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My first doodle...

More than just a bad day...

Its not just another bad day, its just i am bad... No idea if i was a rotten apple all along or somewhere sometime in the past i changed. I am a lousy person, breathing and wasting precious oxygen... I know i am not a good friend shld be, but i did try... And i did failed. My stupid non functioning memory, blur double booking me, and the moody who run and hides are my winning formula to my epic failure. I let her down once before, choosing my work and not being able to fulfill the wedding planner which i promised to be. And now... The price of failure, and cost of taking things for granted is the loss of a friend, a damn good one... who no longer considers me a friend no more... Its more than just a bad day... Work is not going as well, sabotages come one after another, colleagues getting upset at me, frustrated at not able to express myself, nothing is right... Its like a dark cloud crept up on me and engulf me, now everywhere i turn or look i hate what i see... myself! Dear God, What is it that is going on? All i know is i messed up, messed up big time too... Can you help? Can you fix this? Please, can you help me and fix this mess and let things go back to the days where we all are happy... Fix me too! i dun wan any of this to happen again... Please!

starry starry Night

baby breath

Blessed birthday!

依靠

人說

＂靠樹 樹會倒， 靠人 人會跑＂

我說

＂哇靠！

 樹可不可以不倒， 人可不可以不跑？

 因為。。。 我想依靠你。。。

Tree

Nap Dream Fright

It wasnt a nitemare to begin with, cos it was an evening nap and it really wasnt horrific... Its something that the mind conjurs up, from memory, in a random manner... But still, my heart was pounding hard, the fear was puzzlingly overwhelming...

As usual, my dreams where hopping like a grasshopper... From one scene to another, totally unrelated totally random! I guess the only part of the dream i rememebered were conversations between myself to myself *hee* my tots lah not i siao siao talking to myself aloud lah,as i was conversing w A via msging, and a grp conversation between A & B & myself.

The first part was abt conversation w A on asking if he was interested in going somewhere, impression being a place tat is rather far judging from my disappointment when he replied that he is already there... And cant rem the rest of the converesation... Then i was in a car, driving alone to somewhere, dark quiet narrow road area, passing some lights. It pretty much looks like none city area, cos more plants then concrete sardines...

Then i was in the room, i assume i had driven, arrived at my destination and made my way into the room. There was some sort of display or screen showing, not wat it was... Then next thing i know, i found myself in a ridiculously high place, like those playgrounds made up was steel poles in big cube like form, except it was so high up that i cant see the ground. There were 3 of us, A & B & me... Sitting on top, not moving, and as i saw the high, i was very concern and limited my movement immediately. I had no idea why, but i had alot of stuffs with me; 2 mobiles and some other electronic items. I suddenly l fumbled and dropped one of my mobiles, and it went down down down...

Then the conversation came, starting with someone saying i should havent have brought it up, now its gone for good. But i wasnt concern, all i did was " ah... Nevermind". Somehow, thought in such a situation, my comfort was the presence of A. I remember saying, so long A is ard, i feel safe or something of sort. With that i woke up, then following w a wave of fear and rapid beating of the heart.

Not sure wat was B doing there thought, my guess is becos saw him recently alittle too much... Wakakakaka...  I cant help but think the whole dream was more of A and me, cos only we were interacting, more like the main dream and B was the cameo... So sorry B! Wahahahaha...

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Outta tis world

As always, the question remains...

Moon after moon and years after years... Where do i belong?!! Like an awkward puzzle piece, sticking out like a sore thumb!

The only consolation is that i am a puzzle piece, and definitely do belong somewhere... Just dunno where... Wherever it is, dun think its here... It jus hurts too much...

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Hunger Games

A movie touted by many as the must watch of the year, encouraged my bunch of friends to catch it on a perfectly good Saturday night. All I can say after a night or tot, I dun really like the show...

1. I do not appreciate trilogies, and wat I saw last night was nothing more than an incomplete movie.

2. My first words were "its pathetic"; its nothing but a show, all in all from front to end, inside out, on and off is nothing but a show. Whether its the audiences in the movie, or the contestants in the games, or the game master... Its just speaks of a pathetic world.

3. The movie is another wannabe to run in the ranks for trilogies, money spinning tool...

I might have a diff view if it wasnt a trilogy :P

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Waking up in an early morning

Havent been feeling well for a long time, and the gastric pain seems to be on to me since yesterday... In pain and with no choice i fell into zzz land as early as 8pm, plus minus lah... I am beginning to believe, so long i have good and undisturbed rest, i can only stay asleep for 8hrs consecutive hrs straight... Before i get bored and wake up... Like now... Ah boh who will blog at 5am in the morning???

Well, all i can say that Good Friday is a Good Good day! Its definitely a good sign, a good good sign on starting anew on a Good Friday!

Todays will mark my beginning to play a more proactive role in loosing of my unwanted extra weight now. Though i am really flat on my back from the gastric and backache, i sincerely hope i will still be able to go play the 2 rounds of badminton.

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不知道從幾何時......

不知道是什麼時候我已不再愛他了,

好像放下了沉重的行李似的,

有著又輕鬆又好像有點空的複雜感覺

1996年 我們結識, 到了那年底我們就在一起了...

在一起後 然後吵架不聯絡分手, 分手後 又復合, 復合後又分手.

我記得最后一次的復合

我還以為我們終於了解我們要的是什麼,

更是明白和接受與忍讓彼此...

我真的沒想到我竟會有那麼大的勇氣來支持我的理性...

16年了... 我愛了你16年後, 終於放下了...

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God is Good... without a doubt!

I believe in Jesus, i believe in His name, I believe in this death and the payment for my sins. I believe in His ressurrection, I believe in his finished works, I believe! I believe God is a merciful God, I believe He cherishes life more than us humans does, i believe He is kind, and most of all, He is ABLE! I believe when i pray, God will hear me, I believe God answers prayers! I believe Uncle is whole and well, I believe Uncle is bless and guard with angels around, I believe what Uncle is going through, is the devil's last struggle. I believe victory is already here! I believe Uncle will be a great testimony, and most of all, an encourage to his son... His son is my boss :) In Jesus's most precious name, AMEN!

Lonely

You are not alone
I am here with you
Even when you're scared
I'll never leave you
Standing in a storm

Making it insane
Once again, I would try
To enchain you
But you open your eyes to the sky
and whisper

That you are so lonenly
You are so alone
You're so alone
You're so lonely, so lonely

So I'm colouring my face
While I am here with you
Imagining the landscape of your sorrow
Is it yellow or blue?

Colouring the sky, and the trees
and the clouds, and the moonlight
I'd coloured your heart
If you didn't I did

And I wish you could just find home

 

 

有陰影的地方，必定有光。
如同最漫長苦澀的想念，必定是因為最無限美麗的回憶。
也許沒有一個人，可以陪你到世界的盡頭。
但回憶，可以永遠擁有，
一如星空，
無論何時，你只需抬頭。

莫名其妙的我

阿嬤打來，聲音很擔心地問媽媽回來了嗎。。。放了電話我就哭了。

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You are an S - Steady person.

 

Steady people desire to keep their environment from changing. They have a consistent work performance. They accommodate others. They get along well with others because they are flexible in their attitude. They may not say anything if they disagree just to keep peace, however they seem to find a way to get what they want. They are moderate and controlled. They are modest. They like to help others, make good counselors and are great listeners. They can speak on an intellectual level and prefer quiet discussions with one or two people. They build close relationships with a small group of friends. They like to maintain familiar and predictable patterns. They are consistent in accomplishing work. If they receive appreciation, they maintain a high level of performance. They may need help when starting a new project. They like to feel comfortable with anything new before actually starting it. They enjoy something in writing so they can refer to it. They ask, they don't tell. They want answers to their "HOW" and "WHEN" questions.

KTV傳奇--19(陳珊妮+陳建騏)

我們偶爾想為心裡在意的人，做些不經意的小事，偷偷送他一首歌。要是那些唱不上的高音，和追不上的情人同樣令你膽怯，約他去KT­V唱首歌吧！
放下你的矜持和害羞吧，因為最重要的只是那份體貼和心意...

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