and this is the OMG Cook Off Lunch...
Nothing fancy, cos i still abit shy to take out my cooking utensils and stuffs.



Preparations will begin in 30-45mins...







I can feel it… its going to come to pass very soon…
Not sure how i will react, not sure if its a yes or no;
But i do know that i will know what to do when the time comes.
Tonight might just be the night, the night where we all can have a easier to enter the zzz land. Though i feel a little queasy, but the paperwork is set and if all goes well, coming Friday might just be the day.
Though i am paying for the vehicle myself, from deposit to upfront payments to taxes and installments, but i am still happy with this present my family gave me. The present they gave was the approval for the car. Surprised? :) You wanna make a guess what is the other load off my mind? Its not having a car of my own, but its the NO MORE TORTUROUS walks thru the sgcarmart.sg and Ubi Automart!
Thank you Jesus! : )
They said I am a typical fit to the descriptions of the horoscopes, be it the astrology Gemini, or the Chinese zodiac Goat, or even Bazi – Eight Characters analysis… I am one who is often said to be an advocate, mediator, and even a strong hard piece of metal shield. I am independent, strong and hardly gets down by anything. I thank God that all those are true, but its true only becos God was the one who enabled me to be. I always believe that God is the one who gives us the desires in ourselves, gives us the passion and the ability to satisfy that same desire.
As hard as the metal can be, it can only protect things that are of physical impact; but it is powerless to the forces that cannot be seen by the human eye. Love is vulnerability, and the only weakest link of the chain. Like I have often said, to love someone is to hand yourself naked self over to the other party; it’s like surrendering to him/her/them your bare heart allowing them to treat it in any manner they like. And in this world, there is no one who has my heart like my family does. But we have a problem, or at least I have a problem… and this problem is like a thorn in the flesh where the wound has been inflamed. Each time an incident comes up, the wound would hurt like hell. I really hope that this thorn be removed and that the wound will heal as if it has never been in place before.
This is my family, people whom I can never stop loving, even if I am bleeding, or crippled or paralyzed. Of course I can choose to leave and be riddance of it, but I prefer not to… I choose not to… If I decide to be here with them, then my mind, my heart, my thoughts and my body have to be here with them. Regardless in any circumstance or any issues.
I am kinda happy when you come knocking on my MSN, not because you are offering me a position in the midst of my job search, but because you thought of me as someone who wouldn’t mind low pay and sweating my weekends away with you. I never really knew what you thought of me, especially with all that mambo jumbo on Bazi calculations… but tonight I do know that I passed you looks test… hahahah Hey, u asked for it yourself, you gave yourself away… and no amount of sidetracking you do is able to smoke and distract me k… Well, I do know that I have the upper hand @ this chess game of ours.
There are times when things are hard to let it off your tongue, words that are either so heavy that they went back down your throat, or extremely light that it evaporates before it has the chance to be instructed to its destination.
Be it truths, explanations, or white lies… submission to silence is inevitable. Though picture paints a thousand words, but silence encompassed all that is to be said and unsaid.
Lets have a little faith.
Since the last post, i had been occupied with interview and deciding between companies that had offered me a position in their company. As usual, i could not make out which is the best offer. But i was reminded of my previous experience in deciding between offers… that God had said to me not to take the best option; it was then i realized God was telling me there was no best option, and no matter what i chose, He is there to make sure it is a good option.
Still, i was struggling… and i decided to attend my first Sunday church service in 2010. That one Sunday did what i couldnt do in days, i had my decision. Though much murmuring was surrounding me, as the other company had offered me a better sounding designation and higher basic pay with a possible good commission should i clinch a big project. But, i guess it was God’s courage, i kept to the decision. So, in 7hrs i will be reporting for work, as a Project Sales Engineer.
Today, we also celebrated my grandmother’s birthday! I can see that she was and still is very happy, all 25 of us were there singing and wishing her Happy Birthday! The most encouraging thing was my grandma suddenly broke out into prayer, thanking God for everything before her eyes right after we sang happy birthday song to her… She is thankful for all of us, i melt! My grandma has always been and still IS a great role model!
Then there is one other small thing, i finally had a chance to see some of the outreach gestures by my church, which all along i tot there was none. It was a very encouraging Thursday evening to see so many ppl who are all for sharing the good news! Though this faulty lamp stand has not lit up yet, but its really warmed up by what she saw… :) I hope in the near future, the broken lamp stand will resume the light bearing task.
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***** So i didnt stray from my basic instincts after all! Engineer & Computer Specialist… I’m Happy! ***
Kyle XY was a drama which i stumbled upon through online TV, and it intrigued me. The way they had introduced the lead actor, Kyle, and the ambitious plot that the production had wanted was captivating. The way Kyle learns, is absolutely amazing but the one thing that strike me was how much he appreciates his new found knowledge. Most of us, or rather me, a new found knowledge is similar to a new toy, you play with it and u leave it aside when u find something new. But the character Kyle leaks the scent of gratitude, and cherishes each new piece of knowledge. Its a drama, and things can be dramatic or idealistic. But i think its a great reminder that learning itself is something to be thankful for! In my search to collect information, to build up my own library, i guess i may have lost the true intention of building that library within me; allowing quantity of information to overwrite quality, failing to filter the true importance.
There is alot we can relate to Kyle, and alot more that we can get from the show. But i shant tell u any, lest a spoiler be seen.
The first season of KYLE was really interested as we speculate the mystery of his birth, and it was all the more interested to watch him learn… 1 new thing everyday, and i believe we all can relate to his learning experiences in one way or another.
I’ve a slight different preference on films, dramas and movies than others… So dun come complaining to me if u did not like it. Becos i do enjoy this drama, which sadly had announced that there will be no Season 4, nor Season Finale… sucky huh… God, please get those producers to give KYLE XY a proper ending and not the rotten Season 3 ending!
KYLE IS COOL! :)
你有说过如果想要找人聊聊,自己会找得到适合的听众 。可是,我真得找不到。。。找朋友逛街吃饭看电影,往往是他们向我吐露心事,说他们的烦恼; 在这样的情况下,你说我开得了口吗?即使找到人后,我想我也开不了口。。。
莲常常抱怨我有事不找她,她常常生我的气,因为她觉得我不信任她。但我难过的心情,我真的不知道怎么说。。。现在的我开口前,眼泪就不自觉地流下。近期的我不比以前了,可能是极限到了吧,眼泪已不再受控制了。
我已经把自己逼到这儿了,我看不到前方的路,也不知道那路是哪儿;但这一切并非我担心的,我担心的是自己真的已变成朽木。。。 朽木不可雕的雕,再怎么努力,怎么逼迫自己也无法。。。。。。
As i ponder over my day of not so ideal events, the term "shit happens" came...
The unbearable noise of renovations and drilling that will drive u nuts is more than enuff to make u want to check into MIH on yr own. Following with a series of places u had to try before finding a place to rest yr feets and drink some water and yet not being able to do anything. I shall rem to charge my lappy everyday, @ least i can go library for wireless SG; all power points are hogged by ppl in starbucks or any place with decent table and chairs. Then coming home to find the $3k+ lappy be stuck in a endless loop of startup and black screen is like the toppings of a very bad cake...
BUT STILL! I dun think these are shits... jus unpleasant experiences...
Besides, shitting shld be a daily thing, so shit happens... well... daily!
:X
把眼泪收回!一点眼泪也不许掉,不许滴!
不是骄傲,不是坚强, 什么也不是
我承认我并不是什么好人, 我只是一个骨子里 暗地里莫名的倔强
有什么时候眼泪能解决得了问题?
没有!最后只有两个选择:
1。 翻脸到底就为一口气,为她误会我而道歉
2。 和以往一样 若无其事地让它过去, 当从来也没发生过;把那口冤气当药吞回去
我一直在想,如果我自私一点,可能这一切就不会发生的;
至少不会让我看到他掉眼泪,也更不会是我惹她生气
好心做坏事好像是我的“特色”, 一个挥不掉 赶不去的 “特色”
不完美的人生 我理解 也尽力完美化
我真的有很尽力, 不论是自己或是身边的人,我能给的我都给了
真的。。。 我也已经空了
现在,我只剩不服输的倔强
所以,更加不能掉泪。。。 一定要把眼泪收回去!
当事者和旁观者本来就不一样,看到的感受的迷惑的都有一定的差别,所以当自己从当事者的身份被调换成旁观者时 会一再的提醒自己把那张嘴管好。可是,有时候真的替对方紧张到非跳出来不可。。。
她一直在转牛角尖,一直在圆圈里绕;像是被蒙上了双眼底一直走。明明就可以把眼罩拿掉, 但嘴里一直在念没有光看不见。。。
而你
今天又掉眼泪了,你哭着说你没有办法相信“爱”了,因为上一段感情失败也述说了你的失败。。。 更证明了“爱”这东西是假象。
我问你:一段感情,爱情只需要一个人 就能秤的起来吗?
Example: A relationship is like a car, and love is like the fuel. Going into a relationship is like getting into a car, and hoping to progress to a different place. But for the car to move, fuel is required. The max capacity each of you is able to carry is only 100%, and the car has a fuel requirement of 200%. If only 1 of you is give your all to the car/relationship, the car can only move that far. And soon you find both the car & yrself no longer have any fuel left for either.
If both parties are giving their 100%, and still the car is not moving, it only means that either the car/relationship is faulty, or the type of fuel from either party is not correct. A car with fuel mixed with petrol and diesel will die eventually, not becos the fuel is a myth, but becos of incompatibility.
U cannot say blame the fuel if the car is not working the way you want ah!
And there is you, stop complaining about the government, complaining about your friends, about company, can u stop short yr gap for 1 min? So all your options are shit, still… u made the choice to stay put so shut up and think wat u want, then go find ways to get wat u wan. Here’s a tip, complaining doesnt help u get what u want; State yr requests to the right person and work it out lor! At the rate you going, u’r heading for doom!
Damn… my English sucks too…..
A sudden moment of me sitting-in a meeting chairing by my sub-consciousness, gave me a little encouragement:
It was some nerves i had when i told God 2009 is the year where i was ready to have things to be resolved, where i was ready to face what i couldn't before. Things may seem worse now, but it really isn't . Before any wound can start to heal, it first has to be cleanse. Adding salt to wound may seem to be torturous, but its still a primitive cleansing and disinfecting methodology.
Many a times, there are many easier ways to do things painlessly and more effectively and this is no exception. I can no longer rem what happened in 2008 for me to recall for such bravery, opting for the salt treatment, but i do remember that this was the only way to truly resolve everything and not burying it in some forest and flee into another land.
It had been a torment since the day i ever played with the idea, but it was worth the resignation letter becos it was not simply make a move to change my working environment or a career move but dealing with with things that matters, allowing me to move on. I am still struggling, and wringing in pain, but its worth it.
一个人要振作几次才能真正的站起来?
一个人可以振作几次才能成功?
一个人又有几次的机会振作机会,几次的振作精力呢?
我已经不知道自己当初有的能耐到底是确实发生过的事, 或是个幻觉;
也不知道曾经的能耐是否还在。。。
虽然每次的绝境都由上帝意想不到地救赎,
但这一次有让我不断地从窗口往下看
幸福到底是什么?
是一家人出外同游还是两人甜蜜相处?
是饱足一餐还是一杯热乎乎的香浓咖啡?
是高回报率的工作还是拥有一般要好的工作伙伴?
是钱财多多还是青春永驻?
幸福会逗留多久, 它又何时会来?
会是天长地久或是十一分钟?
会长久不散或是不时出现?
会不会来了又走或是走了回不来?
会不会永远都不来或是自己不让它来?
幸福是真的吗? 它到底存在吗?
你眼前的幸福是真实,还是虚构?
你眼里的幸福和大家一样吗,或是各有所别 ?
你眼看的幸福是是那本人的幸福吗?
你眼看到的 到底是幸福吗?
SENT:
Hi... am very curious... and alittle too much time on my hand.
So wat do u do exactly?
U travelled ard, from one place to another.
Then u write songs... and u perform?
No offence, just curious.
Anyway, have a good trip to jap...
Hope all be well with you.
Ps. am waiting to read " 10 yrs of Xxxxxx Xxxx"
REPLY:
This is my transition year - was working in UNICEF in Geneva until January, and I will be starting my PhD next week in Tokyo.
I spent the year travelling, finishing the master's which i have been doing through distance learning since 2007, and also learning Korean which has been necessary for my research (my research topic is related to the country).
As for the music part - this has been what I have been doing on the side since about 10 years ago.
LATER ON SAW IN FB:
Xxxxxx Xxxx : if curious, check this place out. i am staying in building B of the residence halls. <URL>
Note:
Just tot it to be funny to see such coincidence in word use. Nothing more… jus for humor… akaka
Once upon a time, there was a little girl who loved stories. Day in day out, she would pester her mum to bring her to the library, her favorite place. She was only 5.
I was that little girl who loved stories. I adored fairy tales, tales of creatures never seen, stories with twists and adventures, and endings were often happy ones. I remembered reading the entire series of fairy tales at my neighborhood library. Needless to say, my mum was impressed, but she never quite understood why i only loved fairy tales.
Then i moved on to bible stories, they were brilliant! It was as if they were fairy tales, but only they were true! The adults around all said that they were real life accounts. I was elated.
It has been many years, but my love for stories never went away. I have been reading, listening and participating in stories of the people around me. And that is truly my passion.
I stumbled onto a blog, its titled “ Stories that matters”. He too was searching for stories, travelling from one place to another, searching and writing the stories along the way. I am impressed; impressed in doing what he does, in continuing to do what he had began. Becos, i had stopped my search. I wanted to in my own story, and no longer in others only.
It seems like a task too difficult, i stopped struggling and feeling despair. But i am not ready to raise the white flag, not really sure what i am going to do now or how things will turn out… I am sure that i will not surrender and resign myself to compromise. I am trying to put away the recent spate of disappointments and unhappiness, the day i am able to speak to my father without coldness would be the day of my success.
Down you hung yr head, looking to the ground,
With every step you take, you allowed it to be your style.
Casting your glances up, only to see the signs and lifts
before returning back to the cold hard concrete down.
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You were dressed in blue causal, in jeans with a sling bag as many youths would.
You were barely walking, dragging your feet in the pace of reluctance.
You were going in a direction for the train, leaving for some place called dread.
You caught the lift, finally glancing to see the numeric of 123.
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World I look you in the eye, with glances to the horizons.
Quicken but relaxed were my pace, for this day of light and glory.
Dressed in red blue and a bagful of hope I carry,
I dreamt of an unceasing hope.
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I am dressed in red blue, with a touch of white and cyan at the ears.
I walk with direction, and a sense of destination.
I quicken my steps, pacing in peace and relief from the weights of world.
I like to share this flora I wear, that brings colors to life and life to lives.
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Love is all one can see, in the eyes of the he who is able and willing;
wearing that body of scars and stripes, from scourges not his.
Like a beacon in the night, he stands out for you and me.
In the name of an amazing love.
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He was dressed with blood and scars, but now in white glory.
He was nailed on the cross, but resurrected alive and well.
He sits in Heaven, with eyes upon our every thought.
He is waiting for us, for us to make that call.
這首創作,是描寫『失去』的一首歌,細微地勾勒情感遠離的惆悵與心酸。一次一場探訪癌 症病童的活動,當時徐佳瑩和參訪者置身於小朋友、家屬和醫護人員中,氣氛熱絡溫馨,其 中一位護理長懇請她現場演唱之前比賽時表演過的「失落沙洲」,這首讓護理長聽了直落淚 的原因,是因為其中一段歌詞「我不是一定要你回來,只是當又把回憶翻開,除了你之外的 空白,還有誰能來教我愛。」深刻地唱出了那些失去孩子們的家長心聲,而這也讓徐佳瑩對 這首歌產生新的體驗。基於各種不同的感受交雜,「失落沙洲」是專輯裡演唱難度最高的一 首歌曲,「雖然初始動機是失去愛情,但在演唱時就會不斷想到那些,也許是失去親人,也 許是失去任何一些重要的東西的人,我貪心的希望它能包含更多的追憶。」
「失落沙洲」開場緩緩流動的弦樂一出,立刻領人進入一股緩慢的哀傷裡,沉靜中盡顯孤寂 ,極具渲染力。在陳建騏老師細細指引下,徐佳瑩以其圓潤清亮的聲線,完美詮釋歌曲中「 面對失去的悲傷」、與「接受失去的遺憾」的思緒轉折。
這首歌不但傳達了一個平凡女生義無反顧追 求愛情、追求夢想的勇敢與孤獨,也更像是徐佳瑩為了音樂勇往直前孤身北上的真實寫照。
我爱谁 跨不过 从来也不觉得错 自以为 抓着痛 就能往回忆里躲偏执 相信着 受诅咒的水晶球 阻挡可能心动的理由
而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错 原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟 眼前 沙弥漫了等候 耳边传来孱弱的呼救 追赶要我 爱的不保留
我身骑白马 走三关 我改换素衣 回中原 放下西凉 无人管 我一心只想 王宝钏
而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错 原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟 眼前荒沙弥漫了等候 耳边传来孱弱的呼救 追赶要我 爱的不保留
我身骑白马 走三关 我改换素衣 回中原 放下西凉 无人管 我一心只想 王宝钏
满身伤痕累累也来不及痛 那是指引我走向你的清楚感受 不管危不危险 都要放下一切跟你走 只要一起承担 只要你不放手
Its been a really long time since i fell ill with fever, thanks to tonsil inflammation! Actually, its my fault lah… had herbal chicken on the same day with roasted pork knuckles, grilled sausage platter and charcoaled pizza… wheat beer from Paulaner seems to make it worse (according to an unverified source). Waking up hourly for water and washing of face to cool myself down was damn tiring, but the discomfort was worse… I’m just glad that i am feeling so much better now.
Was going thru the fridge, to find an apple and a packet of Taiwanese sausages. A moment of brainstorm jumped on me! i made porridge with diced apple and sausages, some seasoning and it turned out not too bad… Hee… Cooking is certainly is one of my fav hobbies… cooking without restrictions and supervision !
Well, as many know that i had to rush to Hanoi on the 6th August to participate in my first tour guiding experience. Its very informal, after all it was an experiment mah…
They were a grp of 4 ladies, delighted am i when i they said i was the youngest amidst them. :) The foursome are quite different, and they came together rather interestingly. Of these four, i only know Teri… she was one of the jie mei i got to know @ estee’s wedding. She got in touch w me, informing me that they will be going Hanoi and i took the chance to play tour guide.
First, i did up a schedule… the items were all in, and the time allocated were quite realistic. One big challenge was i shldnt have gave them options, where alot of amendments had to be made. I shld have been firm. We did cover all the places, but i think i really died in shopping. The weather was killing me, and i think i was too hot for my tolerance to maintain functional.
It was a great trial, cos i felt i did try out something and learnt something… I do have another trip to plan, for my good buddy and her parents! So, this time round i doing up a budgeting for her first, then advise her on the date of my preference. It shld be exciting!
God’s favor upon me is like the air that we breathe daily; this trip to Hanoi has not only allow me to have a very minimal tasting of tour guiding, but also allowed me to do major networking and socializing with other Singaporeans here. Of which were the Singapore ambassador for Hanoi, Hungarian ambassador (cant rem of their names :X), Bobby who owns a western dining place which i will definitely visit before i leave, Halia representative where they do up class/fine dining in the paragon area of Hanoi, ppl from an educational centre who asked me i i am interested to do teaching with them…. etc
Er…. ya they must be joking! Me to teach A maths, physics, etc?!! They happily wanna squeeze one class out for me to do trial teaching, and i had beads of perspiration streaming down at the back of my head. Some time later, another asked me if i am interested to teach young children, and i am suspecting the young children refers to her cutie daughter… Yes, boo boo finally accepts me and we are having lotsa fun together, but nannying/baby sitting or tutoring her is a diff story altogether; the fear of letting them down is like the end of the world.
Thanks but no thanks… dun think teaching is for me, i find the email from calvary making more sense at the moment…
Its been a pretty tiring time for me, in the last few days, but tdy has got to be something to blog abt… Help yourselves to the point form events, cos i really no energy to tahan b4 i fall zzz again…
Got more to write but really buay tahan le…. BBL
Panadol extra came in handy today, the familiar headache made a surprise visit and i can feel my ears burning hot again… Cant really tell if all these were from the pouring rain from the typhoon visiting Hanoi or was it from the glasses of wine and non-stop introduction as Mr KB Lim’s daughter, eldest daughter.
Met alot of ppl, some exchange if name cards took place, and of cos my dad was proud to introduce me to the Singapore ambassador, whom he kept stressing as young handsome and capable. – . - You know i dun like to carry a tag that says “so & so” daughter, the ballroom was sucking life outta me…
Heard something that i would like not to hear; something confirming my fears which i cannot do anything but plan to run away to some other parts of the world, feeling tired of being a egg mayo filling.
Dun understand why dad and Hillman so enthu abt watching Money Not Enuff II movie once we came back from the red white dinner; Its kinda funny, but it reminded me alot of my grandma. I rem the exact scene where i saw my grandma lying motionless on the hospital bed. Sadly, we could relate to many of the ending scenes from my grandpa’s passing and my recent grandma’s demise.
I guess i am too exhausted from such a long day, looking forward to visit fren in Sydney and maybe hiding in NZ or xxx…
Concealed is the glow, beneath the dry sticks and leaves
Brewing in the skies, and stirrings in the winds
A fire awaits the bursting of flames,
consuming everything that stands in its ways.
Enough horsing ard with the facebook apps, i shld be getting straight to biz and do up the tasks at hand. But i think i shld let off some steam before the pressure eats me alive. There are many wonderful things to blog abt;
- The time in Hanoi, a different feeling/mood.
- The unexpected surprise Nanning gave me.
- The importance of moving on constantly, and improving/developing myself.
- Freedom is something everyone wants, and all are looking to escape from their unsatisfied life/lifestyle… and that includes my parents…
Then there is the unexpected twist in Lian and Ting’s situations, not to mention Fang’s possibility in changing the heading of her course… which so far is the best news :)
But the thing that drove me to Mac for a upsized coke and wireless SG to blog is none other than my head almost turning into a pressure cooker that is cooking my brains and eating me alive.
I rem once upon a time my addiction to CocaCola drove my family nuts, and family frens were rallied into tell me their life stories on coke addiction. Maybe it was that time, my reliance on cocaine developed bah… ok lah… now i only taking small dosage of it in panadol extra :X just kidding… hee…
After resigning, i am subjected to stay home and not run anywhere rule, by order of Mrs Lim. Then i have to subject my time and schedule, my plans to Mr Lim… who doesnt seems to have a clue what he wants me to do… He gave 2 tasks, but with incomplete information to properly execute anything. No problem, we handled such situation everyday in the last 9 yrs. I took it in my stride and did whatever i could, pacifying and fighting fire as we go along.
But what he did last night really upset me, i dun mind if you have no plans for me. I was the one who resigned, so if u think this is a mess, then i will settle this mess myself. I am not waiting for handouts of tasks to do to survive.
I told my fren i made a choice, and i intend to keep it. Since i will not go US/Aussie/anywhere, unless i have your blessings. But at least let me do what i want to do in Sg. I can plan for myself. Yes, i may be confused and lost right now, but i believe after sorting out i will figure something out
Someone asked me why do i have to be right all the time, do the right thing, make the right choice, why this mentality? Becoz my own family dun tolerate failure or mistakes, for every mistake or wrong or failure it will be stuck to me forever and my family will bite on it never letting it. Now i dun want to let go of my past failures, is they keep reminding me.
Home is suppose to be a place of rest and comfort, but blk 133 is more of a pressure chamber to me right now.
I need another coke.
Someone once praised me for having initiative and even said that i will amount to some great thing, he was dead sure.
Now i am not that sure any more. I cant put my finger one me being initiative or being rash. Somehow i began to feel that i am either on the not doing anything part of the scale or the other extreme end of rash… Many talked abt mine impatience, rather than initiative. When i took my time to consider, they said that i am not doing anything, and even deem that i am lost.
In the midst of making decisions, i rarely care what ppl say, but it was the aftermath comments that really get to me. Its fine if ppl dun see the way i see, or agree with my ways. I dun need to you to understand me, but i really dun need your accusations.
Today is the 8th July 2009, weather in Bangkok has been unpredictable with showers of rain getting heavier towards the end of our 4Ds 3Ns Bangkok escapade; where it also marked the end of an expensive educational experience. Shall i share my experience?
Lesson 1: Greed is dangerous.
Lesson 2: Learn to live by the peace that in within myself.
Lesson 3: Getting upset and worrying does not help.
Lesson 4: Ask for help, do not hesitate.
Lesson 5: Everyone rest on public holidays, including the Thai Police.
Lesson 6: Need to have a bigger heart to live in the world today.
Lesson 7: There are good and not so good ppl everywhere, Thailand is not the only place with scams.
Lesson 8: Once the heading is determined, be firm.
Lesson 9: Respect myself. Cannot everything also never mind; have to be accountable to ppl, also must accountable to myself… cannot ignore myself all the time… no wonder i am always upset with myself…
Lesson 10: Citibank in different countries are like different banks in different countries. International bank? BLEAH!
Lesson 11: Cash deposit Machines in Citibank Bangkok cannot read Citibank Cards issued by Citibank Singapore. Even manual deposit is complicated; Needs a receipt to show where the money for deposit comes from/payslip, Need exact address of Bank and branch in singapore with SWIFT code, etc….
Touched down on sunday morning and all the cab drivers and tuk tuks have been telling me that this whole week is holiday, and my first tot was : “WTF… everyday is holiday in BKK ah!”
After failing to make contact with the government offices and embassy yesterday, it was my plan to march down to their office tis morning. However, i was prompted to continue to call this morning again, before i raze their grounds. Still, no one is answering calls… Sigh… thai side not responding to phone call is not that surprising, but Sg Embassy?!! Sigh… Sg Embassy has nv sat well with me, they nv ever offer real help to the Sg citizens since my first overseas trips…
Anyway, before is set off, i was prompted to ask the reception abt depositing money to CitiBank. I was surprised to find out that i can only bank in Baht cash at the 1 and only Citibank office in Bangkok. Then they told me that today is a special day, and becos of this special day, its public holiday since Monday all the way to Wednesday… Many offices are closed till Thursday morning. Only some banks will be resuming operations on Wednesday morning. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Oki… that explains the DIT office and Sg Embassy not responding… but still… argh… So, Plan B was to make a police report after lunch and get the scammers to come down the police station to settle the issue… it seems to be a safer option than going down the scamming territory… And so the journey began…
It took me 30mins to try locate a nearest bank for me to do money order to Sg, so i wun have to worry carrying much cash with me. Then only to realize no banks are doing money orders unless its their HQ,… no choice, i decided to just go to the police and bank in the money on wed morning @ the Citibank HQ. Thai ppl are very nice, but all the direction giving were nt exactly accurate and i ended up walking round and round for an hour before locating the bloody police station.
Stepping in, the thai police was extremely not good in english and keep taking my map and looking at dunno wat… unable to communicate, he brought me to a nearby counter where more ppl were… a few ppl went in and another few man came out… finally they managed a few words of english… and those were this :" Public holiday, closed… thursday open… come back on thurs…”
WTF #!$#%^&*^%$#@$%^&*(&^ The Royal Thai Police HQ is closed, the Tourist Police is closed, ALL CLOSED TODAY! What in the world is this?!! Police is close on public holiday?!! POLICE IS A BUSINESS OPERATION AH!!!! CLOSE ON PUBLIC HOLIDAY?!! WOW LAU EH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ANGRY LEH!!!!! WHERE GOT LIKE TAT DE!!!!!!
I have decided now, tmw i will take a cab down to the scamming shop, with my mum in cab, waiting outside… i will go in myself to get the bloody money back! WTF… police is another business trade here in bangkok, indeed this is the land of scams… i’m sorry… shld be LAND OF SCAMMERS!!! cos police is their support division!
But really thank God that he prompted me to keep making calls and put off going down the office personally; The DIT office is far and secluded, and it might be a problem trying to get back to hotel or civilization. Thank God that i no make waste trips to the Embassy, cos the area might just as well be a dead town when the banks and commercial area are closed.
Toda Raba Yahwah… Toda!
I think i almost wanna let it go, but coming tis far to Bangkok and leaving empty handed was definitely something i cant account to myself… In feeling bad, i decided to do a more thorough research…
Seems like no choice have to go a few places, and it doesn't necessarily include going down to the remote DIT office, which is out of my Bangkok map… I am skeptical abt the Sg Embassy, but better than not trying…
Plan for 07 07 09:
i really wonder how smoothly all these will go… my heart is pounding by the second… even at this very moment…
GAMBATE!!!!!!!!
Hahaha... think the number 30 is really bothering me, bothering me to make a change from a life which makes me think of a 100 reasons to stay alive from the moment i wake up each day...
A life of uncertainty is also not easy... worries and fears are flooding me as if its a Noah ark's remake! Now, that i had taken the first step, i think i might as well let it loose… Let’s see where it leads me…
Dear all u ppl who are reading, do pray for us...