like to wear nice cross, i guess monks are also entitled to BLING BLING chanting beads bah… :X

Next was the Burmese temple somewhere in/near Balestiar, thanks to the Heritage race that Dadi and gang roped me in, else i wont have a clue man… a nice place with plenty of photo taking for them… But it was a cow and horse sight when the Burmese and Vietnamese tried to communicate… hehehee…

We proceeded to shopping as requested, it was orchard road that we headed for. First Wisma Atrium then Taka; it was a trying time for me when they tested my patriotism but continuous sayings of SG no good, this too expensive think States or even Vietnam better, etc etc etc… Let me explain; 1) pekchek abt her complains abt sg no gd. 2) ask me bring them there then complain nothing here and nothing there. WOW LAU EH! wasted my time and parking lor… and some more kana fine lor…

Best way to calm one down is thru food; we then decided to have dinner. Our good frens say they wanna do food tasting, and told us to bring them to East Coast Long Beach. But seeing that the following day is Father’s Day, my sis and i exchanged looks when she insisted even after we warned her of long waiting time or no crabs/seafood. True to our suspicions, no parking and had to wait long long. Finally @ Long Beach, we were told crabs sold out. They were sorely disappointed, but i was glad… cos they had the same thing on previous nite and i am frightened by the frequent and amount they order lor. All i can say is, Long Beach @ East Coast standard dropped rock bottom. Shake head man… food sucks and price ex… totally not going back there at all. Think Jumbo is better.

Erm… forgot to mention, some credit for the SF, he was having vegan all the while. Poor fella sees all the nice and fanciful stuffs but he cant touch. But he does have a appetite though, the usual is 1 vegan fried rice, 1 vegan veggie dish, 1 vegan tofu dish and 1 vegan horfun. But i still dun think this amount of food justify his build, his build looks more like meat base build ley… hmm……

Anyway, i am just glad the bizarre sat went pass without getting too ugly. Dear God, thanks for showing me that i cannot be tour guide. From the bottom of my heart, i totally agree w you… no tour guiding for me!

*time to peng shan*

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Hi… my name is dumb dumb, you can call me dumb numero 1.

Of scum and scams, was perhaps too strong to be used on the recent unpleasant experience my fren and I had encountered recently. But it was pretty amusing to see that THE LAND OF THOUSAND SMILES to be actually THE LAND OF THOUSAND SCAMS.

This recent vacation of mine was very different from the typical holiday in Thailand. Up north we headed for Chiang Mai and Chiang Rai… up into the hills/mountain of akha land; where we experience simple rural life of bugs, murky water in the sink, single daily transport to the city, power failure etc… Other than these, we enjoyed the visit to a village school, and were more aware of our good fortunes at home. We truly enjoyed our time up in akha hills… and who knows, we might be going back there again.

The service apartment we had in Bangkok was great, it was like re-living my days working overseas. I left my grief and anger there, and the breeze took them, the swimming pool took them… I have always tried to make the best out of situations and this time should not be any different.

As for the scams thing, I rest it in God’s hand. I just do what I can do, and leave the rest to the pro to handle it… God will handle it for me. It’s sad that time after time I am reminded that there is no trust in ppl, between strangers… between fellow countrymen, between associates and colleagues, between friends, and even between family members… This is a crappy world that malfunctions big time, I guess it needs Yahwah all the more…

“The Land of Thousand Scams”.

Dear Sir,

We would like to seek your kind assistance in obtaining refunds for gem purchases made in Bangkok, as we believe we are victims of a gem scam.

It happened on 4th June 2009. We had just arrived in Bangkok, waiting for the night train to travel up to Chiang Mai. Our plans were to visit the National Museum, the "Sitting Buddha" statues, and other tourist attractions in Bangkok.

When we arrived at the National Museum, we found notices put up at the entrance. A kind Thai man told us that the Royal family had come to visit, and therefore the place was closed. We were then directed to a gem selling place by him, and there was supposed to be a one day only gem export promotion.

The name of the gem company is Erawan Lapidary, and the salesman who greeted us was named Roy. We were told that all their gems were genuine quality products, and came with certifications of authenticity. My friend and I each bought a sapphire gem set, which consisted of a pair of sapphire ear rings, a ring and a pendant, all in gold setting. The price of these items was 52,000 baht per set.

Upon returning home, we happily presented these gifts to our mothers only to disappoint them when someone pointed out that the gems were of very inferior quality. We had them checked at the local jewellery shop, and they confirmed our fears. These gem sets we have now are not genuine quality products which was promised to us.

Subsequently, we did some research on the internet and found out that many had fallen to similar scams over the last 5-10 years. Sadly, none of them was publicised to educate and warn the public. It would sadden many to learn that “The Land of Thousand Smiles” is actually more like “The Land of Thousand Scams”.

We are dismayed to know that many people are involved in this scam, and they are doing it openly in public. Thus, we have decided to relate our unpleasant experience to the general public through the media. We hope to create an awareness of such scams, so as to prevent more people from falling into them, and stop these scammers from flourishing at the expense of the ignorant public.

We would like to seek your help to get a full refund for our purchases. I can make a personal trip down to Bangkok to bring the gems back for refund and log a report with the Thai tourist police if necessary.

I deeply appreciate if you can get back to me on the next course of action.

Thursday, June 11, 2009

Benjamin's letter

For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it.

And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.

Monday, June 01, 2009

End of one, beginning of another...

One of my greatest joy, was the excitement i had @ the end of 2008, and the beginning of 2009; where much anticipation of good change...

Another overwhelming joy was from my best friend, who ended their 12yrs long of relationship in matrimony... where now, she takes it her first priority to marry me off as well... forming the awsome trio "tai tai" grp... (argh)

Within 2 weeks, was the demise of my grandma... it was a news which i dreaded, since the day i had left to work overseas. I blamed myself for many things, but none of it changed anything. This is one blow that had me sprawling on the ground still... The disappointments that came after, only left anger in me... and all my family can see in me, is anger.

After 3 brief weeks, i left my company... a job which i had loved and gave all for the past 8yrs and 5 mths. The sad truth for leaving was, i couldnt stand the job any longer... Each morning was a dread for the last 2 yrs... Its time something is to be done.

Its scary; to step out of something so familiar, where you think yr capabilities are... Especially when the recent events had not been a smooth passage. I hadnt had a change to think, rather... i refused to start thinking... i have this plan, but i dun seems to like this plan... but its the only plan i have...

God will lead... rite?

Monday, May 11, 2009

Hebe's take on 華麗上班族之生存與生活

星期日趕上在台北最後一場華麗上班族之生存與生活
一開始並不清楚是怎樣的一個故事
總覺得上班族? 我不是上班族….我是上班族?...共鳴…?
但因為聽到是張艾嘉自編自演的舞台劇
就先訂了票 把自己推進戲院
只能說 咻~還好..我有訂票

舞台設計得很簡單很棒
在導演的空間安排下 巧妙十足
是一階階的階梯 由下往上
好像就象徵著人一旦被丟入社會 進入職場
就沒得選擇的只能一階一階的向上爬 否則就是被一步一步的往下拉 向下踩
真的是一部笑裡藏刀的悲喜劇
看完這齣劇被迫面對社會 職場的殘酷
很不舒服
我想 真正在職場上的上班族應該更有感觸吧
劇中每個角色都會出現在你身邊
每句台詞都針針見血
把辦公室裡爭權奪利 相互撕咬的真面目血淋淋的體現
提醒著每個人是否還記得當初手中握有的理想
還是握著的早已變成慾望了?
不自覺得被貪婪侵蝕的體無完膚了?


這應該是第一次欣賞以自己母語演出的舞台劇
很直接的感受到演員的每個情緒 每個悲喜 每一句台詞
別於電影 震撼力加倍
即便我的座位離舞台很遠 看不清楚演員的表情
但是情緒貼得很近 好幾度雞皮疙瘩一直出風頭
張艾嘉 真的是張艾嘉 不是張學友(好啦 我很白吃 你們儘管罵我)
王耀慶….硬到打不碎的硬底子演員
要在劇場演戲的演員真的很厲害
一演下來就是三小時
每場戲的情緒轉換之快 又收放自如
扎實的演技
令人感動

謝幕的時候 我不停止的讓我雙手的掌紋貼合又張開 貼合又張開
鼓勵他們的努力 鼓勵他們帶給我的 鼓勵我自己還沒出現在劇中的任何一個角色
感謝我是享受生活 享受工作
而不是爲了生存

你呢? 如果是為了生存
我祝福你步步高升 但願你行正途 取之有道 達到理想

Saturday, May 09, 2009

Love & Grief

Love is taking out your heart and leaving it at the mercy of that party,
regardless if its family, frens or the opposite gender.
And getting hurt is inevitable...

Not all wounds are intentional,
but all pain are the real...

Grief is a wound,
that is invisible to the eye,
and temporally numb at times...
But once you check on the wound,
u'll be surprise at the magnitude of the pain.

Thursday, April 30, 2009

She's gone...

she's gone,
she left her body,
that empty shell is not her!

Dramatic morning
Confusion,
tears, more tears, even more tears
eyes swollen and painful
headache from weeping
lost...

i cant speak of wat hap,
so i din inform anyone,
except for the ppl whom i asked to pray...
and i had to call Lian...

That call clear most of my system,
suddenly woken

still dunno wat to do,
wait and see tmw.

Saturday, April 11, 2009

One two three...

One two three,
dun run from me...
Come tell me,
all that you see...

My eyes are weak,
and my sight has dimmed,
barely barely can i see...
Would you bring some light to me?

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Keo Oi, chúc mừng sinh nhật!

Before the strike to 12, i want to wish my dear fren a BLESSED BIRTHDAY again... i have no idea when exactly we started to celebrate her birthday together, but i am extremely glad to participate .... :)

I still cannot get over the "she was my fren's fren... but now she is my good fren..." where is that other fren? i dunno :(  It happens, and i have long learnt that, no matter who is beside you now, they will take on a path of their own... its not selfish, its something they must do and go...

In the frantic of gathering a surprise for her, i hadnt the time to really sit down and write something to her... So here goes :

想让你今年的生日热闹一点, 想让你有被好友围绕你而不孤单的感觉, 希望你有快乐一点, 希望你的心有那么一点点地微笑 - 真心的微笑。。。 明年的你我不知道会在哪里, 跟什么人过。。。 但你这个朋友太难忘记;所以无论你人在哪,或我们还有没有联络, 你会一直 in my prayers! :)

Sunday, March 22, 2009

me???

◎您是智慧的寶劍,可攻可守,有勇有謀,充滿誠信與義氣,喜歡有禮貌,有智慧的人。有主導權與領導能力,對於現狀的不滿,能勇於突破。◎
根據命理來分析您的個性,潛意識,以及行為模式,您是屬於「寶劍命」,因此您天生具有寶劍的特質,有魄力、義氣,與霸氣。您也十分有才幹與領導能力,富有公平心與正義感,喜歡保護弱小,不喜歡恃強凌弱,受人恩惠,必定回報,不願意辜負別人,也不願意占人便宜。寶劍雖然外在感覺比較強勢,但內心卻很溫暖,吃軟不吃硬。寶劍銳利無比,因此您對於現狀的不滿,能勇於突破,抗衡壓力,改變環境,掌握自己的命運,但是寶劍有時後使用不當,也會傷到自己人,因此您有時候會太過積極,造成身邊的人過大的壓力。
此外,您喜歡有聰明智慧,才華創意的人,不喜歡懦弱沒有擔當的人,而能讓您佩服的人,多半是有領袖特質,能夠犧牲奉獻,講求公平正義的人。您的一生,像寶劍一樣,但是要成為真正的寶劍,寒光射天地,劍氣沖斗牛,是需要經過反覆的淬煉。沒有經過淬煉的寶劍,只能成為廢鐵。然而要經過淬煉,需要有浴火鳳凰的精神,不怕痛苦與磨難,只要您經得起外在的考驗,不怨天尤人,進而學習成長,一旦通過考驗,您的成就將不可限量,是領袖級的人物,風雨不能影響您,困難不能障礙您,成為不敗的常勝軍。


◎您本命五行土太旺,胃腸機能比較弱,容易有腹脹,腹痛,腹瀉,消化吸收的問題。◎
根據命理分析,您天生胃腸功能比較弱,在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題,等多是腸胃不適、胃酸過多、脹氣、腹瀉、腹痛等問題,但是如果您現在不照顧消化系統,隨著年紀越來越大就很容易導致消化系統病變,例如食道炎,胃炎、胃潰瘍、腸炎、大腸息肉、痔瘡、糖尿病等問題。因此您不能過度勞累,要調適壓力,維持正常作息,早睡早起,三餐要定時定量,不能喝酒,少吃刺激性飲食,才可以保護先天比較弱的胃腸功能。
此外,所謂「病從口入」,人類大部分的疾病來源都跟飲食有關,根據中醫理論,食物可以分成金、木、水、火、土等五種五行。您可能偏好吃各種甜食或甜點,因此,您的細胞中,充滿太多「土」的五行,會導致健康,財運與事業的不圓滿,建議您平時最好能飲食均衡,菜色均衡,則陰陽五行調和,生活美滿幸福。


◎但是您八字缺木,肝膽機能也比較弱,容易疲累,體力差,要注意膽固醇,三酸甘油酯的問題。◎
根據命理分析,您天生肝膽功能比較差,所以容易感覺疲倦,體力似乎不如人,因此無法從事需要大量勞力的工作。在年輕的時候不會有太大的問題,頂多是肝火旺盛,長青春痘,容易煩躁等問題,但隨著年紀越來越大,肝膽功能需要更多的照顧,不然很容易有膽固醇、三酸甘油酯的問題,甚至容易導致免疫功能衰退、肝功能異常、脂肪肝、肝硬化、膽結石、膽囊息肉、青光眼、白內障或視力病變等問題。因此您不能過度勞累,而且千萬不能喝酒,要維持正常作息,早睡早起,才可以保護先天比較弱的肝膽功能。
此外,您在晚上會比白天更有精神,工作也比較有靈感,效率也比較高,所以您容易晚睡晚起,早睡早起對您比較好,雖然不容易做到,但是會對您的命運有很大的幫助。此外,您不太願易得罪人,也不願意當第一位,老二哲學比較適合您。如果您想改變這種現象,一定要戒酒,喝酒會讓您的運勢低落,體能衰退。如果您能養成早睡早起的好習慣,再配合早晨去公園運動,那您的命運將會有很大的改變,身體健康,財運順利,事業圓滿,家庭幸福。


◎簡易愛情分析,您是屬於比較強勢的太太。您的愛情不是屬於濃情密意的那一型,他比較沒主見,而您比較有智慧,在未來的感情路上,您們會遇到許多溝通上的問題,需要您們以智慧與包容來一一克服。◎
您愛情的模式,根據命理分析,您對於在生命中出現的異性,不太容易心動,您的眼光有點高,因此除非對象很完美,內外在美兼具,氣質儀表出眾,還要有深度,您才會心動。這類型的男生是世間稀有,如果有,早就被別人追走了。因此,您容易感嘆得不到真愛,尋常的愛情您也不容易珍惜。一般來說,您是具有深度的人,異性對您的第一印象都不會太深,需要經過交往的階段,異性才會發現您的氣質、優點與內在美。換句話說,您的戀愛對象不容易第一眼就喜歡上您,卻很可能經過長時間相處而喜歡上您。相反地,您很容易第一眼就確定喜不喜歡一個人。因此,如果您在等待美好的愛情,您可以試著把自己的內在美透過各種方式表現出來,多參加各種活動,多培養各種興趣,多接觸不同人群,如此您會在不知不覺中,讓您的內在美隨時展現,愛情才會更順利。
在人生的旅程中,您對於愛情有點挑剔,因此在生命的河流中,要碰到兩情相悅,並擦出愛的火花並不是那麼容易,但卻也不是那麼難,您和愛人的戀情最容易在變遷時發生,例如工作變動,生涯轉換,或進入一個新環境,或參加陌生的活動。離開您熟悉的環境,讓您感覺到缺乏熟悉事物的保護時,才容易卸下您的心防,並且發生新戀情。至於,結婚的對象,因為您會比較注重精神層次,因此您很有可能會晚婚。若是您到現在,對象還沒有出現,您身邊認識的人中,最談得來、個性最相合,或一直守在您身邊的那一位可能就是您的對象了,只要您真心誠意給對方一點暗示,幸福就在您身邊。


◎簡易事業分析,您的工作類型大部分都需要思考,從事一些靜態的工作。這類型的工作,需要有才華,有理想,能專心,以心靈為導向。◎
每一個行業中都有不同的職位,而您的工作類型,不論在哪一個行業中發展,大部分都需要思考,從事一些靜態的工作。例如,行政管理,市場行銷,文化藝術,學術研究,發明創造,宗教哲學,非營利事業等偏向靜態的工作。這類型的工作,需要有才華,有理想,能專心,以心靈為導向。如果您選擇從事這類型工作,您會比較順利,輕鬆,也更能發揮所長。但是世界上跟您一樣有天份的人很多,唯有不斷進步才有無可取代的價值。
另外,您的工作類型容易產生下列迷思。一、喜歡思考的人容易沉浸在自己的世界,一般人不容易進入您的內心,所以會比較孤獨寂寞。二、喜歡思考的人缺乏執行力,容易說得多做得少。三、喜歡思考的人不喜歡爭名奪利,不容易經由競爭而成功,但可以經由等待而成功。此外,對於其他工作領域,像是績效導向的工作,協調整合的工作,領導統馭的工作,或體力勞動的工作,都是您比較不適合的工作類型,您會覺得乏味無趣,不願意做,也做不久。


◎簡易財運分析,您不容易守財,您有很多的愛好與興趣,也比較注重生活品質,您對於相關的花費不會吝嗇,因此您使用過的金錢才是您的財富。◎
根據命理分析,您不容易守財,您有很多的愛好與興趣,因此您對於跟自己愛好與興趣相關的花費不會吝嗇。您也比較注重生活品質,因此對於提升居住品質,或營造心靈品質的花費也不吝嗇。您的個性也不容易拒絕別人,所以身邊經常有很多情況需要花錢,就算您手頭比較緊,該花的錢您還是會花。一旦您手頭比較寬裕,您花錢起來會更大方,正因為如此,您當然不容易存錢。如果以一生的時間來衡量,您今生大部份的財富會被您拿來做自己想做的事情,您會認為您使用過的金錢才是您真正擁有的財富。之後,您不會遺留太多的財富給後代子孫。

Saturday, March 21, 2009

Much Ado About Nothing


Presented by SRT Mainstage
Fort Canning Park
From 7 May 2009

Love, laughter, madness and mayhem.

‘Shakespeare in the Park’ returns this May with one of the greatest comedies of all time.

Sumptuous costumes, a spectacular set, music, dancing, word play and laughter come together to make a joyful night. Bring a picnic basket and blanket and lie under the stars as the park comes to life like you have never seen before.

In 2007, over 20,000 people came to SRT’s landmark production of A Midsummer Night’s Dream at Fort Canning Park. This year’s Much Ado About Nothing promises to be even more fun.

Whether you want to enjoy a wonderful romantic comedy, be part of a historic event, or just have a picnic, this will be a spectacular evening for young and old.

As war-weary soldiers return home, sparks fly as a battle of love commences.

At the wealthy Leonato’s house, the beautiful young Hero catches the eye of Claudio, a handsome soldier.  They fall in love at first sight and rush headlong into marriage, but they still have a lot to learn about each other.  There is no such hurry for confirmed singletons Beatrice and Benedick, whose scorn for love and love of bickering inspire their scheming friends to plot them a happy ending.

A hilarious showdown between the sexes unfolds in Shakespeare's dark and dazzling romantic comedy.

Directed by Edward Dick
Directed the hugely successful tour of Romeo and Juliet for Shakespeare's Globe as well as A Midsummer Night's Dream for the Sydney Theatre Company. He also directed Twelfth Night for Regent’s Park Open Air Theatre.
Starring (in alphabetical order)
Adrian Pang (MediaCorp Artiste) with Jason Chan, Michael Corbidge, Wendy Kweh and Julie Wee.

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

You And Me


what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up
and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time


cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you


all of the things that I want to say
just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping inwards
you got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here


cause it's you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you


there's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
everything she does is beautiful
everything she does is right


you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to lose
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you


you and me and all of the people
with nothing to do
nothing to prove
and it's you and me and all of the people
and I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you


what day is it
and in what month
this clock never seemed so alive

Monday, March 02, 2009

WEE HOURS OF 02 MAR 2009

I HAD A GREAT TIME AT GOLF EARLIER IN THE MORNING.

I ENJOYED MY TEOCHEW MUI LUNCH AT MY FAV STALL.

I ENJOYED AN EMPTY HOUSE WITH A COLD BEER FOR TEA TIME.

I FELL ASLEEP WHILE WAITING FOR MY SISTER TO COME BACK FOR DINNER...

I WOKE UP AT 2300HRS.

NOW I AM HUNGRY... CAN I EAT U?

 

GRIN.....

Saturday, February 28, 2009

In midst of sleeplessness

I have been very bless since the day i was born... i had the love of both paternal and maternal grandparents, and of cos my parents... In the chinese culture, grandfathers of my generation are usually man of few words, but plenty of unfriendly written all over their faces... But my sister and i had been exceptions in our family, for both father's and mother's side... in their own subtle ways......

I am very proud to recount the days when my paternal grandparents fussed abt me... My grandma has to flash out her teaching status to get me into the MPCC kindegarten, and TNS... My grandma was SUPER COOL! Then there was my grandpa who was all excited to give me 10mins briefing for my 1st day in kindergarten... The whole 10mins were actually 3 instructions: 1. If ppl beat u, PUNCH THEM BACK IN THE FACE. 2. If they beat you back again, PUNCH THEM BACK AGAIN. 3. If they cry, PUNCH THEM AGAIN. LOLx... my grandpa also very cool rite! kakaka...

Of all my cousins in my father's side, my grandma said grandpa loved my sis and most... becos we were exactly like our dad, who in turn was exactly like himself... We were suppose to learn calligraphy and chinese ink from him, cos that was his life, but lessons barely started he was diagnosed with a condition that required a minor operation. Grandpa and Dad made a pact to give up smoking after the operation, and i was super happy... but it nv had chance to come to pass...

My maternal grandparents were hardy and tough ppl, such that my grandpa looks like he is going to eat u any time... But yet this taxi man was quite a romantic; he actually surprised my grandma on afternoon by no going to his shift but fetched her to fetch me from TNS. Mind you they not young hor... and i was primary 1 bah... kekeke That's not all, he then brought us to see movie at republic cinema and have tim sum after the show. hahahaha WHOLE FAMILY WAS STUNNED TO HEAR TAT LOR! And i was there to testify for him. :)

In my short biz venture, I remembered how much pride he was wearing on his face when i told him i want to bring him to my internet cafe to drink kopi... Of cos, he declined in a LOUD way... cos i was making 3-in-1, saying instant kopi sucks. He complained tat i shld learn to make the traditional kopi from grandma, after all we are descendants kopitiam owners... Then the venture fell thru when my partner decides to pull stunts on me. I was very sad, but i guess my grandpa was too... cos i nv did have the chance to bring him down to see the place in the whole 6mths... Not longer after, he too fell ill and passed on...

I hated my complicated family issues, and preferred to stay away from my uncles and aunts, but i love my grandparents...

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Tots that crept into my mind

I was instructed to attend a leadership training course, and though it was boringly uninteresting, some information that the trainer shared actually left and impression...

The first that caught my attention was how our brains do not understand the word "DON'T" ...... Here's an example, try to follow my instructions...

>>>DO NOT aka DONT think about the number 7 now.

You are thinking of the number now, aren't you? Instead of not thinking about the subject, its was all the more magnified than before... The more we dun try to do something the more attention it is getting thus leading to a greater probability that we will do it...

Another impressionable note was the question-less experience during the course... He totally whacked us with this statement, "For every question that you ask, you already have the answer." We were dumbfounded... but still i do doubt the integrity of that answer within... have an answer... YES, but correct anot???

The answers from within are usually the based upon past experiences, perceptions and the education/information imparted to us. If the past experience or perception or even the education/information was inaccurate, then how? I really do not think anyone would have the ultimate correct answer... other than God himself.

One last note for today... in the midst of my indecisiveness, i am going to rest in the decision i made... since i made it and i am going to stick by it... I am nervous, but i am not worried... strange but thats that..... a kiwi i am in the year 2009!

Sunday, February 01, 2009

华丽上班族之生活与生存

This is definitely the best performance i had seen so far, rather than telling you what the story is depicting, i find that its more important and interesting on how it came about and into a performance of existance. This is a short extract of their promo event .

Wednesday, January 28, 2009

Steven Curtis Chapman - I Will Be Here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I, I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

I will be here
And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here

Love Song

I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain
But I walked the hill of calvary

Chorus
Just to be with you, I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you, I'd give anything
I would give my life away.

I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
How may times has he broken that promise
It can never be done
I've never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge)
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I gave you
But I promise, I would do it all again.
Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.

                                                                                  - Third Day

Monday, January 19, 2009

Another dream

It just came to my mind that i had another "interesting" dream ystd, i guess i can categorize it to be in the science fiction section... Let me see how much i can recall, after all its really not tat fresh in my mind any more......

It started with something happened... and someone was being pursued... then it complicated me and i started to run for my dear life... somehow we knew there was a escape route and we heading for the bathroom and locked ourselves in it. As the door was being locked, someone sort of opened a portal by stepping on a small round circular pad. One step on the thing with the left foot and then the person goes a portal! The thing happened real fast so abt 5 of us got thru the thing real quick, that we din even hear the pursuers opening or banging on the bathroom door.

Think that was the end of the adrenaline pumping excitement, but it wasn't the end of the dream. Cant remember what happen after reaching the other end of the portal, but it was somewhere safe bah. I only rem that i went thru the portal another 2 times, with the last time going into an apartment... It was a beautiful place where no one was ard. I knew it wasn't my place for sure, cos i sort of was enjoying the apartment when the owner is not ard. And i kinda think that i would jump into the portal when the owner is back... other than that i was enjoying the place as my own...

Sadly... the dream ends with me waking up in my reality portal... my bed.

The time of spring cleaning

Spring cleaning... the time where things get thrown away and dust is hunted down and eliminated! I have to really be frank, i hate throwing things away cos each time i do the harden my heart act... throw stuffs away... i end up needing soon after it was sent off to be with Mr Rubbish Chute......

Logically speaking, trash or rubbish are stuffs which we no longer need... but i to battle the question of no longer needing it @ tat moment or no longer needing in near future and no longer needing it forever... My problem is... i really dunno if i dun need the stuffs ever ever ever again...

This year has to be a special year, i'm not telling u why, but i am going to make it one... i really wanna start removing things which i dun need......

Vodka really have to go... no qualms abt it.!!!  :P

Sunday, January 18, 2009

Having and opinion and keeping my peace

It has been the dances of unbearable discomfort for me in the last few days... In the department of health, I'm not exactly pink but rather red... I tot i had held it out quite well until the last working day of the week... which was yesterday... where i was disoriented, coupled with bodily discomfort and verbal insults were hurl on this proud and not so fragile body...

Then we had to board a cab where the driver was laughing at the end of all his sentences... It was obviously he was trying to find someone to chat with, i was going to try to entertain him but i found no voice and decided to give when he keep hearing things which i had not said... Annoyed i decided to keep my peace...

But towards the end of the ride, he managed to piss me off by saying that there is no point for females to earn lotsa $, instead females shld just cast out their lines and wait for a good man to come by.... Then in a matter of 30secs, he started to say there are no good man ard, and females shld make do with watever they can get...  - . - Thats the ultimate straw man!

At that very point of time, i really do have a DAMN OPINION and i am glad i kept me peace, else i would be smashing his cab in this very moment... OH GOD! I receive yr love for this unlovable cab driver... Grrr.....

Ps. But the reason tat kept me awake is Facebook Poker not him... THK GOD!

Monday, January 12, 2009

2009

To fly......


No hair ... for my hair brush.....


i understand now......

Thursday, January 08, 2009

Sudden Panic Attack

Its really an awful feeling when yr heart suddenly jumped into a a super face beating rate... I call it a panic attack...

Not sure why suddenly i feel so uncomfortable, but its really uncomfortable... I'm not in particular worried abt anything so far, maybe a little anxious but not worried... cos now i make a conscious effort not to.

Usually, i would start to pray in tongues, and when it persists, i would sms Isaac for help to pray for me...

But now is not the usual....

Monday, January 05, 2009

Second Steps

Looking thru the blog posts of 2008, i find lots of rubbish leh... Most of posts were some crap analysis, while others are lyrics, and then there were plenty of meaningless pictures... what in the world was i doing in 2008.

In 2007, i wanted to know my gifts and talents, and i had wanted to use them... exploit them for the Lord. At the end of that year, i did find the answers. In 2008, i wanted to put these gifts and talents to work. But i dont think i did... My guitar was half learnt, i din attend care grp for a long time and i was no longer attending services regularly...

Nevertheless, i will to try to complete the things which i had not in 2008. Learning guitar is something like a never ending process, so this time round i have challenged myself to have an "examination" I will have to take to my care grp leader about it first though... but i think he will support me.

Last sunday i met many ppl from my care grp, and from each of them were the same words, "What happened to you?!! You disappeared suddenly..???" For the thousand and one times sake, it was not because of the split in care grp. It was simply me not able to relate to anyone in the care grp bah... Anyway, will be meeting up ex care grp leader soon... maybe will meet up with current leader as well...

I guess i'm just more excited abt meeting Yun jie, and all the ex TC-ians... Well, other than catching up, i do have an agenda... i need to talk to someone, and hopefully Yun jie and Laura will have answers for me... they were the big sisters who had saw me thru each and every event in C.O.S, they can help me to resolve the 2nd knot that i have.

After resolving the knots, i guess it will be full steam ahead for me on my career change :) I think my interest is still in working with people... i prefer to work alongside people than being in front or behind them... My young time dream to go on a mission trip in Vietnam may very well about to come true in this year?

First step into 2009

There were many things which I had to decide and close in the year 2008,  one of them was dragging too much and had to be put to an end... enough of the " a complicated affair "

His once stated “It’s complicated” status is now removed completely… I would not say that it’s a burden off me, but I am feeling some relieve… The 3 part issues is now one part solved… but he will no longer entertain me nor cheer me up nor pick up my call @ 3am in the morning… With this friend lesser, I do feel a little lost.

Another one part was solved by my dear mobile service provider who stops connecting my old M1 number to my current number. I have also made my stand to show my dearest friend that I have no recollection of who he is. He has been promoted and transferred to another unit where our paths will not meet… In anyway, I will be resigning in less than a year. I can quite safely say that all we no longer have any chance of intersecting each other unless we run into each other in SengKang.

As for the last part, I will leave it to God to untie the last stubborn knot. Think many friends had vomit blood, because I could not understand what they were trying to tell me. But I think Pastor Peter Youngren did get something thru to me… J

I guess this is my first step to breaking chains… and breaking the finishing line…

Thursday, January 01, 2009

PONYO PONYO PONYO~~~!!!

1st Jan 2009

Psalm 46
To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of the sons of Korah. A Song for Alamoth.
1 God is our refuge and strength,
         A very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear,
         Even though the earth be removed,
         And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.  Selah  
4 There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
         The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
5 God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
         God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
6 The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
         He uttered His voice, the earth melted.
7 The LORD of hosts is with us;
         The God of Jacob is our refuge.  Selah  
8 Come, behold the works of the LORD,
         Who has made desolations in the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
         He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
         He burns the chariot in the fire.
10 Be still, and know that I am God;
         I will be exalted among the nations,
         I will be exalted in the earth!

11 The LORD of hosts is with us;
         The God of Jacob is our refuge.  Selah 

Isaiah 43:16, 18-19

“This is what the LORD says— he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”-

Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Remembering Angelyn's Dream and Elisha

Probably been thinking too much after ciewing the video made by the first parents... the parents of NOELLE...

Guess everyone's moved on pretty much,
afterall its been years...

I may have been the first few to leave the group,
but i jus realized that i'm the onli one who is still stubbornly holding on...
to the one dream which we had promised to never forget,
to the one dream that we all had believed that will come to pass,
to the one dream where we all had hoped to be part of...

Perhaps i should let it go,
or move on as i wait...
wasting moons which i no longer have had wore me out...

i hope that i would still have the energy to move on,
and the determination to carry it thru...

2009 is going to be more than different...

is it going to be revolutiON ?

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Emoticons or smileys explained

An Emoticon (or Smiley) is a sequence of ordinary characters you can find on your computer keyboard. Emoticons are used in e-mail, chat, SMS and other forms of communication using computers. The most popular emoticons are the smiling faces (smileys or smilies) that people use to say "don't take what I just wrote too seriously". If you don't see that it represents a smiling face, tip your head to the left and look at it again. The colon represents the eyes, the dash represents the nose, and the right parenthesis represent the mouth.

Many people use MSN and Yahoo, for this reason I added a list with MSN and Yahoo emoticons. When using these during your chat session, they will be converted to real icons.

As Google also released a messenger (Google Talk) you find a link to download this messenger, however you need a G-mail address to use this.

In the Bonus MSN emoticons you will now find special emoticons related to the upcoming holidays!
These emoticons show an Emotion through an 'Icon'. Over hundreds of these Emoticons are being used. The most common and funny can be found here.

 

Expressing emotions

(^_^) = smile

(^o^) = laughing out loud

d(^_^)b = thumbs up (not ears)

(T_T) = sad (crying face)

(-.-)Zzz = sleeping

(Z.Z) = sleepy person

\(^_^)/ = cheers, "Hurrah!"

(*^^*) = shyness

(-_-); = sweating (as in ashamed)

(^_^);; = "Sorry! My mistake."

(?_?) = "Nonsense, I don't know."

(^_~) = wink

(o.O) = surprise

(<.<) = shifty, suspicious

v(^_^)v = victory

(>^_^)> = hugging

(>^_^)> <(^_^<) = hugging each other (^o^)

180px-Smiley_svg

Tuesday, December 02, 2008

Hair days

ahhhhhhhhh i think i realli miss my shoulder length hair, after i gotten it short, most ppl where shocked and many were nice and compliment on the fresh and lively new me... Then the fringe came in and poke me eyes and now i miss the longer hair... So i went to get a trim, to set the hair in the rite shape for the hair to grow longer without it becoming alfro alfro...

ARH! i tahan..... tahan..... tahan...... till my hair abit longer

Aiya... either its i accept my short hair or get my hair long... lets see which is faster k!

Monday, December 01, 2008

My prayer for you...

ABBA,

My heavenly Father, my good and merciful GOD!!! Thank you that you never give up on any of us, thank you that you are always keeping watch over her, protecting her!

Lord here i ask of you to be her wisdom, that she knows how to handle each situation well. Lord i ask of you to show her yourself, that things isn't what she thinks it is... Lord i ask of you to protect her and her family and friends, keep them from harm and bless them with favours and blessings according to your promises.

Lord i leave her in your hands, for i know you always take a better care of her than i can, than i am... I thank you for this gift of opportunity to pray for her and i am even more grateful to you for keeping her safe... and to hear her thanking you for yr heroism.

Thank you for re-affirming my faith, that you are a good and loving God who truly loves us... that all the ppl i love are in good hands... in yr hands... with or without me... that i can just go...

Thank you.

In the most precious name of my Lord, Jesus Christ...

AMEN!

Psalm 91 (New King James Version)

I guess i am more than upset upon the news of the recent mumbai terrorist attacks, in fact... there was a certain degree of anger... No point sharing my anger, i guess in this world of instability it would help more if you know, if u remember that there is a God who is for u and not against u... who is come to save u and deliver you... Ps91, God's promise of protection for all of us... ^_^
Psalm 91
Safety of Abiding in the Presence of God
1 He who dwells in the secret place of the Most High
         Shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.
2 I will say of the LORD, “He is my refuge and my fortress;
         My God, in Him I will trust.”
3 Surely He shall deliver you from the snare of the fowler[a]
And from the perilous pestilence.
4 He shall cover you with His feathers,
         And under His wings you shall take refuge;
         His truth shall be your shield and buckler.
5 You shall not be afraid of the terror by night,
Nor of the arrow that flies by day,
6 Nor of the pestilence that walks in darkness,
Nor of the destruction that lays waste at noonday.
7 A thousand may fall at your side,
         And ten thousand at your right hand;
But it shall not come near you.
8 Only with your eyes shall you look,
         And see the reward of the wicked.
9 Because you have made the LORD, who is my refuge,
Even the Most High, your dwelling place,
10 No evil shall befall you,
         Nor shall any plague come near your dwelling;
11 For He shall give His angels charge over you,
         To keep you in all your ways.
12 In their hands they shall bear you up,
         Lest you dash your foot against a stone.
13 You shall tread upon the lion and the cobra,
         The young lion and the serpent you shall trample underfoot.
14 “Because he has set his love upon Me, therefore I will deliver him;
         I will set him on high, because he has known My name.
15 He shall call upon Me, and I will answer him;
         I will be with him in trouble;
         I will deliver him and honor him.
16 With long life I will satisfy him,
         And show him My salvation.”

Footnotes:

  1. Psalm 91:3 That is, one who catches birds in a trap or snare

Friday, November 21, 2008

November

On November, in the year before last, i was alone...                         alone and far away from home.

Last November, i just came back to the place i call home.

This very November, this very month, i am standing still .

But where will i be next November?

Where will you be?                                                                         

( I hope neither of us will be alone ^_^ )

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...........

Its NO GOOD! I CANT WORK LIKE TIS!!! NOT IN SUCH A STRESSFUL ENVIRONMENT!!!

I was told by my customers, my users and my dear friends that they saw the very animal which i fear VERY MUCH in the project work site that we are in!!! Their detail and vivid description was not helping me at all.... ahhhhhhhh!!! First, it was THE KINGLY SPECIES!! THEN it is a FREAKING 1.5m long!!! DAMN IT!!!!

YOU VILE CREATURE!!! I CURSE U!!! I CURSE YOU IN THE NAME OF GOD THAT YOU STAY 1KM AWAY FROM ME!!! ANY NEARER TO ME AND YOU BE STIRKE DEAD BY GOD!!! I FORBID YOU TO EVEN APPEAR BEFORE MY EYES!!! YOU VILE CREATURE, BE DEAD AND STAY DEAD AND STILL STAY AWAY FROM ME!!!!

Dear God, i thank you that you love me and you know how horrible that creature is. I thank you that i will never get to see it, or hear it; nor will i hear its victim's cries as like what angela has heard the other.

MY DEAREST MOST LOVING GOD, I THANK YOU THAT I WILL NEVER HAVE ANY ENCOUNTER WITH THAT TYPE OF CREATURE EVER... NOT NOW NOT TMW NOT EVER!!! I PRAISE YR NAME AND THE GOOD, FINISHED, COMPLETED WORK OF CHRIST ON THE CROSS! I THANK YOU THAT I ONLY HAVE GOOD FAVOUR AND BLESSINGS, THEREFORE NOT SEEING ANY VILE CREATURES OF ANY SORT EVER!

IN THE MOST POWERFUL,                                                                LOVING AND PRECIOUS NAME OF JESUS,

AMEN!!!!

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

Tracing my steps

I was going thru my old blog post cos i was looking for my "award winning" poem which i had written donkey years ago. Erm... its just something i wrote that gotten everyone's eyebrows raised that's all, not really in some competition or something...

While retracing all the blog posts, i can see the way i write and how i choice to expression my thoughts changed along the way... The early posts where more of agitation and overwhelming feelings, and these feelings were significantly lessen compare to the posts these days... Is this what they call an aging syndrome???

I can recall each incident that source the entries and i even recall the shock i had when i realized someone who knows me is reading this blog... the best thing was... i was the idiot who let loose the URL of this space lor... kekeke... i can recall the "OMG!" expression in my hotel room...i was overseas for work tat time...

hahahaha i seems to have gotten less interesting... in writing and in person... seems to have lost any interest in the human race??? Dun think its a good idea to be unfeeling to this world... i dun like 无所谓,i prefer the 有所谓 的 jelyfishy!

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Questions

Where are you?                                                                      Where were you last year and the year before?

Who are you with?                                                                      Who were you with last year and the year before?

How are you?                                                                                  How have you been, in last year and the year before?

Why?                                                                                        Why were you here? Why aren't you here ?                              

Does it matter?                                                                               Does it matter to me?                                                                 Does it help?                                                                             Does it change anything?

 

 

 

 

 

 

.............  why am i asking ?

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

What marriage can turn you into and what it will not turn you into...

Marriage would not redeem you from your loneliness, it will not turn the loneliness switch to permanent off; and if you build yr life around yr hubby and expect him to chase all loneliness away and give you 200% support, you'll probably be more disappointed and angry... and so will the other party bah...

Marriage can turn you into a super kan cheong, jumpy woman nervous wreak, as if it came with the title of Mrs So-and-so or Wife of So-and-so. Every little thing will be magnified, and mole hills will be made mountains... The common justification heard is, " Becos i love him too much and he is too impt!" Err.... i think i hear bells... not jungle bells but bells calling out for help from the man.....

Its scary enough that you have to take a big risk and make a choice, which its consequence will bored for the REST OF YOUR LIFE only. And now the freebie of turning into a manic creature, only makes it far more spookier...

 

To my best buddy:

My dear fren, i think you have a serious case of inferiority; i believe this is the root cause of your anxiety and depression, and its also the key damage factor for the disappointment angry in yr married life and partner. I can pray for you, but i prefer you speak to God yourself. And if you take me as yr fren, i hope the two of you will go see a marriage counsellor. You two do love each other, just that both of you do not understand each other's love language. Go see a marriage counsellor, she will help you to find the translations u need for each other......

Sunday, November 09, 2008

In and around

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Punggol风水地

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The real Grandma

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It was a very long while since the last time a camera appeared to capture a moment of my grandma and me together...... She was shy, but happy and excited abt the camera showing up...

AH MAH! I LOVE YOU!!!

Friday, November 07, 2008

He's just not that into you!

After much persistence and insistence of a certain friend, I finally picked up this book and read it; Cos she wouldn’t take it back until I had done so… I gave up and gave in. I really not interested in the book cos, I think I know what is in it when I heard the things she described to me. But I do think it’s a book that u can keep in your bookshelf and read it again some other time, or a much much later time.

I finished the book in less than 2 hrs, in MacDonald’s over a very late meal. As expected, the write-in entries and the replies by the Greg (male author) were spot-on. However, I did enjoy the honest sarcastic humor of the male author. And I can really feel the exasperations of Liz (the female author) who is in a “love and hate” relationship with this co-worker of hers. kekeke But I do think the “ I think I get it” entries are pretty crap. The work exercises are what I call “AMUSING” I guess the funniest part is the “Things you should have learnt in this chapter…” I can really imagine Greg saying those bulleted points

* GRIN*

Got some after thoughts of the book,
but kana slammed with work to do.

Everyone take 5 now, I brb!!!

SO UNGLAM!!!

Saw tis on Facebook :
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Wednesday, November 05, 2008

DIESEL ALL THE WAY!

Many thanks for the nice watch to u and you...

But even more thanks to you, who pestered me and dragged your tired self to go see and pick it out with me. Lagi more thank you for staying awake staying alive staying long sufferingly at my indecisiciveness.

Think i am really very unused to standing by and doing nothing by watch type of person, a strange awkward feeling simply overwhelms me...... its more like helplessness bah......

In short... thanks you very much. :)

Tuesday, November 04, 2008

羊 Personality

Intelligent with a mind for business. She has artistic inclination who tend to be pessimistic. Good natured and generous but can be undisciplined and irresponsible. May have somewhat antisocial tendencies. The Sheep is also indecisive and too passive. Yet she has fantastic luck in her life.

This is the most feminine sign of the zodiac. A person of the Goat year is called the Good Samaritan of the cycle. He is righteous, sincere and easily taken in by sob stories. He is likely to be mild-mannered, even shy. At his best, he is artistic, fashionable and a creative worker. At his worst, he tends to be easily overcome by his emotions, pessimistic and withdrawn.

The Goat is known for his gentle and compassionate ways. He can forgive easily and be understanding about others faults. He dislikes strict schedules and cannot take too much discipline or criticism. Fond of children and animals, he is close to nature and a general homebody. The Goat is apt to mother or even smother the objects of his affections.

He is possessed by varying moods and finds it impossible to work under pressure. He also finds it difficult to be objective.

The Goat likes: Pleasure, Culture, Harmony, Space, Literature, Quiet, Freedom and Wit

The Goat dislikes: Noise, War, Paperwork, Beggar, Politics, Bills and Inelegance. Compatible Animals: Rabbit, Horse, Pig

Monday, November 03, 2008

Love is worth fighting for

Love is not a place, to come and go as we please,                           it is a house we enter in, and then commit to never leave......


Love is a shelter in a raging storm;                                            Love is peace in a middle of a war,                                              and if we try to leave, may God send angels to guard the door.      No, love is NOT a fight!                                                                But its something worth fighting for.


I will fight for you!

Would you fight for me?


It’s worth fighting for.

Sunday, November 02, 2008

Belated birthday breakfast

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OK, so it din turn out as how i had wanted it too... things happens... Remember Murphy? GRIN :X

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This plate is for me... of course nt enuff... took MORE babe carrots and shred hams...... din taste bad kekeke

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This is my sis's portion... see how "generous" and colorful?!!

 

Happy Birthday Miss Lim Ting Fang! Belated one some more... Thank you for the excitement "terror" for the past 28 yrs!!!

Love you! Bless you! Hug you!!! :)

OH WHAT BIG CAR THAT IS!!!

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The Sky

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我向往的蓝天。。。。。。

BIG CAR DAY!!!

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The Toyota Vios rental was recalled for servicing by the car rental company for a day, and this was the nice replacement. Cool car with great height and view for controls, but vehicle too heavy for handling. Fuel consumption is another issue for economical sense.

Donuts

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Hogs Breathe Cafe Saloon & Grill (CHIJIMES)

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Sunday, October 26, 2008

DO IT!!!

A bell is not a bell till you ring it,
A song is not a song till you sing it,
Love is not there to stay till you give it away!

Monday, October 20, 2008

The Lively Center of Attention

Others see you as fresh, lively, charming, amusing, practical, and always interesting; someone who's constantly in the center of attention, but sufficiently well-balanced not one to let it go to their head. They also see you as kind, considerate, and understanding; someone who'll always cheer them up and help them out.

Friday, October 17, 2008

OH! REALLY?!!

High EQ

You're very careful with words, knows about everything that is to be supposedly kept from you and tends to be able to judge whether someone is genuine about something. One thing to note is that you tend to be judgmental of people who comes for you - not everyone has an agenda to use you, maybe some just wanted to spend quality time with a great friend like you. Furthermore, I believe that someone like you will be compassionate and does not hurt people intentionally, as you can easily feel others' emotions. Piece of advice for you: Learn to let go/talk away the negative emotions you will accumulated from others because it will caused you to be overly depressed about reality. But hey...with such high EQ, there's a high chance that you will suceed above others in life - if you manage them well enough that is. =DDD

Tuesday, October 14, 2008

赶不走的不速之客?

不知道你是否和我一样?

不时都会有一位不速之客来探访,
虽然他很积极,时时刻刻都在观察
看你是否有朋友陪伴,若没有的话
他会第一时间来探访, 来作伴
但是, 他一进门就迟迟不走

他的名字叫寂寞。

有人告诉我,一山不能藏二虎
只要有末位朋友在,他就无法待久
甚至不能来探访了

来介绍: 他姓 生命 , 名 意义 = 生命的意义。

他有个很好的兄弟,也会一同到来,
他姓 生命 , 名 寄托 = 生活的寄托。
有了两位, 寂寞应该没有办法再来造访
即使他来了,你也忙得没法理会他

Saturday, October 11, 2008

Constants

Its been like forever since i sought for a constant for me life...
But it seemed like forever disappointing.

I been told to gave up looking cos it i wont find any;

I been told to look for it in my academic aspect,
but found that the journey stops at a degree... (Cos i no head damage to do Perm-Head_Damages).

Then someone said it can be found in a relationships,
be it friends or BGR...
but its not true, cos we are all human,
like myself they change too...
Ppl change in big ans small ways of their own.
Relationships do change, peoples' likes & dislike change,
their interest change, their passion change,
even their perception changes.

Another said that constant in the career u are in,
but its a never ending path... its forever changing,
and there is no absolute trust u can give to the company,
cos all have to be true to their own stand and not yr stands.

Finally, i asked God...
"What is constant in my life... other than the unchanging you?"
"What if i hadnt had you, wat would i have?"
"The uncertainty is like the waves of seas that hit the shores tirelessly each day,
who can withstand such toil?!!"

"Only change is constant in this world, and for the ppl who have yet to believe in me.
Even for you, yr interests and passion and priorities are ever changing, how can u ask for constant in other ppl? Build upon Jesus the cornerstone, in him you find that constant love and strength you need."

My conclusion is i have 2 such constants:
1. Thank God for God! Can only hang on to him like hanging for my dear life in a rushing river.
2. Change is my constant!

Friday, October 10, 2008

天亮了

天亮了天亮了
地球又转一圈了
世界还活生生的存在着
还活着没想到我还活着

穿越一场海啸什么滋味
我终于亲身体会天崩地裂
筋疲力尽灵魂不在身体里面
然而万岁万岁终于和你有个了结

你一边我一边
我们的世界最好别再重叠
也别再回想那个太长太长的昨天
太多爱太多泪别再这样浪费

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是更渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了

结束一段感情当然不像
瞒个假那么方便太多时间
太多随便堆在回忆那间房间
但是忍耐一定不去碰它就不危险

你没变我没变
我们到最后才能懂这一点
人活着不就为了实现一个个心愿
好可惜我和你许了不同的愿

天亮了天亮了地球又转一圈了
既然我还幸运的活着
当然要全力以赴去快乐
天亮了天亮了世界还是好好的
什么痛都是更渺小的
看太阳不是又升起来了

我的心是我的不会再给你了

我是我自己的我很快乐

612星球

满园玫瑰 我以为 找到我那一朵
认真爱了 却狠狠 刺伤我的双手
责备什麽人 也没有用
玫瑰都红 难免看错


望着天空 爱是风 活在童话里头
小王子说 有些事 流浪过才会懂
原来每颗心 都有个洞
找不到真爱 会一直寂寞


我但愿有一个人 在等我
在属於我的612星球
好让我 忍着痛 也愿意 往下走
不快乐至少 要有梦


一定会有一个人 在等我
无条件拥抱着我 的所有
想遇见 我还要 翻越 多少山丘
花别谢太快 请你等等我


擦干眼泪 一个人 漂流在这宇宙
小王子说 爱一定 开在某个角落
不想相爱的人那麽多
我会幸福吗 在什麽时候

 

我是火星人

嘴巴上明明是毒药
吻起来却像蜂蜜

掌心看着多么温柔
握起来就多锋利

是谁给我一个微笑
暗藏一万个陷阱

降落在这颗蓝色的星球
还真的需要勇气


像个孩子简单地呼吸
却找不到适合我的氧气

我是火星人快点放我回去

我学不会地球的规矩

承诺说成了笑话

感情当作看玩具

认真输给了游戏

请让我换一个星球定居

我是火星人快点赶我回去

我会坏了地球的规矩

原谅所有的欺骗

拆下所有的面具

管谁说可不可以

我非坚持捧着一颗真心去旅行


一个最温暖的拥抱
能释放多少暗器

一句最贴心的问候
转个弯就要人命

是谁借走我的夏天
还我一万个冬季

究竟在这颗蓝色的星球
流行什么样逻辑

像个孩子傻傻的相信
却没有谁能给我个证据

Tuesday, October 07, 2008

Strange Dreamz

Been having strange dreams lately... some which really puzzled me but all usually are forgotten in a quick while. Its those times where u wake up with a puzzling expression and if u try to reach for pen and paper, its forgotten almost instantly.

But there was this one that really caused an impression, a phrase which i think may sound scary now... It was pretty sad when i heard it in my dreams, almost heartbreaking bah...

Let's see how much of it i rem...
  • strange things happening starts to think of supernatural stuffs like communicating with ppl from the future.
  • then actual conversing with someone from the future; via writing on a notepad then responsive statements appearing on the same notepad thereafter.
  • starts building something... like making a patch worked child's head... like Frankenstein type then blood all over my hand... then the head talked... a child/kid saying " Tell my mummy i died."
  • we in danger, under some sort of attack like robbery or something... then got saved by the child spirit who take over the attacker's body .
  • Then after some time, we sort of realized that the child was not a missing child who died, but it died becos the mother had abortion. Frantic efforts were made to keep this from the "child"....
  • Then.... cannot rem.... then wake up le....

Now it really sounds eerie........

Saturday, September 27, 2008

MAMA MIA - Nice! I like!

How she disappeared

Day by day, somehow, fragments of glass were secretly added to her meals... odourless, tasteless and colourless... A story of perfect revenge was set for the scene... The highlights of it was her feeding herself, dumb as she is, the cracking sounds and cuts in her mouth amazingly did not amount to an obvious suspicious alarm of her diet.

In the end... the obvious happened......

 

SHE BECAME TRANSPARENT!!!

Wednesday, August 27, 2008

CAST AWAY THE CAST!

 

CAST CAST BYE BYE

BYE BYE CAST CAST

FROM NEXT TUESDAY, U SHALL DISAPPEAR FROM MY LIFE ALTOGETHER..... AND NV TO RETURN!

Saturday, August 02, 2008