Maybe...

It been some time since i got back, the impact or the experience i had during that one mth now seems to vague; compared to the day that i had returned and today, i can feel myself conforming back to where i had left off before i set off for my one mth assignment. Though i am convinced that i had not experienced any drastic changes, nor feel any strong change in directions, i cant help but to ack that something is taking place inside of me. And now, all that may jus have been a 5 min enthusiasms thingie. And i am all the more sadden and disappointed if it really was jus the passion of the moment, becos i did see some good from it.

Think the same happened for me in the case of the AsiaWorks Basics Workshop; tot that i am able to join in and give my 100% participation, but i didnt. Tot that i had jus made my way thru to the workshop with my usual tactics of giving them the results and response that they are looking for and i am done... done with the workshop, cos by doing that i have benefited nothing... numero zero. But then maybe not, seems like wat i had learnt in there seems to be coming back to my consciousness. Maybe it wasnt tat bad after all, maybe i wasnt tat hopeless after all...

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Maybe i really do noe wat i want now, but maybe i dun...
Maybe i did think too far ahead and get myself tangled into the web of confusion, but maybe i din?
Maybe i din wanna do it, but maybe i am just too afraid to try...
Maybe its not becos that i may not be able to win, maybe its jus becos i'm afraid i may lose...
Maybe i'm not cut out to be a leader, maybe i'm jus a follower.
Maybe i dun belong to a grp or
any grp, maybe i'm jus better off as a loner.
Maybe there is jus too many maybes...
Maybe? Maybe......