Steven Curtis Chapman - I Will Be Here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the sun does not appear
I, I will be here
If in the dark we lose sight of love
Hold my hand and have no fear
'Cause I, I will be here

I will be here
When you feel like being quiet
When you need to speak your mind
I will listen
And I will be here
When the laughter turns to crying
Through the winning, losing and trying
We'll be together
'Cause I will be here

Tomorrow morning if you wake up
And the future is unclear
I, I will be here
As sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here

I will be here
And you can cry on my shoulder
When the mirror tells us we're older
I will hold you
And I will be here
To watch you grow in beauty
And tell you all the things you are to me
I will be here

I will be true to the promise I have made
To you and to the One who gave you to me

I will be here
And just as sure as seasons are made for change
Our lifetimes are made for years
So I, I will be here
We'll be together
I will be here

Love Song

I've heard it said that a man would climb a mountain
Just to be with the one he loves
How many times has he broken that promise
It has never been done.
I've never climbed the highest mountain
But I walked the hill of calvary

Chorus
Just to be with you, I'd do anything
There's no price I would not pay
Just to be with you, I'd give anything
I would give my life away.

I've heard it said that a man would swim the ocean
Just to be with the one he loves
How may times has he broken that promise
It can never be done
I've never swam the deepest ocean
But I walked upon the raging sea

(Repeat chorus)

(Bridge)
I know that you don't understand
the fullness of My love
How I died upon the cross for your sins
And I know that you don't realize
how much that I gave you
But I promise, I would do it all again.
Just to be with you, I've done everything
There's no price I did not pay
Just to be with you, I gave everything
Yes, I gave my life away.

                                                                                  - Third Day

Another dream

It just came to my mind that i had another "interesting" dream ystd, i guess i can categorize it to be in the science fiction section... Let me see how much i can recall, after all its really not tat fresh in my mind any more......

It started with something happened... and someone was being pursued... then it complicated me and i started to run for my dear life... somehow we knew there was a escape route and we heading for the bathroom and locked ourselves in it. As the door was being locked, someone sort of opened a portal by stepping on a small round circular pad. One step on the thing with the left foot and then the person goes a portal! The thing happened real fast so abt 5 of us got thru the thing real quick, that we din even hear the pursuers opening or banging on the bathroom door.

Think that was the end of the adrenaline pumping excitement, but it wasn't the end of the dream. Cant remember what happen after reaching the other end of the portal, but it was somewhere safe bah. I only rem that i went thru the portal another 2 times, with the last time going into an apartment... It was a beautiful place where no one was ard. I knew it wasn't my place for sure, cos i sort of was enjoying the apartment when the owner is not ard. And i kinda think that i would jump into the portal when the owner is back... other than that i was enjoying the place as my own...

Sadly... the dream ends with me waking up in my reality portal... my bed.

The time of spring cleaning

Spring cleaning... the time where things get thrown away and dust is hunted down and eliminated! I have to really be frank, i hate throwing things away cos each time i do the harden my heart act... throw stuffs away... i end up needing soon after it was sent off to be with Mr Rubbish Chute......

Logically speaking, trash or rubbish are stuffs which we no longer need... but i to battle the question of no longer needing it @ tat moment or no longer needing in near future and no longer needing it forever... My problem is... i really dunno if i dun need the stuffs ever ever ever again...

This year has to be a special year, i'm not telling u why, but i am going to make it one... i really wanna start removing things which i dun need......

Vodka really have to go... no qualms abt it.!!!  :P

Having and opinion and keeping my peace

It has been the dances of unbearable discomfort for me in the last few days... In the department of health, I'm not exactly pink but rather red... I tot i had held it out quite well until the last working day of the week... which was yesterday... where i was disoriented, coupled with bodily discomfort and verbal insults were hurl on this proud and not so fragile body...

Then we had to board a cab where the driver was laughing at the end of all his sentences... It was obviously he was trying to find someone to chat with, i was going to try to entertain him but i found no voice and decided to give when he keep hearing things which i had not said... Annoyed i decided to keep my peace...

But towards the end of the ride, he managed to piss me off by saying that there is no point for females to earn lotsa $, instead females shld just cast out their lines and wait for a good man to come by.... Then in a matter of 30secs, he started to say there are no good man ard, and females shld make do with watever they can get...  - . - Thats the ultimate straw man!

At that very point of time, i really do have a DAMN OPINION and i am glad i kept me peace, else i would be smashing his cab in this very moment... OH GOD! I receive yr love for this unlovable cab driver... Grrr.....

Ps. But the reason tat kept me awake is Facebook Poker not him... THK GOD!

2009

To fly......

no matter the consequences.......

No hair ... for my hair brush.....

i understand now......

Sudden Panic Attack

Its really an awful feeling when yr heart suddenly jumped into a a super face beating rate... I call it a panic attack...

Not sure why suddenly i feel so uncomfortable, but its really uncomfortable... I'm not in particular worried abt anything so far, maybe a little anxious but not worried... cos now i make a conscious effort not to.

Usually, i would start to pray in tongues, and when it persists, i would sms Isaac for help to pray for me...

But now is not the usual....

Second Steps

Looking thru the blog posts of 2008, i find lots of rubbish leh... Most of posts were some crap analysis, while others are lyrics, and then there were plenty of meaningless pictures... what in the world was i doing in 2008.

In 2007, i wanted to know my gifts and talents, and i had wanted to use them... exploit them for the Lord. At the end of that year, i did find the answers. In 2008, i wanted to put these gifts and talents to work. But i dont think i did... My guitar was half learnt, i din attend care grp for a long time and i was no longer attending services regularly...

Nevertheless, i will to try to complete the things which i had not in 2008. Learning guitar is something like a never ending process, so this time round i have challenged myself to have an "examination" I will have to take to my care grp leader about it first though... but i think he will support me.

Last sunday i met many ppl from my care grp, and from each of them were the same words, "What happened to you?!! You disappeared suddenly..???" For the thousand and one times sake, it was not because of the split in care grp. It was simply me not able to relate to anyone in the care grp bah... Anyway, will be meeting up ex care grp leader soon... maybe will meet up with current leader as well...

I guess i'm just more excited abt meeting Yun jie, and all the ex TC-ians... Well, other than catching up, i do have an agenda... i need to talk to someone, and hopefully Yun jie and Laura will have answers for me... they were the big sisters who had saw me thru each and every event in C.O.S, they can help me to resolve the 2nd knot that i have.

After resolving the knots, i guess it will be full steam ahead for me on my career change :) I think my interest is still in working with people... i prefer to work alongside people than being in front or behind them... My young time dream to go on a mission trip in Vietnam may very well about to come true in this year?

First step into 2009

There were many things which I had to decide and close in the year 2008,  one of them was dragging too much and had to be put to an end... enough of the " a complicated affair "

His once stated “It’s complicated” status is now removed completely… I would not say that it’s a burden off me, but I am feeling some relieve… The 3 part issues is now one part solved… but he will no longer entertain me nor cheer me up nor pick up my call @ 3am in the morning… With this friend lesser, I do feel a little lost.

Another one part was solved by my dear mobile service provider who stops connecting my old M1 number to my current number. I have also made my stand to show my dearest friend that I have no recollection of who he is. He has been promoted and transferred to another unit where our paths will not meet… In anyway, I will be resigning in less than a year. I can quite safely say that all we no longer have any chance of intersecting each other unless we run into each other in SengKang.

As for the last part, I will leave it to God to untie the last stubborn knot. Think many friends had vomit blood, because I could not understand what they were trying to tell me. But I think Pastor Peter Youngren did get something thru to me… J

I guess this is my first step to breaking chains… and breaking the finishing line…

PONYO PONYO PONYO~~~!!!

1st Jan 2009

Psalm 46

To the Chief Musician. A Psalm of the sons of Korah. A Song for Alamoth.

1 God is our refuge and strength,
         A very present help in trouble.
2 Therefore we will not fear,
         Even though the earth be removed,
         And though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;
3 Though its waters roar and be troubled,
Though the mountains shake with its swelling.  Selah  
4 There is a river whose streams shall make glad the city of God,
         The holy place of the tabernacle of the Most High.
5 God is in the midst of her, she shall not be moved;
         God shall help her, just at the break of dawn.
6 The nations raged, the kingdoms were moved;
         He uttered His voice, the earth melted.
7 The LORD of hosts is with us;
         The God of Jacob is our refuge.  Selah  
8 Come, behold the works of the LORD,
         Who has made desolations in the earth.
9 He makes wars cease to the end of the earth;
         He breaks the bow and cuts the spear in two;
         He burns the chariot in the fire.
10 Be still, and know that I am God;
         I will be exalted among the nations,
         I will be exalted in the earth!
11 The LORD of hosts is with us;
         The God of Jacob is our refuge.  Selah 

Isaiah 43:16, 18-19

“This is what the LORD says— he who made a way through the sea, a path through the mighty waters, "Forget the former things; do not dwell on the past. See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the desert and streams in the wasteland.”-