The constant reminder and counting done by the closest of my frens were well intentions, though its not sitting well with me on the inside; I'm not saying that its not good, but i really do appreciate these ppl who cut the bull and tell me straight in the face. Anyway, the count has brought me to almost a year since i left my last position in any form of formal work.
Yar i've been browsing around... routinely go on JobDB & JobStreet and sending resumes for positions i thought would be appropriate or even interesting. I admit i've been messing around with some companies, and going to the interviews. But little seems to attract me. Then a grp of pro frens come along and offer to help me by getting me to do personality tests, and one grp even did my Ba Zi Ming Pan Calculations. Suddenly, i get caught up in this swirl of THIS & THAT! Hey, its scary and when it swallows u up, its like quick sand. Our Creator had unparalleled foresight to build within us a spirit, a part of himself as the last line of defense, from losing our minds. This spirit suddenly awakened and rang the alarm, BIG alarm, that says "HEY! SOMETHING IS WRONG! WAKE UP!".
Personality Tests and character analyzing are great tools to use when looking for directions in life. But when you place too much emphasis on these results, they basically dictates your life... why cage yourself in a washing machine and go round & round till u puke???
Yes, i do work along a boundary, to see where my limits are and how far i can go. But i am never in it for too long. SO why should i start now? Ya! SO i SHAN'T & i WON'T!
No more tests, no more calculations, no more horoscopes, enough is enough.
As someone said, i shld do the right thing and not just keep doing things right.
i should give weight to my spirit, and not overwrite it just to avoid conflicts;
I should and i want and i will... TRUST IN GOD.
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