Guess what i saw in gumtree for sale…

 

Curious

 

SENT:

Hi... am very curious... and alittle too much time on my hand.
So wat do u do exactly?
U travelled ard, from one place to another.
Then u write songs... and u perform?
No offence, just curious.
Anyway, have a good trip to jap...
Hope all be well with you.

Ps. am waiting to read " 10 yrs of Xxxxxx Xxxx"

 

REPLY:

This is my transition year - was working in UNICEF in Geneva until January, and I will be starting my PhD next week in Tokyo.
I spent the year travelling, finishing the master's which i have been doing through distance learning since 2007, and also learning Korean which has been necessary for my research (my research topic is related to the country).
As for the music part - this has been what I have been doing on the side since about 10 years ago.

 

 

LATER ON SAW IN FB:

Xxxxxx Xxxx : if curious, check this place out. i am staying in building B of the residence halls. <URL>

 

 

Note:

Just tot it to be funny to see such coincidence in word use. Nothing more… jus for humor… akaka

Of stories and fairy tales

Once upon a time, there was a little girl who loved stories. Day in day out, she would pester her mum to bring her to the library, her favorite place. She was only 5.

I was that little girl who loved stories. I adored fairy tales, tales of creatures never seen, stories with twists and adventures, and endings were often happy ones. I remembered reading the entire series of fairy tales at my neighborhood library. Needless to say, my mum was impressed, but she never quite understood why i only loved fairy tales.

Then i moved on to bible stories, they were brilliant! It was as if they were fairy tales, but only they were true! The adults around all said that they were real life accounts. I was elated.

It has been many years, but my love for stories never went away. I have been reading, listening and participating in stories of the people around me. And that is truly my passion.

I stumbled onto a blog, its titled “ Stories that matters”. He too was searching for stories, travelling from one place to another, searching and writing the stories along the way. I am impressed; impressed in doing what he does, in continuing to do what he had began. Becos, i had stopped my search. I wanted to in my own story, and no longer in others only.

It seems like a task too difficult, i stopped struggling and feeling despair. But i am not ready to raise the white flag, not really sure what i am going to do now or how things will turn out… I am sure that i will not surrender and resign myself to compromise. I am trying to put away the recent spate of disappointments and unhappiness, the day i am able to speak to my father without coldness would be the day of my success.

Stories

BIG tots... abt "Stories to Tell - travelling tales for all". Then there is this big idea from reading Marien's novel; obsessions of individuals and their resolutions. Of cos, a novel has to have all her characters linked up... and it showed the good old wisdom of removing root before treatment and the price of a fool.

Read the book.







P.s Too much into the book, now in Marien Keyes's Loly Daly mood!

Sulky

its been quite a few days since i have been sulky, and more considering the days of despair.
One week, just one bloody week i gave myself to wallow and pretend i'm on holiday and relax... stayed offline and managed to stick to my book, no internet no tv and not really a huge progress. Nevertheless, still a step... big step for me.

One book down and quite a few more to go!

Scale of ignorance and power

If ignorance is bliss, then knowledge is power... power for change.

To be more specific,
knowledge is unrealized power,
waiting for the moment to evolve into revelation.
Revelation IS the power to be reckon with.

04:21

This moment is 04:21 or 21st September,
This moment came silently and unexpectedly;
I wasn't waiting for it,
nor had i paid any attention to it.
This moment just came, and froze...

Despair

Despair just eats you alive; it starts from taking in HOPE like someone slurping on their soup starters... licking every drop, polishing you from even a single speckle of anything that resumes HOPE. It moves on like a hungry wolf, pouncing on your senses. Losing your mind, bit by bit, little by little, like a prey completely subdued by its predator... waiting hopelessly, mindlessly for death to come.

Slowly, you will feel nothing, as if your nerves had been removed. You struggle and hurt yourself with intent, hoping pain pain can distract you, thinking feeling pain can wake you, using the pain to prove that you are still alive...

Pathetic.

你 我 他

 

Down you hung yr head, looking to the ground,
With every step you take, you allowed it to be your style.
Casting your glances up, only to see the signs and lifts
before returning back to the cold hard concrete down.

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You were dressed in blue causal, in jeans with a sling bag as many youths would.
You were barely walking, dragging your feet in the pace of reluctance.
You were going in a direction for the train, leaving for some place called dread.
You caught the lift, finally glancing to see the numeric of 123.

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World I look you in the eye, with glances to the horizons.
Quicken but relaxed were my pace, for this day of light and glory.
Dressed in red blue and a bagful of hope I carry,
I dreamt of an unceasing hope.

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I am dressed in red blue, with a touch of white and cyan at the ears.
I walk with direction, and a sense of destination.
I quicken my steps, pacing in peace and relief from the weights of world.
I like to share this flora I wear, that brings colors to life and life to lives.

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Love is all one can see, in the eyes of the he who is able and willing;
wearing that body of scars and stripes, from scourges not his.
Like a beacon in the night, he stands out for you and me.
In the name of an amazing love.

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He was dressed with blood and scars, but now in white glory.
He was nailed on the cross, but resurrected alive and well.
He sits in Heaven, with eyes upon our every thought.
He is waiting for us, for us to make that call.

未來我得到的還會有很多， 但失去的，只有你一個。

 

徐佳瑩 失落沙洲

這首創作，是描寫『失去』的一首歌，細微地勾勒情感遠離的惆悵與心酸。一次一場探訪癌 症病童的活動，當時徐佳瑩和參訪者置身於小朋友、家屬和醫護人員中，氣氛熱絡溫馨，其 中一位護理長懇請她現場演唱之前比賽時表演過的「失落沙洲」，這首讓護理長聽了直落淚 的原因，是因為其中一段歌詞「我不是一定要你回來，只是當又把回憶翻開，除了你之外的 空白，還有誰能來教我愛。」深刻地唱出了那些失去孩子們的家長心聲，而這也讓徐佳瑩對 這首歌產生新的體驗。基於各種不同的感受交雜，「失落沙洲」是專輯裡演唱難度最高的一 首歌曲，「雖然初始動機是失去愛情，但在演唱時就會不斷想到那些，也許是失去親人，也 許是失去任何一些重要的東西的人，我貪心的希望它能包含更多的追憶。」
「失落沙洲」開場緩緩流動的弦樂一出，立刻領人進入一股緩慢的哀傷裡，沉靜中盡顯孤寂 ，極具渲染力。在陳建騏老師細細指引下，徐佳瑩以其圓潤清亮的聲線，完美詮釋歌曲中「 面對失去的悲傷」、與「接受失去的遺憾」的思緒轉折。

身骑白马

 

這首歌不但傳達了一個平凡女生義無反顧追 求愛情、追求夢想的勇敢與孤獨，也更像是徐佳瑩為了音樂勇往直前孤身北上的真實寫照。

 

 

我爱谁 跨不过 从来也不觉得错                                              自以为 抓着痛 就能往回忆里躲偏执                                       相信着 受诅咒的水晶球 阻挡可能心动的理由  

而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错                                              原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟                                        眼前 沙弥漫了等候 耳边传来孱弱的呼救                                 追赶要我 爱的不保留  

我身骑白马 走三关 我改换素衣 回中原                                            放下西凉 无人管 我一心只想 王宝钏  

而你却 靠近了 逼我们视线交错                                              原地不动 或向前走 突然在意这分钟                                       眼前荒沙弥漫了等候 耳边传来孱弱的呼救                               追赶要我 爱的不保留

我身骑白马 走三关 我改换素衣 回中原                                            放下西凉 无人管 我一心只想 王宝钏  

满身伤痕累累也来不及痛 那是指引我走向你的清楚感受                    不管危不危险 都要放下一切跟你走                                                 只要一起承担 只要你不放手

ENFP - The Inspirer

 

You are lucky because you are good at a variety of different things. In general you are successful at things you are interested in, however you do have a tendency to get bored easily and sometimes don't follow things through to completion. You should avoid jobs involving detailed, routine tasks and focus of careers where you have the freedom and flexibility to be creative and interact with other people. You have natural leadership skills without the need to always be in charge. This coupled with your creativity and energy allows you to inspire others and make them willing to work with you. Some of your personality traits include: * Project-oriented * Bright and capable * Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills * Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people * Able to relate to people on their own level * Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above your own * Future-oriented * Dislike performing routine tasks * Need approval and appreciation from others * Cooperative and friendly * Creative and energetic * Well-developed verbal and written communication skills * Natural leaders, but do not like to control people * Resist being controlled by others * Can work logically and rationally - use your intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it * Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories Some of your suggested careers are: * Consultant * Psychologist * Entrepreneur * Actor * Teacher * Counselor * Politician / Diplomat * Writer / Journalist * Television Reporter * Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, or Computer Specialist * Scientist * Engineer

Sick Meow

Its been a really long time since i fell ill with fever, thanks to tonsil inflammation! Actually, its my fault lah… had herbal chicken on the same day with roasted pork knuckles, grilled sausage platter and charcoaled pizza… wheat beer from Paulaner seems to make it worse (according to an unverified source). Waking up hourly for water and washing of face to cool myself down was damn tiring, but the discomfort was worse… I’m just glad that i am feeling so much better now.

Was going thru the fridge, to find an apple and a packet of Taiwanese sausages. A moment of brainstorm jumped on me! i made porridge with diced apple and sausages, some seasoning and it turned out not too bad… Hee… Cooking is certainly is one of my fav hobbies… cooking without restrictions and supervision !

Tour guiding experience

Well, as many know that i had to rush to Hanoi on the 6th August to participate in my first tour guiding experience. Its very informal, after all it was an experiment mah…

They were a grp of 4 ladies, delighted am i when i they said i was the youngest amidst them. :) The foursome are quite different, and they came together rather interestingly. Of these four, i only know Teri… she was one of the jie mei i got to know @ estee’s wedding. She got in touch w me, informing me that they will be going Hanoi and i took the chance to play tour guide.

First, i did up a schedule… the items were all in, and the time allocated were quite realistic. One big challenge was i shldnt have gave them options, where alot of amendments had to be made. I shld have been firm. We did cover all the places, but i think i really died in shopping. The weather was killing me, and i think i was too hot for my tolerance to maintain functional.

It was a great trial, cos i felt i did try out something and learnt something… I do have another trip to plan, for my good buddy and her parents! So, this time round i doing up a budgeting for her first, then advise her on the date of my preference. It shld be exciting!

[Hanoi – ing] You must be joking!

God’s favor upon me is like the air that we breathe daily; this trip to Hanoi has not only allow me to have a very minimal tasting of tour guiding, but also allowed me to do major networking and socializing with other Singaporeans here. Of which were the Singapore ambassador for Hanoi, Hungarian ambassador (cant rem of their names :X), Bobby who owns a western dining place which i will definitely visit before i leave, Halia representative where they do up class/fine dining in the paragon area of Hanoi, ppl from an educational centre who asked me i i am interested to do teaching with them…. etc

Er…. ya they must be joking! Me to teach A maths, physics, etc?!! They happily wanna squeeze one class out for me to do trial teaching, and i had beads of perspiration streaming down at the back of my head. Some time later, another asked me if i am interested to teach young children, and i am suspecting the young children refers to her cutie daughter… Yes, boo boo finally accepts me and we are having lotsa fun together, but nannying/baby sitting or tutoring her is a diff story altogether; the fear of letting them down is like the end of the world.

Thanks but no thanks… dun think teaching is for me, i find the email from calvary making more sense at the moment…

My 2009 National Day experience

Its been a pretty tiring time for me, in the last few days, but tdy has got to be something to blog abt… Help yourselves to the point form events, cos i really no energy to tahan b4 i fall zzz again…

• Golf with Dad and Hilman @ 0500hrs, barely slept and had to wake up le!
• On the way to golfing, saw a crowd and realized an accident had just occurred; a young man lying on the ground with his back facing us… in a pool of red blood… his own blood… Really freaked me out and on the spot i gave up any ideas of riding or driving in Vietnam ever!
• At golf, the heat was melting me as if i was an ice cube. More heat was felt when my Dad kept commenting on the way i prep/play. Hilman felt more buay tahan than me… GRIN
• On the way back, Hilman gave me tips on stocks and shares and if i wan i really got to quick quick…
• Lunch was chicken briyani, mutton briyani & Tandoori Chicken! Yummy!
• Dad had to nap, Hilman had hsechores and i was trying to proof read for someone but ending up zzz too…
• Another National Day dinner to attending, organized by the Singaporean business association… Met the Ambassador again, v friendly and approachable guy so far.
• Enjoyed the National Day Parade live telecast, with doing the pledge @ 2022hrs and singing the anthem. Had a few tigers and head for another round of japan food…
• Finally back in Ciputera… feel like i falling apart…

Got more to write but really buay tahan le…. BBL

Dun feel good day

Panadol extra came in handy today, the familiar headache made a surprise visit and i can feel my ears burning hot again… Cant really tell if all these were from the pouring rain from the typhoon visiting Hanoi or was it from the glasses of wine and non-stop introduction as Mr KB Lim’s daughter, eldest daughter.

Met alot of ppl, some exchange if name cards took place, and of cos my dad was proud to introduce me to the Singapore ambassador, whom he kept stressing as young handsome and capable.   – . -    You know i dun like to carry a tag that says “so & so” daughter, the ballroom was sucking life outta me…

Heard something that i would like not to hear; something confirming my fears which i cannot do anything but plan to run away to some other parts of the world, feeling tired of being a egg mayo filling.

Dun understand why dad and Hillman so enthu abt watching Money Not Enuff II movie once we came back from the red white dinner; Its kinda funny, but it reminded me alot of my grandma. I rem the exact scene where i saw my grandma lying motionless on the hospital bed. Sadly, we could relate to many of the ending scenes from my grandpa’s passing and my recent grandma’s demise.

I guess i am too exhausted from such a long day, looking forward to visit fren in Sydney and maybe hiding in NZ or xxx…

G.o.o.h

 

Concealed is the glow, beneath the dry sticks and leaves

Brewing in the skies, and stirrings in the winds

A fire awaits the bursting of flames,

consuming everything that stands in its ways.

** COKE

Enough horsing ard with the facebook apps, i shld be getting straight to biz and do up the tasks at hand. But i think i shld let off some steam before the pressure eats me alive. There are many wonderful things to blog abt;

- The time in Hanoi, a different feeling/mood.

- The unexpected surprise Nanning gave me.

- The importance of  moving on constantly, and improving/developing myself.

- Freedom is something everyone wants, and all are looking to escape from their unsatisfied life/lifestyle… and that includes my parents…

Then there is the unexpected twist in Lian and Ting’s situations, not to mention Fang’s possibility in changing the heading of her course… which so far is the best news :)

But the thing that drove me to Mac for a upsized coke and wireless SG to blog is none other than my head almost turning into a pressure cooker that is cooking my brains and eating me alive.

I rem once upon a time my addiction to CocaCola drove my family nuts, and family frens were rallied into tell me their life stories on coke addiction. Maybe it was that time, my reliance on cocaine developed bah… ok lah… now i only taking small dosage of it in panadol extra :X  just kidding… hee…

After resigning, i am subjected to stay home and not run anywhere rule, by order of Mrs Lim. Then i have to subject my time and schedule, my plans to Mr Lim… who doesnt seems to have a clue what he wants me to do… He gave 2 tasks, but with incomplete information to properly execute anything. No problem, we handled such situation everyday in the last 9 yrs. I took it in my stride and did whatever i could, pacifying and fighting fire as we go along.

But what he did last night really upset me, i dun mind if you have no plans for me. I was the one who resigned, so if u think this is a mess, then i will settle this mess myself. I am not waiting for handouts of tasks to do to survive.

I told my fren i made a choice, and i intend to keep it. Since i will not go US/Aussie/anywhere, unless i have your blessings. But at least let me do what i want to do in Sg. I can plan for myself. Yes, i may be confused and lost right now, but i believe after sorting out i will figure something out

Someone asked me why do i have to be right all the time, do the right thing, make the right choice, why this mentality? Becoz my own family dun tolerate failure or mistakes, for every mistake or wrong or failure it will be stuck to me forever and my family will bite on it never letting it. Now i dun want to let go of my past failures, is they keep reminding me.

Home is suppose to be a place of rest and comfort, but blk 133 is more of a pressure chamber to me right now.

 

I need another coke.

Not doing anything vs initiative vs rash

Someone once praised me for having initiative and even said that i will amount to some great thing, he was dead sure.

Now i am not that sure any more. I cant put my finger one me being initiative or being rash. Somehow i began to feel that i am either on the not doing anything part of the scale or the other extreme end of rash… Many talked abt mine impatience, rather than initiative. When i took my time to consider, they said that i am not doing anything, and even deem that i am lost.

In the midst of making decisions, i rarely care what ppl say, but it was the aftermath comments that really get to me. Its fine if ppl dun see the way i see, or agree with my ways. I dun need to you to understand me, but i really dun need your accusations.