Best Birthday Present EVER!!!

I really dun care wat other ppl think abt this card; maybe u think its childish, or u are jus sneering or jesting at this card... IT IS THE BEST PRESENT EVER!!!

Last week, my family asked me wat i wanted to have for me birthday, and they will get it and re-celebrate with me when i get back. But i told them to save on the present, i want them to send me at least a postcard. Whenever i have to travel for work, and for quite a period of time, i make it a point not to carry any family pics with me. Becos when i am out alone, looking at family pics is definitely going to bring me to tears.

Now i dun have anything from home, so i really look forward to getting the card from them. At least i have something from them, some words, some tots & effort in getting the card... the pure tot of it was heavenly. I just called hm today and my mum told me abt the card; she said that they did not buy a card for me, instead they made one for me. Hahaha.... WOAH!!! How many ppl will have their family do a birthday card for them at this age man... (My age is none of yr biz, 10q.) Anyway, they said they posted it on the 22nd and it may take 14 days to reach me. So i'm all lit up. Grin... and i started to check my mail box when i got back tdy...

AND VOILA!!!! I SAW AN ENVELOPE FROM SG!!!! When i opened it, its from them!!!!

Its from ME MUM, ME DAD, ME SIS!!! Err... no need to share the content of the card with u all, jus wanna share the JOY i have...

All the tiredness and no good stuffs all melt away, at the point of seeing this card.

I LOVE YOU MUMMY! I LOVE YOU DADDY! I LOVE SIS!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Taking time off

Hmm... i noe i been feeling vexed for quite some time, and i guess i finally see some light at the end of the tunnel. I kept saying, or rather using the "excuse" that i'm not comfortable in this new arena of battle; i'm in somewhere strange, and not my own, and i know i wont be here for the rest of my life. All i have to do is to endure and it will be over when its over.

Until today, this was the only afternoon where i had time to myself. I finally got my butt off the chair, in front of the lappy, and also out of the nice air conditioning in the hse. I din really know where to go, jus a place where is plenty of space and air and sunshine. It din take me long to find somewhere to settle down, cos there aint many places that are open here on a sat afternoon.

I brought a few stuffs with me, cos i din really noe wat to do and i wanted to do something that i would do if i am alone back in sg. So i brought with me paperback notebook, pen, a book and my bible. It been a long time since i carry a notebook ard, especially when i got here. In Sg, i love to bring a notebook and my fav pen, and as and when i have any tots i would quickly jot them down. Cos if i dun, i will forget...

So tdy, i wrote my tots... rather than having them all cluttering my head and go crazy, i might as well write them down and see wats really bothering me. Now i know why my SG's care grp leader kept asking me if have settle in when i first got here... i was really wondering wats there to be settle in or not, cos i wont in tears and crying to go hm. Now i know...

Being here feels like being trapped; though i have total freedom but mentally i felt trapped. It does help to know that i will not trapped forever, but it does not help when the date of depost changes from june 07 to sept 07 to oct 07 and now to nov 07. For a moment, u will lose sight of ever going hm.

In times like these, u will start to have wild tots... Some time back i reallt freaked out after having some weird dreams. i dreamt of my family and grandparents, and the tots stayed in my head so persistantly that it scared me. i begin to call back to Sg and to check on my grandparents and family, talking to them gave me great relieve, but it also made my heart wept. I never like to talk or spent time with my grandparents, cos each time i see them my heart bled and my eyes would begin to water. Seeing them aging... and jus by looking at them, the helplessness is overwhelming. There is absolutely nothing i can do for them, even if i tell them i love them, would it mean anything to them now?

All i ask of the Lord is that He keeps them safe and happy, even if he must bring anyone to the heavenly home, pls let it happen after i have gone back. I know God will do that, cos He listened and He knows.

It really does help when u know u belong to God, and that u have someone who is more than ABLE to help u. Think most of u dun believe in God, and u might ask, "why dun tell yr God to bring u, or jus resign then yr God will help u wat."

I said it many times before and i still will say the same thing; I am here for "training", and i believe it is essential to me. Life is the same day after day, week after week, there's got to be more to life than work breathe and play. i believe i am here to be equipped to fulfill watever my life's purpose is to be, to do that i first have to believe that the dream i have in me is alive...

I have thrown my hands up in surrrender and gave up, and this is my second shot... its more like a thought shot, cos i'm not doing anything... BUT ITS STILL A SHOT! Its only natural that i cannot, cos i'm jus a wretch human being. It takes a GOD to break the natural, and i will have to depend on my GOD to do that for me.

no riddles, let those who has an ear hear, let those who has questions asks...
May God have mercy on those who disbelieve...

I am in the desert, i got answer... but... i understand???

A WORD WITH YOU By Ron Hutchcraft
#5313 - "Treasure in Your Desert"
Deuteronomy 8:2-4

We've driven some pretty desolate stretches of the U. S. For a guy who used to wait 'til the last minute to get gas, those stretches were life-changing. A couple of bad experiences and you become mister "fill up at half a tank." But America's desert and wilderness stretches take a back seat to some of the wilderness of the Middle East; especially some of the desert traversed by God's ancient people as they went from Egypt to the Promised Land. Recently, a writer named Bruce Feiler decided to physically retrace some of the geography of the first five books of the Bible. Including the still-challenging Sinai wilderness where God's people wandered for forty years. He spent time with the nomadic Bedouins who make that wilderness their home. He walked the hot sands and the daunting mountains of that wilderness. In the process, he found himself on an unanticipated journey of spiritual discovery. And he learned something about why God led His children through the desert - and why He still does. Here's what this author said: "In the desert, there's no such thing as independence - only dependence."

I think it started when we were little kids with words like these, "I can do it myself!" And we've been trying to do it ourselves ever since - even when it comes to totally trusting God. Oh, we believe in Him. We go to His meetings. We try to live by His commandments, but we want to drive. We're control freaks, especially when it comes to the things or people that really matter to us. We can make it happen. We can make it work. We can think of something. We can fix it.

Then comes the desert; a season in your life when the bottom drops out. Things and people that you've depended on either aren't there or aren't enough. It's dry. The heat is intense. You're worn out physically and emotionally, and there's no road to show you the way to go. Welcome to the wilderness. But before you give up or give in, remember the desert is part of the plan. It was for God's ancient people. It was for John the Baptist. It was for Paul. It was for the Son of God, and it is for you.

Here's what God says about the desert stretches; it's in Deuteronomy 8:2-4, our word for today from the Word of God. He says: "Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert ... to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep His commands. He humbled you, causing you to hunger and then feeding you with manna, which neither you nor our fathers had known, to teach you that man does not live on bread alone but on every word that comes from the mouth of the Lord." God says He leads us into the desert to humble us; to bring us to a place where the Lord is all we have. Because that's when we learn that the Lord is all we need. "In the desert, there's no such thing as independence - only dependence." When you come to your Lord in total desperation, running on empty, you open yourself up to an experience of God's power and God's grace you can't get any other way.

And just in case you're not sure you can make it through this desert, listen to what your Heavenly Father will do for you there: "In the desert ... you saw how the Lord your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way" (Deuteronomy 1:31). And like any tired little child, you'll go much farther with your Father carrying you than you could ever go on your own. The desert may not be pleasant. It may stress you, it may strip you, but there's treasure you'll only find there. Because you'll find the treasure that is discovered only when God is all you've got.

Break Throughs

Just came back from my care grp session here,
hmm... can say i quite excited abt the topic bah...

Have u ever had those moments where u felt stuck in a moment and cant get out?
Have u ever suspected you were the character they referenced from the Groundhog Day movie?
Have u ever dreamed of being someone or doing something when u were young, but to forget when u have reached this age of "capabilities"???
Have u, have u, have u???

I have u noe, i have dreamt of doing alot of things but each time i get stuck; like wanted to be the youngest entrepreneur in the world, following my dad's footsteps... Or i wanted to be an ambassador...etc......etc......

There were many things which i missed out, or had not done... it was a pity, and i try not to regret cos i felt i did wat was the best choice among all the choices i had at that time. Though i had a shot at accomplishing the things i wanna do, but the final choice i made were usually the safe ones, the common ones where other ppl will nod their heads in approvals.

Just when i tot i had resigned myself in a life of non-excitement, this overseas assignment came for me. This was my breakthrough in life, the biggest and most impacting i ever had. It was worth the agony and distress in putting my foot down and executing this decision.

In today's caregrp, i remembered once again it was God who make out the path for me, he was the hand behind all the planning and arrangements. All i had to do was to make a decision, a choice... i have done nothing at all to have tis assignment, all i did was i told God i want something to happen in my life, i dun wan time and life to jus go me by... And God came through! As always....!!!

Becos of Christ, becos of God, i have experienced something different; seeing new things, learning new things, gaining a different perspective on issues, etc...... It is wonderful to have a God who loves you, takes care of you, protects you, blesses you... and at no cost to you.

All it takes is for us to believe that Christ Jesus died on the cross, in our place, that we may take his place; The beloved of God. Wat a great deal, jus believe and u get the whole package...... Nope, no catch... God IS that GREAT!

GIVE UP!

Argh! i give up le! This S.H.E craze is too much for me, i realized that i can no longer keep up with the news and clips and etc... so i going to stop it le... pekchek that there are simply too many files to download, pekchek that there are simply too many files which i missed out... dated from OCT 2007 lor... And also pekchek of the tupid bodoh idiot nitwit internet connection at home. AH! give up...

I guess i be depending on me fellow S.H.E fans frens to keep the clips, until i go back sg to view all... if i still have the mood... One shot see all S.H.E clips from Oct 2007 to watever date i depost is something to look forward for... *feeling better*

Hair Adventure

Woke up late today, and time was running short for me to complete my errands by 4pm. Nevertheless, i was hungry and had to make myself instant noodles with egg and sausages... i'm down to my last few packets, so i'm saving them for really strong craving days. Well, i figured that i was not willing to have a SGD$15 wanton mee here, then i shall substitue with Nissin instant noodles.

The next most impt thing to filling my stomache, is to fill my ears!!! S.H.E's new album is out! And i cant wait for get my ears lock on to their music... so much anticipation u noe!

After setting the thing to download, I rushed off to get fresh groceries, only to find that there are no celery and yam... so i decided to challenge myself and get leek instead. Never cook them b4, so here's the chance to try...

A quick look at my watch its going to be 3pm soon, so i gave up the idea to get the CDRs from a supermart store at the other end of tis town, before heading for the opposite end of town to get my hair trimmed... its going a season changing period, and summer is rite at the doorstep and i think i would be more cool with a trim... after all the hair's getting thick and heavy and i cant stand my split ends any more! Drove one big round to find the tupid hair salon, but then there were these bunch of kidsracing with their 4WD beach bikes... so annoying...

And i ended up at the salon just at my apartment, after all the merry-go-round. It was abt 4pm when i stepped into the place. Before i could say anything the hair salon ppl rally me to go in and sit at the sink... i din even had the chance to check if they speak english lor! ARGH! Then they started to give me hair wash le!

*slap forehead*

Now i have no way of escaping from the non speaking hair ppl, i begin to pray v hard... confessing God is GREAT and JESUS is ALMIGHTY to get me out of this lousy situaiont; praying real heard that they dun try anything funny that i would have to go for a second hair cut to reactify it, or had to wear a cap for the rest of my stay here... EVERYONE was tensed man! The lady kept giving me nervous smiles, and the other lady at the cash counter was like in stunned mode as she see her hairger service my hair...

In short... in the end, it turned not too bad, she did manage to snip off the ends and thin my hair alittle... only thing is that my hsemate couldnt tell i had a SGD$40 haircut at all... i can only console myself that guys usually cannot tell when others had a hair cut, unless the ger changes her hair style from really long to really short or from got hair to botak.

But i still THANK GOD for protecting me hair!!! Halleujah! Its was really HALLELUJAH!

Frens of BoxBox

AH KWA - froggie on a chairie



OH NO! - The half sibling of BoxBox...

Cheese Cake #1 vs Cheese Cake #2

Well, i was quite adamant abt learning new things,
i wanted to bring home new things when i depost.
And i dun mean my shopping trophies k......

Making a cheese cake wasnt in my plans at all,
cos i nv had a thing for cakes,
the only cakes i ever eat is probably cheese cake,
cos they dun taste like those conventional cakes.

Anyway, my colleagues emailed me a non-bake,
relatively easy to make cheese cake recipe.
So i decided to try, after all its only going to take abt 30mins,
and then the cooling in the fridge is abt 3hrs minimum.
The ingrediants all v simple and nt too ex.

Here's a pic of my cheese cake #2,
forgot to take pic for cheese cake #1,
cos i tot it failed.

Then actually both failed,
the poll results are out and its 2 votes for #1 and 1 vote for #2,
dunno if vote no. 4 will come in anot...
but then i think if both combine then it will be a decent cheese cake le.




Ps. Though i think the cheese cakes both failed, but they were v useful.
*GRIN* one slice from each batch of cheese cake "barter traded" for a guitar.
WOW RITE?!!! heheheeh

Forgot......

Its been abt a week, and actually i had alot to blog abt,
but now i cant recall...
Think 1 week of information is abit too much for my inbuilt RAM when most of the storage has been allocated to work family and frens related issues. ^_^

Cannot delete these informations lah!
These are the last of my sustaining comfort, no matter for the me who is overseas now or when i am back in sg.

Maybe there are some that i clutched too tightly, but its a process rite...
u will take time to learn which are to release...
slowly one by one u let go...
but then slowly more and more will come trying to take tat free slot...

Very hardworking @ promo huh