bummed out…

Totally feeling bummed out… not sure if its the suitability of the scene or if i am jus whining too much… i dunno… but i do whining as much as i am breathing… is the job making me depress or i am making me depress?

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Translations

English to Vietnamese:

It has been such a long time, but yet i cannot forget the gentle breeze that brought my mind such liberation... a simple thought that helped to resolve a seemingly dead knot in my head... It is all in the mind, it is all about how we think.

Nó đã được như vậy một thời gian dài, nhưng tôi không thể nào quên được những làn gió nhẹ đã mang giải phóng tâm như vậy của tôi ... một ý nghĩ đơn giản đó đã giúp giải quyết một nút dường như đã chết trong đầu của tôi ... Đó là tất cả trong tâm, đó là tất cả về cách chúng ta nghĩ.

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Vietnamese to English:

Nó đã được như vậy một thời gian dài, nhưng tôi không thể nào quên được những làn gió nhẹ đã mang giải phóng tâm như vậy của tôi ... một ý nghĩ đơn giản đó đã giúp giải quyết một nút dường như đã chết trong đầu của tôi ... Đó là tất cả trong tâm, đó là tất cả về cách chúng ta nghĩ.

It has been such a long time, but I can not forget the breeze brought liberation of my mind so ... a simple idea that helped solve a button seems to have died in my head ...It's all in the mind, it's all about the way we think.

Keepers

I consider myself as "old skool", I like to see ink on paper, and books should be in physical and tangible states where my fingers can run thru the cover to the pages within. I like the smell of colour faded papers, as of they have been kept their silence for years, waiting for people to uncover the treasure within its pages.

Books are not merely books, they are keepers that holds and protects... I have always loved books since young becos I know they are not merely pieces of paper that have been binded together. Words are descriptions of objects, scenarios, circumstances, people and ,of course, feelings & emotions... and all of these in general term = INFORMATION. Alternatively, I like to view such information as expressions of an individual.

If you come to know of a certain treasure map, and u can obtain in a relatively easy manner, would you want it? And if you have tis map on hand, what would you do with it? Will you go and get that treasure? Books are like treasure chests, tangible keepers that holds intangible treasures of knowledge & information, rumors & wisdom... and expressions...

直到你不找我

记得当时谁路过 

秒针忽然停顿过   

气温湿度曾骤变太多

记忆不停重叠过   

你的表情提示过    

爱的可能是我

想法很乱 幻觉太多    

疑虑很大直到说不清楚    

心算太慢 但仍然算错    

找对人   偏错过   

直到开始想喜欢我    

直到终于不喜欢我    

直到碰上一个   逃避一个
追不上 躲不过

直到开始找不到我  

直到终于不想找我    

直到你擦身过  才认得我    

彼此也在折磨    像当初  

想法太乱  直觉对么    

疑虑很大  直到爱不清楚    

当这世上  全怀疑我错    

总有人 相信我 

直到开始想喜欢我    

直到终于不喜欢我    

直到碰上一个 逃避一个   

追不上  躲不过

直到开始找不到我    

直到终于不想找我    

直到你擦身过  才认得我    

彼此也在折磨    

像当初。。。

投降?

关于人生这无耐，
我也不知所措。。。
此时也只能 无耐地。。。
被那无耐的无耐 无耐着。

我反复地问我自己
真的是束手无策吗?
还是为了掩饰自己放弃的借口?

是我没用。。。
这一关始终没能过，
也没能预测什么时才能过。
与其给自己希望不如坦白面对自己?
一个人 不可能自己单方面 解决问题，
即使只是一件。。。

Keep on believing...

Encouraged... truly encouraged...

明天以后

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气

其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
还微笑祝福你

Strange vs weird

Once upon a time, an ex-colleague congratulated me for being strange but not weird, and further explained that it was a complement... he definitely left hammering questions marks on my head... until i heard that he was complained and "released" and sent for psychiatric evaluation a month later. Now thats another story for another time...

Recently, i concluded what he said is somewhat true; there is a difference in strange and weird.

Frankly, i am find with strange, but i dun think weird sits well with me... cos the dictionary.com definition says weird is on a equal level with EERIE.

Stay strange, keep away from weird...

Tired.

Dun u know?

You who does not, do not have the right to complain !

Bloody annoying idiot, get lost!

石康钧

As much as my frens do not like him,

i really cant get myself not to go search for his new EP.

I like his voice.

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV)

Crash and burnt

I had to get this out of my system, and somewhere at the back of my mind, I wan to do this gracefully… God help me…

Ok, how should I put it? In simple words, they are “ I CANNOT TAKE IT ANY MORE! ” . I do not want to know anything, I do not want to analyze anything, I do not want to check all factors before deciding if I should charge myself as the guilty party just becos there is simply something I could have done and didn’t do which ended up in this mess! I am sick and tired of feeling whatever I do, it’s a wrong move, and whatever I do always results in a tragic emotional mess for the whole family. I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

At work, I can work with the guidelines; there are objectives which I can work towards it. The project may be painful, but there is always an end to it. In a relationship, if it doesn’t works out, breaking up and steering clear of each other isn’t a hard to do, even if Singapore is a small place. But family, the one that sticks with you for life, the ones whom you cannot choose but automatically loves is not like a boyfriend of a husband that you can leave and walk out of.

Damn it! Why do I have to know that everyone in the family is feeling the same thing, yet we all are not standing on the same platform, same line, and same reference? Damn it! Why is it that the one with the knowledge has the same responsibility to initiate the flow? DAMN IT! WHERE IS GOD WHEN I NEED HIM?!

YES! I know I am blind with tears, blind with anger, and blind to see where God is and what he is doing, blind to only see that I am alone in this pit…Its been years that this is going on, and I swear I would have jumped off a building long ago. Years after years all matters were just buried over. Damn it when is it going to get resolved?! WILL IT EVER GET RESOLVED??? Like a haunting ghost, it keeps coming back… tell me how long will it take before I jump off the ledge or allow myself to just speed and crash.

I am burnt, is that too hard to understand?

You told me, if I dun wan my life any more, I can give to God, at least do some recycling. And I did. Then all the more the waves come are even stronger, more suffocating? Work we had overcome, relationships we too walked thru it, then why is the most impt family aspect still status quo?

I dun wan to hear anything encouraging, I dun wan to hear any consolations, in fact… I dun wan to hear anything. Can someone just untangle the bloody mess? Can you all just let me walk away… walk far far away…

TO GOD:

You are God, you are able and willing. I really dun care how or wat, I and gving you tis tangled mess to sort things out. You are my God, you look out for me. You settle this thing. I dun wan to be vexed or upset with this any more. I will steer clear, and keep out of sight. You settle… not just about this incident, You settle the problem at the root cause.

New Job?

Coming 30th August 2010 will mark the end of my probation,

time has passed easily with nothing much to do each day.

It has come back to the point where i am the center of stand still where everyone is going around like busy bees...

I hate it when i am not able to do anything to help,

i hate it when i am not participating in the work,

i hate it becos it simply alienates me ...

Work stress i can handle, but i am never willing to handle home tension.

I can handle work in non emotional, feelings detached manner, and they still get resolve.

But home tension is different, becos u never noe what they want.

More Hebe!

I am definitely her fan!

Cant wait to get my hands on her solo album!!!!!!!!!!!

聽誰在唱歌

A fellow human being who shares the same sentiments as me...

OMG Lunch Cook Off

Well, i have been to cook in the office for a long time,
and this is the OMG Cook Off Lunch...

This IS it!

Nothing fancy, cos i still abit shy to take out my cooking utensils and stuffs.

The food in the tuperware... freshly bought from Giant.

The cooking barangs includes the cutting sheets, cutting knife & rice cooker...

U can also see the Instant noodles and canned baked beans.

My new toy...

Nice blue, but honestly i would have bought pink/green/orange if i had seen it...

Dunno is dun have or the Giant i went already sold out the colors liaoz...

Preparations will begin in 30-45mins...

with the following menu...

Yong tau foo soup with udon noodles

Baked beans with octopus like chicken franks

* Ps. Dun think will have change to upload the cooked product... Cos have to fast fast cook, and fast fast eat then fast fast wash up. :X

shhhhhh.....

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The finished products!

:) Homecooked taste :)

Tips for travelling

Extract taken from Paul's blog tdy...

1. Avoid museums. This might seem to be absurd advice, but let’s just think about it a little: if you are in a foreign city, isn’t it far more interesting to go in search of the present than of the past? It’s just that people feel obliged to go to museums because they learned as children that travelling was about seeking out that kind of culture. Obviously museums are important, but they require time and objectivity – you need to know what you want to see there, otherwise you will leave with a sense of having seen a few really fundamental things, except that you can’t remember what they were.

2. Hang out in bars. Bars are the places where life in the city reveals itself, not in museums. By bars I don’t mean nightclubs, but the places where ordinary people go, have a drink, ponder the weather, and are always ready for a chat. Buy a newspaper and enjoy the ebb and flow of people. If someone strikes up a conversation, however silly, join in: you cannot judge the beauty of a particular path just by looking at the gate.

3. Be open. The best tour guide is someone who lives in the place, knows everything about it, is proud of his or her city, but does not work for an agency. Go out into the street, choose the person you want to talk to, and ask them something (Where is the cathedral? Where is the post office?). If nothing comes of it, try someone else – I guarantee that at the end of the day you will have found yourself an excellent companion.

4. Try to travel alone or – if you are married – with your spouse. It will be harder work, no one will be there taking care of you, but only in this way can you truly leave your own country behind. Travelling with a group is a way of being in a foreign country while speaking your mother tongue, doing whatever the leader of the flock tells you to do, and taking more interest in group gossip than in the place you are visiting.

5. Don’t compare. Don’t compare anything – prices, standards of hygiene, quality of life, means of transport, nothing! You are not travelling in order to prove that you have a better life than other people – your aim is to find out how other people live, what they can teach you, how they deal with reality and with the extraordinary.

6. Understand that everyone understands you. Even if you don’t speak the language, don’t be afraid: I’ve been in lots of places where I could not communicate with words at all, and I always found support, guidance, useful advice, and even girlfriends. Some people think that if they travel alone, they will set off down the street and be lost forever. Just make sure you have the hotel card in your pocket and – if the worst comes to the worst – flag down a taxi and show the card to the driver.

7. Don’t buy too much. Spend your money on things you won’t need to carry: tickets to a good play, restaurants, trips. Nowadays, with the global economy and the Internet, you can buy anything you want without having to pay excess baggage.

8. Don’t try to see the world in a month. It is far better to stay in a city for four or five days than to visit five cities in a week. A city is like a capricious woman (or a capricious man, if you are a woman): she/he takes time to be seduced and to reveal him/herself completely.

9. A journey is an adventure. Henry Miller used to say that it is far more important to discover a church that no one else has ever heard of than to go to Rome and feel obliged to visit the Sistine Chapel with two hundred thousand other tourists bellowing in your ear. By all means go to the Sistine Chapel, but wander the streets too, explore alleyways, experience the freedom of looking for something – quite what you don’t know – but which, if you find it, will – you can be sure – change your life.

As an old hippie, I know what I’m talking about…
The text was taken from my book “Like a flowing river”

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/07/20/tips-for-travelling-eng-port-esp-fra/

The Goal Should NEVER change

It has been increasing difficult to keep things in order, in control and possibly in restricting the untamed tongue that had coupled with a FFT (Fast & Fiery Temperament). Its been a month of new job new company, a month since I got my car, a month since my last entry and a month of less to almost no drinking. It’s an achievement? Nah, it’s a restriction otherwise aka known as a clause under the Driver Responsibility.

A month ago, I decided and set my foot down to join S and A. But by divine intervention, I have left them hanging in the air, because I am no longer certain. The evening we celebrate my joining, was the same night that sparked me not to. The first nugget of advice he gave was “Our goal should never change…” It was like a bomb dropped, a flare gun going off, it was crystal what my next step should be……