More than just a bad day...

Its not just another bad day, its just i am bad... No idea if i was a rotten apple all along or somewhere sometime in the past i changed. I am a lousy person, breathing and wasting precious oxygen... I know i am not a good friend shld be, but i did try... And i did failed. My stupid non functioning memory, blur double booking me, and the moody who run and hides are my winning formula to my epic failure. I let her down once before, choosing my work and not being able to fulfill the wedding planner which i promised to be. And now... The price of failure, and cost of taking things for granted is the loss of a friend, a damn good one... who no longer considers me a friend no more... Its more than just a bad day... Work is not going as well, sabotages come one after another, colleagues getting upset at me, frustrated at not able to express myself, nothing is right... Its like a dark cloud crept up on me and engulf me, now everywhere i turn or look i hate what i see... myself! Dear God, What is it that is going on? All i know is i messed up, messed up big time too... Can you help? Can you fix this? Please, can you help me and fix this mess and let things go back to the days where we all are happy... Fix me too! i dun wan any of this to happen again... Please!