Thinking dun seems to be a good hobby after all, it usually ends up putting obstacles between you and the things u wan; stretching it to a farther distance. Arghhh... who was the fellow who told me that i must think long and good and hard before doing anything?!!!
Been meeting up with ppl whom i have not met for long long long time...
ex-classmates, ex-schoolmates, ex-church mates, ex-coworkers... a lot of ex...
(itchy backside... also saw ex bf and wife pic... )
Initially, i am really lamenting abt how ppl had changed... to me they seems to have changed for the better, whereas i am still the same as before... as if time has never left. BUT its already 2006!!! and i am already xx yrs old!!! How can i the same???!!! Failure man...... :*(
Then after meeting up with those ex- so & so, i discovered that i did change...
My brain now seems to function in blank mode, IT's CONSTANTLY BLANK!!!
I really dunno if it’s a good or bad thing, good in a way that i am constantly aware that i cannot handle life alone, and i really need supernatural help. As for the con side (popcorn yr head lah.... its disadvantages lah...), I really feel very helpless, i seem to have lost all abilities to react and the inability to concentrate/focus.
Imagine there is a Surprise birthday party lying in wait for the star, with all of us frens hiding. The moment has come, the door opens and she steps in... Everyone jumps out shouting "Surprise!!!" & "Happy Birthday!" The atmosphere is great! And the highlight of the night is brought out... A superb birthday cake is brightly lit with candle sparkles, everyone starts singing the song of the nite... Then suddenly, "BOOM!" The cake holder trips and fell... smashing the cake onto the ground. Qn: What is your first reaction?
My answer in the past was to rush to the cake holder who tripped and fell to check how she is or start giving orders to turn on the lights. But now... i think i am more like to be dumbfounded on the spot rather than jumping into action, like b4...
>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>> I dun like tat.
As i quiet myself down to blog, i suddenly dun understand why i am so bogged down by these... No, i'm NOT getting senile! Have no idea, but the picture became so clear... I'm just worrying... Worrying for things that are not that important, stressing myself out over not meeting the expectations i have on myself?
OH! SO it’s another case of thinking too much?!!
@#$#$%%^$&*)(*&^%$#@
One thing i did learn though, i am helpless to the things to alot of things, 99.99% of everything... There is no answers i can offer to satisfy anyone, with the exception that Jesus is the answer for all your questions and needs... I have zero ability to help anyone, with the exception of offering my silent company. The only thing i can do nowadays is to pray and ask God to intervene...
Hmm... that din sound too bad after all huh?
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