石康钧

As much as my frens do not like him,

i really cant get myself not to go search for his new EP.

I like his voice.

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV)

Crash and burnt

I had to get this out of my system, and somewhere at the back of my mind, I wan to do this gracefully… God help me…

Ok, how should I put it? In simple words, they are “ I CANNOT TAKE IT ANY MORE! ” . I do not want to know anything, I do not want to analyze anything, I do not want to check all factors before deciding if I should charge myself as the guilty party just becos there is simply something I could have done and didn’t do which ended up in this mess! I am sick and tired of feeling whatever I do, it’s a wrong move, and whatever I do always results in a tragic emotional mess for the whole family. I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

At work, I can work with the guidelines; there are objectives which I can work towards it. The project may be painful, but there is always an end to it. In a relationship, if it doesn’t works out, breaking up and steering clear of each other isn’t a hard to do, even if Singapore is a small place. But family, the one that sticks with you for life, the ones whom you cannot choose but automatically loves is not like a boyfriend of a husband that you can leave and walk out of.

Damn it! Why do I have to know that everyone in the family is feeling the same thing, yet we all are not standing on the same platform, same line, and same reference? Damn it! Why is it that the one with the knowledge has the same responsibility to initiate the flow? DAMN IT! WHERE IS GOD WHEN I NEED HIM?!

YES! I know I am blind with tears, blind with anger, and blind to see where God is and what he is doing, blind to only see that I am alone in this pit…Its been years that this is going on, and I swear I would have jumped off a building long ago. Years after years all matters were just buried over. Damn it when is it going to get resolved?! WILL IT EVER GET RESOLVED??? Like a haunting ghost, it keeps coming back… tell me how long will it take before I jump off the ledge or allow myself to just speed and crash.

I am burnt, is that too hard to understand?

You told me, if I dun wan my life any more, I can give to God, at least do some recycling. And I did. Then all the more the waves come are even stronger, more suffocating? Work we had overcome, relationships we too walked thru it, then why is the most impt family aspect still status quo?

I dun wan to hear anything encouraging, I dun wan to hear any consolations, in fact… I dun wan to hear anything. Can someone just untangle the bloody mess? Can you all just let me walk away… walk far far away…

TO GOD:

You are God, you are able and willing. I really dun care how or wat, I and gving you tis tangled mess to sort things out. You are my God, you look out for me. You settle this thing. I dun wan to be vexed or upset with this any more. I will steer clear, and keep out of sight. You settle… not just about this incident, You settle the problem at the root cause.

New Job?

Coming 30th August 2010 will mark the end of my probation,

time has passed easily with nothing much to do each day.

It has come back to the point where i am the center of stand still where everyone is going around like busy bees...

I hate it when i am not able to do anything to help,

i hate it when i am not participating in the work,

i hate it becos it simply alienates me ...

Work stress i can handle, but i am never willing to handle home tension.

I can handle work in non emotional, feelings detached manner, and they still get resolve.

But home tension is different, becos u never noe what they want.

More Hebe!

I am definitely her fan!

Cant wait to get my hands on her solo album!!!!!!!!!!!

聽誰在唱歌

A fellow human being who shares the same sentiments as me...

OMG Lunch Cook Off

Well, i have been to cook in the office for a long time,
and this is the OMG Cook Off Lunch...

This IS it!

Nothing fancy, cos i still abit shy to take out my cooking utensils and stuffs.

The food in the tuperware... freshly bought from Giant.

The cooking barangs includes the cutting sheets, cutting knife & rice cooker...

U can also see the Instant noodles and canned baked beans.

My new toy...

Nice blue, but honestly i would have bought pink/green/orange if i had seen it...

Dunno is dun have or the Giant i went already sold out the colors liaoz...

Preparations will begin in 30-45mins...

with the following menu...

Yong tau foo soup with udon noodles

Baked beans with octopus like chicken franks

* Ps. Dun think will have change to upload the cooked product... Cos have to fast fast cook, and fast fast eat then fast fast wash up. :X

shhhhhh.....

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The finished products!

:) Homecooked taste :)