Tuesday, February 17, 2015

Voices for 2015

Resolution making for new year or new age is never my thing... 
Why bother making a list of things that you dun want to do and force yourself to be guilty?
Just go do what you want to do, just do it! Do what makes you happy!
Isn't that what everyone is "blabbering" abt ???

*Pause*

Earth calling cow on the moon, "Houston time to come back to reality!"
Can anyone be more responsible? Can you be responsible for your words?!!

Dun you patronize me!!!

Can I do what I want? Whenever and whatever I feel like?!!
Can I do what makes me happy? 
Dun give me crap on "with exception of etc..." Or "with sensible discretion".
The definition of the word whatever is "anything or everything that" ;
Dun throw irresponsible words and leave the pain to burden others.

More importantly, a good heart doesn't justify heaping any words on others; 
Did I asked you any question or seeked your advice?
Are you clear on the situation before you roll out your "goodwill"?
Words are like swords, be it spoken or written, and yes... I am wielding a defensive sword now!

Can you be fair to me?

I have warned you that the conversation shld stopped there and then many times, and bravo... 
Your ears wouldn't listen, and consequence?

You succeeded making me feel bitter towards the very people I love and live for.
You succeeded in destroying any hope left in life for me.
Bravo.

No no no... I not pushing blame on you, 
you did it with your own lips and insistence.
You wan a medal?


Thursday, January 01, 2015

Oneplus One Technical help neeed

How to get rid of the discharging?!! Ever since it appeared, greatly affect my phone batt life!!! Exasperated!

Tuesday, December 02, 2014

Focus

With my current state of mind, I can hardly remember things for long... the simplest idea can be forgotten into eternity within a split second.

My mind goes blank whenever I try to think of something to think abt, and floods of thoughts will come when I am driving. You can see how persistently I try to sabotage myself rite?

This can often be misinterpreted as a sign, which I was hopelessly a thin line away, but revelation came when it dawned on me that focus was the key!

Focus is not an easy thing for someone who ia constantly distracted by the ambitious mind wanting to accomplish more than it can bite... the only life threatening circumstance that requires me, and I can, to focus.

Wow rite?!!
Now if u kindly excuse me, I gotta go think how to make us of this new found revelation.

Cheers.

Monday, October 06, 2014

就知道

人是现实的,
没有非份之想 但还是有小失望
朋友没几个 想找个喝咖啡喝茶的做伴 也没了

寂寞是难免的 但还是能过的
现在知道为什么我越来越不懂得跟人相处

是有办法 还是没法 ???

Sunday, August 17, 2014

走啊走

如果人生是个旅程,那重点是什么?
是脚步的快慢?
是走的路程?
是路途中的收獲,失去與錯過?

人生是個無止境的旅程,而終點與距離是由自己來決定。。。
生命的結束是種終點,若要距離頓時變零又有什麼難道呢?
旅程中的步伐可健步如飛但若不知要何去何縱也是追空 - 追風一場空

現在的我, 旅程中最重要的是途中的風景與人。。。事。。。物。。。
出門就為看看

Monday, June 30, 2014

Cafe cafe - Le 樂 cafe

Space very much tailored for working office ard... deco is interesting and does have  wah factor when the bicycles are spotted at the ceiling... looks a little like Mary Poppin movie where bikes can fly.


Its a self service place, go counter order take a buzzer tag where u will be called when yr food is ready... since its 2pm and there is only me in the cafe, they still need the buzzer thingie??? I had to walk twice, but nvm... these days young ppl all like tat... what else to say???


Ordered a Casars salad and flat white... salad is erm... I can make it myself easily type and coffee is ... but the milk froth is ok, u can see it holds even when I am finishing the coffee itself.

Monday, May 12, 2014

Cafe Cafe - Backstage Cafe


So, I've got it all wrong... 
I kept thinking Backstage Cafe is the single level building in red, 
The one at the corner of the bendemeer junction...
Now I know it is actually very near my ex offices... In Kallang!!!
Sigh

Its a nice place, very spacious feel from the big room, wide seats and high ceiling.
The kitchen is in the back, pretty much like a theatre backstage,
And the light snacks and beverage station, cum cashier is like an island in the middles of the space.

Lunch menu looks good but dun have much of appetite... 
All ruin by the BBQ leftover last night!!! -.-
No choice have to pick something really light and no more meat or protein!
Waffle lor... In mood for sweets... Happy days mate!
And the all important cuppa!


Electronics very unfriendly, but when u are alone in a cafe,
It provides virtual company where u can torture those who are not physically present...
Muahahahahaha

While I was engross in app-ing, the server set the waffle down on the table...
And when it had my attention... IT HAS MY ATTENTION!
Wow seh! The late need so big anot?!!
Dunno if the waffle is big, but becos the plate so big, I feel the waffle also like damn big leh!!!

There is no way I can finish it!
And true enough I struggled!!!
But then... I was bored... 
Then I decided on the Sequel to Sylvester and Twitty Bird!
And I muttered "Platey Platey plate plate" and out came MeowB3!!!


                                                     Shortly after, Angry bird arrived!!!


Know what? 
They scooted off to dunno where when a blue eye gold hair guy went are with a big video cam, 
asking ppl in large grp if to let him "shoot" (not literately ok)... 
He came in a van with these words... MEDIACORPS... Go figure...

Cafe Cafe - The Coffee Shot

It's another place that it kept passing by, ever wanted to check it out 
but it's in an awful area for car parking, go down and u'll know what I mean...

Then come Labour Day 2014... 
It's 9am, great day for a good coffe N cafe breakie!!!
Down the road in my little blue auto and what do I find?
Long queues everywhere, for car parks, road side, even table or a single seat in the cafe
All uber duper long until from far can see!!!
No Rokeby, no Lola's, no SunRay, No Serangoon gardens,
No Careshop De Cafe (the one with the most exaggerated q!), 
No no no no no no no no
Super irritating ley!

It's 11 plus... 
Am contemplating giving up and drive home 
and seek forgiveness from my instant noodles in the kitchen cabinet... 
*sniff sniff* 

All that driving, waking up early and my petrol!!!
Come to null?!!

Sigh, had to park soon... Hands trembling from hunger *_*
 See public car park = Good... Trembling too much for any more driving...
Alas! Free parking on public holiday! Good Good!
Hmm... Wondering wats round the corner...
Hahahaha! It's The Coffee Shot!



It's as if I have been called to this place?!!
After all the drama, made a quick decision on order and settle down.

Pleasantly surprised by the deco, 
Comparing with it's exterior, it's much prettier.
Plenty of sunlight, warm feeling...
but there was only 1 table occupied with 2 guys studying
So crowd meter abit low...

Reviews says that, come here only if u want a place to study or do work
 or need ac power source for your lappies...
I wonder what that means... 

Erm... Flat white came... And shortly food came...
Scrambled eggs with a bratwurst sausage and 3slices of ham,
Greens with halved tomato and a small square bun...
Square bun?? Ya, u know those old Sokol western food stalls serve type of bun?
Ya lah... That square bun lah...
qO.op

Verdict: Food... Not quite worth the price
(Maybe the bratwurst is the mot expensive item, that takes up most of the cost)
But it's forgettable... Will come for sweets next time, but will not be my first choice though :X


Thursday, May 01, 2014

Cafe Cafe - November 8

Visited on 22nd April 2014 after work... No idea what this place is...

Have been driving pass it for some time now...
till one day walk pass this particular building and saw this colorful place.
Check out the pipes & speed bike and the spacious area, 
Very friendly service too... Always with a smiles!!!

Luv the Big Breakfast! 
Scrambled eggs, grill tomato, sides greens, ham and sausage are all held together by the warm crusty tomato focaccia bread!
Down it with a flat white... Ahhh so satisfying u know?!!


Friday, February 21, 2014

现在的年轻人

这年头的年轻人不知道是抗压性比较差, 还是身体比较弱, 还是说别有用心。。。

真的让我不解。。。

还是大家其实是在讨厌我?

Wednesday, February 19, 2014

Happy Ending

Happy Ending 不是必然的,
我只能说  它  是遇不可求。。。

别说人生, 在中港韩台新连续剧里
也有不一定会是 Happy Ending.

感动后  感叹 
感叹后 继续感慨
感慨后 继续过日子。。。

希望就是继续往下走的动力

Sunday, February 16, 2014

K.i.s.s.

Its not becos the person is unforgettable but rather the act brings him to my mind... its nothing suggestive but yet an occasional blush breaks out from embarrassment of not sudden panic... yes, I suddenly realized I am ver asian and still suffers from culture shocks when an ang moh pulls me towards himself for an european greeting... arghh... oh man... arghhh...

Dear God, will tis piece is embarrassing memory stick w me throughout my life??? ×_×*

Thursday, January 16, 2014

Something to start off the new year 2014

鄧紫棋 G.E.M. - 存在_我是歌手第二季 (2014年1月10日)

Thursday, October 17, 2013

身体不适

终于明白什么是 "vine & branches" 和 “without Him I can do nothing" ...

迫切地体会到 自己什么也不是,更加明白自己能力有限。。。
严格说,应该是啥能力也没。。。

思绪才刚刚有那么一点点的清晰,
身体却不争气 频频让我没的好过

不能一病再病了!
无论多讨厌多厌烦 一定要有始有终!
不能这样就倒下! 不能这样就放气!

能力虽有限,但我永远都有选择权!

我不知道什么是对错,也没法分辨是非
更加对办公室政治和研商政策咬牙切齿!
但我要学会放下,不能让它影响。。。
这样才能走得下去。。。

我并不知道要走去哪,走多久,走到啥时。。。
但我知道主您会引导我;
"You are the light to my path, lamp to my feet!"

Here I stand, at the receiving end,
Your goodness and grace they never ends,
Like the vine that giveth life to branches,
You gave me everything!

My reason for existence is to receive all your good gifts in accordance to your riches?
It's that simple?
But what do I do with all these riches?
Share? Everybody?

Show me.

Monday, October 14, 2013

漩涡 🌀

掉进去了,还真的差点爬不出来
老实说 我还不知道爬出来了没
今天那么乱走一通 逼着我动一动 
逼我开口说话关心一下别人的生活和想法
有让脑袋没那么胡思乱想 和砖牛角间。。。

再看看吧。。。 时间会告诉我是否我以得救了。。。

祝福我, 帮我祷告。。。 谢谢

Thursday, May 30, 2013

Useless

I can't recall who it was, but the phrase "what if" came up...
Instinctively, I retorted that phrase in an absolute disgust. No disrespect for the person, it was jus the phrase I had come to dislike...

But here today my heart sank by the mind full of thoughts... Of all the chaos, the word "useless" came out in bold and stood out in a camera focus style. The mind froze for a split second to recall the first origin of this word that had secretly seeded itself to burst out tonight on me like tat... Following after was a "oh... ya... Ok" before the tsunami of dismay attempts to drown me.

Then the presences of IF made its entrance...
If only I had been more successful, if I was any capable, if... If only... If...
It's a slightly different word, but it's spirit is the same... I believe it's retaliating ?.?

Regardless, I thank God for the sound mind... The sound mind that responded "but all you have now is already amazing, considering the fact that it has come so effortlessly." Such wise words enlightened me and it must be penned down, as would a Jewish individual who build monuments to remember their encounter with God or even the slightest blessings they received.

Lord, I believe... I know... You love my mummy, more than I do in a million zillion fold... You can and have done wonderful things for her... I pray you continue to do so... I am worthless, useless, incapable, and there is nothing I can do for her to make her feel better... I know Lord, you can! Only u can understand her thoughts emotions and needs, only u can address those wounds and hurts, only u can make things right... Only you Lord, only you! I commit her into you hands, take care of her, bless her... I only want her to be happy... Nothing else means more than that to me... In the most precious name of my Lord Jesus Christ, Amen.

Thursday, May 02, 2013

Fearing for my sanity

做了个可怕的噩梦。。。一开始还不知道是在发梦,然后稍微变得有点离奇,一点点吓到。。。再来就是恐惧的巅峰。。。梦里没有鬼怪,也没有恶魔;只有我单纯地展现了精神病的混乱。。。我怕。。。我真的很害怕是真的!

After tots:
The nightmare left me dazed and confused when I woke up... The fear and panic left me breathing as if I had ran a couple of miles, my eyes could not open and was struggling to stay awake in order not to go back to zzz aka same dream...

Something or someone trying to drive me out of my mind? I hope that person isn't myself... No more watching shows like "Perception" or any other of sort that messes with my mind... Best yet, I shall refrain from watching any shows and do more reading/photography/doodling/blogging... I vaguely remember something of like happen previously, after watching too many episodes of criminal minds...

Thursday, April 25, 2013

So long there is faith...

Days go by, seasons go by, only the law of constant refuses to just move along and leave us behind... that  change is the only constant.  And may I ask is there anything in the world that I can believe in???

For a long time, the earth was though to be a cube and years later it was again proven it's not? Once doctors were saying eggs are bad for us and we should consume as little as possible, and today? Dietician now advocates an egg a day, as you would have it like the apple...

Facts?  What good are they? Valid for x number of years and then it expires???  Who was it that facts are things proven and unchangeable??? 

MOO -SHIT!!!

I live each day battling... fighting against thoughts that will spiral me out of control...  these days seems like I am getting more weary;  the mind is weak, and every ounce of me left is just holding on to one thing and one thing only - Jesus Christ, loves me...  The Son of God who swop me into Him; in Him I am as who Christ is... As Christ is God's beloved,  so am I in Jesus's name! 

I am beginning to see a little of what God means by a faith as a mustard seed... its between believing and not believing... in this one thing is the comfort & hope that gives the strength to carry in...

So long there is faith...


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Wednesday, December 26, 2012

療傷先要哭一場

“ 睡到一半 才覺醒療傷先要哭一場 對世界說謊 只把自己哄騙得更慘 ”

只記得當時是開著車子,眼淚不自覺地開始滑下臉頰,不受控制,無非阻擋,不停地流。。。
我才發現放一邊的傷口已經不能再放著了,傷口已惡化,發炎的程度已影響到別人。。。
有点已無法與任何人溝通。。。。。。