Losting touch... losing sight... losting it?

With all the tiredness and not feeling so well aka headaches/gastrics,
i seems to be comig to blog lesser,
or rather coming online lesser... at least when ppl are ard,
else it would be a 5 - 10mins touch and go,
can barely talk to any of u properly...

I do miss those times where i can jus sit at some cafe with anyone of u,
and then jus staring into space;
simply enjoying the company and occassional exchange of crap.

Slowly, i am learning not to feel lonely bah,
everything i do, wherever i go,
i bring u all with me... er... in tots...
I guess my hsemate is pretty - . -" most of the time,
cos i would say blah blah blah then one of you ppl's name...
hahahah...

Trying to keep up with how all of u are,
dun think i m doing a gd job...
Hope will have some improvement soon,
u all wait and see k ^_^

So losing sight... wat did i lost sight of???
losing sight the reason why i am here...
Of cos there is the working objective element,
and thats not going as smooth as we like it to be,
but... wat to do, i do wat i can and jus let be

Seems like i am slacking here,
all the objectives that i had meted out are slowly fizzing out,
cos also dunno why keep feeling tired,
else is the bloody migraine come back...
That day was in the polyclinic from 0830hrs to 1130hrs,
simply trying to get me something for the pain...
Finally sent me with an ex medication in form of nasal spray...
i am really saving that for the extreme pain bah...

I am beginning to wondering i will return hm and be the same me?
Will i bring anything back to Sg other than the technical training and experience gathering from these mths?
Will i be able to play the guitar properly when i get back?
Will i be able to at least have a proper X conversation with any locals here?
Will i have my stuffs all planned out by my de-posting?
Or is all these another dream that come and go...
and i am back to square 1?

Ps. Wat would u all thing think if i come back sg, quit my job then go do waitressing for a awhile... kekeke then maybe go go pasar malam stall... then i also dunno.... something non technical and wont kill my brain cells de.... ^_^ comments?