The ONE thing I can do best…

Many times the tongue has been a wild loosely disciplined entity, and the freedom it has mostly comes in situations where I personally felt a response is required immediately. As Pastor said, and many experiences too, when you do not know what to say, it’s best to smile. This is an extremely difficult thing to do man!

Is this situation a trial practice? With such news I really don’t know how to react or response, of course hearing this news from a 3rd party is a time buyer… certainly an advantage… While trying to remain calm, I can only force myself to thing if there are things we can help her with… I’m sure she will say she is doing fine with the support of her family. The model answer to my thoughts is only 1 word, PRAYER!

Things that are beyond my control, beyond my reach are best intervened by God. Things that I think are within my abilities, I am learning to start with going to God first, without rushing ahead like a mad dog. This lesson is one of those where I have yet to graduate, since a long time back.

Unexpected “appraisal” day

It was an unexpected “appraisal” day, I dunno what she told her, but it came up as I needed help and direction. I admit that I had used the words loosely to allow her to feel she is not alone, but it did make me go “ARGH”. I can feel her frustration when she kept emphasizing on me not having a goal.

The truth is, it is true that I love to look to her for an annual appraisal for practical career progression. It is true that I thought she would be able to help me. But I guess I have decided to take after God. From the day I went crazy looking for a purpose in life, I broken down when I am not able to identify a goal for myself… aimless being drifting in the world is a sentence worse than death.

It was God, It was Jesus, who came to me and tell me its alright, who told me that my life is not a bounced cheque waiting to be cashed, but rather a cheque in writing. And I am the one who is to fill up the cheque, I am the one who says where the cheque is used for and how much worth is this cheque going to draw! I guess I am spoiled with such love that I can do anything I want and make anything happen in Christ.

Able to live a life that has been planned out, sit back relax and wait for doors to be open by God is amazing. I also thought I will turn into a disgusting lazy worm, but it came out differently… In fact, I am all the more eager to do things once the task is given.

Things happened because of planning, but for me things just work out; simply because God did the planning and my role is to just rest and follow.

selfish

It was a selfish agenda to have people depending and relying on me. All because I am not able to identify, find my purpose in life. It is a sentence worse than death! Without purpose, without a reason to live, it is the same to be as waiting for death to come. This is one thought I cannot bear, the one thought that can drive me to jump of a building any time.

Having people to need me and rely on me is wrong, not only because I am not able to help them, but I deprived them of their divine help which brings them much more than copping with their needs? How can I be so selfish that the help I gave only made things worse and to go on as nothing happened?

Its coming…

I can feel it… its going to come to pass very soon…

Not sure how i will react, not sure if its a yes or no;

But i do know that i will know what to do when the time comes.

A load off the mind

Tonight might just be the night, the night where we all can have a easier to enter the zzz land. Though i feel a little queasy, but the paperwork is set and if all goes well, coming Friday might just be the day.

Though i am paying for the vehicle myself, from deposit to upfront payments to taxes and installments, but i am still happy with this present my family gave me. The present they gave was the approval for the car. Surprised? :) You wanna make a guess what is the other load off my mind? Its not having a car of my own, but its the NO MORE TORTUROUS walks thru the sgcarmart.sg and Ubi Automart!

Thank you Jesus! : )

Vulnerability

They said I am a typical fit to the descriptions of the horoscopes, be it the astrology Gemini, or the Chinese zodiac Goat, or even Bazi – Eight Characters analysis… I am one who is often said to be an advocate, mediator, and even a strong hard piece of metal shield. I am independent, strong and hardly gets down by anything. I thank God that all those are true, but its true only becos God was the one who enabled me to be. I always believe that God is the one who gives us the desires in ourselves, gives us the passion and the ability to satisfy that same desire.

As hard as the metal can be, it can only protect things that are of physical impact; but it is powerless to the forces that cannot be seen by the human eye. Love is vulnerability, and the only weakest link of the chain. Like I have often said, to love someone is to hand yourself naked self over to the other party; it’s like surrendering to him/her/them your bare heart allowing them to treat it in any manner they like. And in this world, there is no one who has my heart like my family does. But we have a problem, or at least I have a problem… and this problem is like a thorn in the flesh where the wound has been inflamed. Each time an incident comes up, the wound would hurt like hell. I really hope that this thorn be removed and that the wound will heal as if it has never been in place before.

This is my family, people whom I can never stop loving, even if I am bleeding, or crippled or paralyzed. Of course I can choose to leave and be riddance of it, but I prefer not to… I choose not to… If I decide to be here with them, then my mind, my heart, my thoughts and my body have to be here with them. Regardless in any circumstance or any issues.

“Singapore General Hospital”

I am kinda happy when you come knocking on my MSN, not because you are offering me a position in the midst of my job search, but because you thought of me as someone who wouldn’t mind low pay and sweating my weekends away with you. I never really knew what you thought of me, especially with all that mambo jumbo on Bazi calculations… but tonight I do know that I passed you looks test… hahahah Hey, u asked for it yourself, you gave yourself away… and no amount of sidetracking you do is able to smoke and distract me k… Well, I do know that I have the upper hand @ this chess game of ours.

Silence

There are times when things are hard to let it off your tongue, words that are either so heavy that they went back down your throat, or extremely light that it evaporates before it has the chance to be instructed to its destination.

Be it truths, explanations, or white lies… submission to silence is inevitable. Though picture paints a thousand words, but silence encompassed all that is to be said and unsaid.

Lets have a little faith.

Exhibition booth neighbour

My first impression of him:
Look like some taiwanese actor, not handsome or cute looking but gives an impression of a down to earth quiet character, humble, serious, introvert, passive... more of engineering person than sales.

My guess of my impression to him: friendly, loud, smile loving, talkative, restless strange maybe weird...

2nd impression of him:
He shaved. hahahaha... mysterious maybe?

Wonder wat is his Chinese name, and why he ask for my name card... I dun sell health care equipment wat... do u think he will headhunt me becos of my ultra friendliness?

Day 01 - morning

Live from 119 Genting,
and in point form... more or less lag...

Lost as bat, cos its day numerous uno, a deep impression of a power smile which turned out to be the GM.
Following after, a shocking discovery... I just hope I hadn't done any image damage to myself in my Facebook history.


First official sales meeting, first in a sales environment, first time so bored and decide to go "lunch" alone... but think my breakfast to powderful cos I totally not hungry, thus resulting in a teh si & bao takeaway.

Quick Updates

Since the last post, i had been occupied with interview and deciding between companies that had offered me a position in their company. As usual, i could not make out which is the best offer. But i was reminded of my previous experience in deciding between offers… that God had said to me not to take the best option; it was then i realized God was telling me there was no best option, and no matter what i chose, He is there to make sure it is a good option.

Still, i was struggling… and i decided to attend my first Sunday church service in 2010. That one Sunday did what i couldnt do in days, i had my decision. Though much murmuring was surrounding me, as the other company had offered me a better sounding designation and higher basic pay with a possible good commission should i clinch a big project. But, i guess it was God’s courage, i kept to the decision. So, in 7hrs i will be reporting for work, as a Project Sales Engineer.

Today, we also celebrated my grandmother’s birthday! I can see that she was and still is very happy, all 25 of us were there singing and wishing her Happy Birthday! The most encouraging thing was my grandma suddenly broke out into prayer, thanking God for everything before her eyes right after we sang happy birthday song to her… She is thankful for all of us, i melt! My grandma has always been and still IS a great role model!

Then there is one other small thing, i finally had a chance to see some of the outreach gestures by my church, which all along i tot there was none. It was a very encouraging Thursday evening to see so many ppl who are all for sharing the good news! Though this faulty lamp stand has not lit up yet, but its really warmed up by what she saw… :) I hope in the near future, the broken lamp stand will resume the light bearing task.

Wild goose chase... hahaha

The constant reminder and counting done by the closest of my frens were well intentions, though its not sitting well with me on the inside; I'm not saying that its not good, but i really do appreciate these ppl who cut the bull and tell me straight in the face. Anyway, the count has brought me to almost a year since i left my last position in any form of formal work.

Yar i've been browsing around... routinely go on JobDB & JobStreet and sending resumes for positions i thought would be appropriate or even interesting. I admit i've been messing around with some companies, and going to the interviews. But little seems to attract me. Then a grp of pro frens come along and offer to help me by getting me to do personality tests, and one grp even did my Ba Zi Ming Pan Calculations. Suddenly, i get caught up in this swirl of THIS & THAT! Hey, its scary and when it swallows u up, its like quick sand. Our Creator had unparalleled foresight to build within us a spirit, a part of himself as the last line of defense, from losing our minds. This spirit suddenly awakened and rang the alarm, BIG alarm, that says "HEY! SOMETHING IS WRONG! WAKE UP!".

Personality Tests and character analyzing are great tools to use when looking for directions in life. But when you place too much emphasis on these results, they basically dictates your life... why cage yourself in a washing machine and go round & round till u puke???

Yes, i do work along a boundary, to see where my limits are and how far i can go. But i am never in it for too long. SO why should i start now? Ya! SO i SHAN'T & i WON'T!
No more tests, no more calculations, no more horoscopes, enough is enough.

As someone said, i shld do the right thing and not just keep doing things right.
i should give weight to my spirit, and not overwrite it just to avoid conflicts;
I should and i want and i will... TRUST IN GOD.

Thks Jac!

Jac says:
Abba, bless June. Give her the desires of her heart. Let her be spoilt for choices when seeking for her next career. Men's words have no power over us, but Your words are alive and active Lord. You are the alpha and the omega. The beginning and the end. Blessed is June's kneading Bowl. Let her be fruitful and prospers in watever that she sets her hand on. Give her a career that she will enjoy..
and be passionate abt...and that will allow her to develop the gifts and her talents...that her life will gLorify you. Amen!

June Lim - Beloved Child of God & Successful Cafe Owner says:
AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN

Careers for ENFP Personality Types

Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

ENFPs generally have the following traits:

• Project-oriented
• Bright and capable
• Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills
• Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people
• Able to relate to people on their own level
• Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above their own
• Future-oriented
• Dislike performing routine tasks
• Need approval and appreciation from others
• Cooperative and friendly
• Creative and energetic
• Well-developed verbal and written communication skills
• Natural leaders, but do not like to control people
• Resist being controlled by others
• Can work logically and rationally - use their intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it
• Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories

ENFPs are lucky in that they're good a quite a lot of different things. An ENFP can generally achieve a good degree of success at anything which has interested them. However, ENFPs get bored rather easily and are not naturally good at following things through to completion. Accordingly, they should avoid jobs which require performing a lot of detailed, routine-oriented tasks. They will do best in professions which allow them to creatively generate new ideas and deal closely with people. They will not be happy in positions which are confining and regimented.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ENFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the ENFP:

• Consultant
• Psychologist
• Entrepreneur
• Actor
• Teacher
• Counselor
• Politician / Diplomat
• Writer / Journalist
• Television Reporter
• Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, or Computer Specialist
• Scientist
• Engineer

***** So i didnt stray from my basic instincts after all! Engineer & Computer Specialist… I’m Happy! ***

The Kyle in us

Kyle XY was a drama which i stumbled upon through online TV, and it intrigued me. The way they had introduced the lead actor, Kyle, and the ambitious plot that the production had wanted was captivating. The way Kyle learns, is absolutely amazing but the one thing that strike me was how much he appreciates his new found knowledge. Most of us, or rather me, a new found knowledge is similar to a new toy, you play with it and u leave it aside when u find something new. But the character Kyle leaks the scent of gratitude, and cherishes each new piece of knowledge. Its a drama, and things can be dramatic or idealistic. But i think its a great reminder that learning itself is something to be thankful for! In my search to collect information, to build up my own library, i guess i may have lost the true intention of building that library within me; allowing quantity of information to overwrite quality, failing to filter the true importance.

There is alot we can relate to Kyle, and alot more that we can get from the show. But i shant tell u any, lest a spoiler be seen.

The first season of KYLE was really interested as we speculate the mystery of his birth, and it was all the more interested to watch him learn… 1 new thing everyday, and i believe we all can relate to his learning experiences in one way or another.

I’ve a slight different preference on films, dramas and movies than others… So dun come complaining to me if u did not like it. Becos i do enjoy this drama, which sadly had announced that there will be no Season 4, nor Season Finale… sucky huh… God, please get those producers to give KYLE XY a proper ending and not the rotten Season 3 ending!

KYLE IS COOL! :)

Dear God...

I have been complaining a lot... haven't i?


Things are the same but yet, they seem different for me; The very things I thought to be unchanged are no longer the same.


It's strange to be not on-sync with the very world I live and grew up in, as if I do not belong here.


Some said truths are often go challenged, but they always triumph. Is that true? There are others who say there is a price to pay for success, but we determine the worth. Is that true?


People also say that there is no absolute, and that only change is constant... That I know is not true. : )

AndroBlog

Greetings...

I am andro, messenger of me mistress, the Blogger.

She'll b ard more freq, w me now.

Pleased to have met you.

cheerz.

Moment

This is it!

Its NOW or NEVER!

Breathe! Keep eyes on the target! Dun take back the foot u lifted to step out!

Rem... this is the closest u will ever get!

Its NOW or never~!

It runs in the blood!

It’s the cool night that I really love, and sitting down to just think abt stuffs… Yes, I do admit that I think a lot, and I really enjoy doing it… :X It’s really strange that you know someone better after they have passed on, and more astonishing to find the same traits running in my very own blood. I remember my secondary school days when literature suddenly grabbed me and started this frenzy of poetry writing. It was a school trend that I had set on fire, even the teachers joined in to help us improve on our poetry writings. The spark in the teachers eyes were burning with excitement.

To think of it, I never did share with my grandpa about this sudden interest, this poet ambition was such a way off thing that my parents cannot understand why where I get the inclination from. I wish I had, cos if I had done so, we would have much more to talk abt and relate to each other ? I distinctively remember my parents wondering why I like reading and poetry so much, when neither of them can stand words and characters… Now I have the answer, becos I take after grandpa. In fact, I take after ALL of my “upstream” … :D

Grandpa Lim – Real life poet… I am impressed! Now I know why I like reading and poetry when neither of my parents is into it. He taught me wat free spirit means… and how long I had forgotten abt it.

Grandma Lim – Keep of memories in ALL ways, she keeps the littlest things that draws any relations to any memories. Her fierce fight against loss time was victorious! She too loved reading, she was the one who gotten me glues to the book cupboard in her hse whenever I am there.

Grandpops on my ma’s side – Coffee lover who once owned coffee shops, and taxi driver… Coffee drinking was a ceremony when kids turned adult in the family… only adults can drink coffee, so u can guess how much I am into coffee last time. Not to mention my love to take cabs… HEHEHEHE

Grandmama on my ma’s side – The biggest trait got to be the love to feed ppl! Cooking itself has no meaning, but if you are cooking for ppl u love, it’s a different story altogether! The one year away from home was the best experience I had, cos I know I was cooking for my friends and buddy!

Mum & Dad ? Well, if you know them, u will know I am the exact replicate of them… can’t complain! :)

Whats on your heart?

Hebrews 8:10
10“… I will put My laws in their mind and write them on their hearts…”

Many of us have been taught that we cannot trust our hearts. We quote verses like “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked…” (Jeremiah 17:9), not knowing that Jeremiah was referring to the man who had not received Jesus as his Lord and Savior.

I have had people come to me and say, “Pastor Prince, I don’t know what I should do with my life.”
“What is on your heart?” I asked one of them.
“I would love to work among children.”
“Then work among children!”
“But I am waiting on the Lord to tell me to do that.”
“Well, He has given you the desire, so go and work among children!”
“But the desire comes from my heart. How do I know if it is of God?”

My friend, once you are saved, you have a brand new heart (Ezekiel 36:26), and you can trust the promptings of your heart because God dwells in you and He leads you from within. And don’t worry because His promptings will never contradict His Word. It will lead you to good success.

Often, you find that when you follow your inner promptings, it is actually God who has put those desires in your mind and written them on your heart. I remember years ago when I approached one of our church leaders and told him, “I really think that you are called to be a full-time pastor.” It turned out to be a confirmation of what he already knew on the inside. You see, God was already leading him from within. Today, he is one of our full-time pastors.

If you enjoy something and desire to do it, then go for it! Go with the flow. God Himself says that He will guide us from within. Let’s not doubt Him. And don’t worry about the outcome. Your part is just to follow the flow. God’s part is to work in you both the willingness and the performance of it! (Philippians 2:13)
Beloved, because God has given you a new heart, He will write His desires on it. And as you fulfill these desires, you will bring forth fruit, and not wither and die. Whatever you do will prosper!


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