Consequences of a lousy day

Now that i'm feeling betta from the discomforts of the body,
i cant help but sit down and sigh...

How did i get to this?!!

I am really upset at this whole mess,
and i do more or less feel a tint of regret at my impulse to send out the email,
that was burning with volcano temperature.
And i also know i cant retract nor make any apologies for tat email,
cos it would only make them feel dignified abt doing the same thing to me again.

The whole thing sucked,
i been enduring the whole bloody situation for a whole damn year,
and seeing the end to this attachment nearing,
why cant i hold down myself and
keep the last ounce of professionalism;
writing a civilized email instead of the content which i sent out stating how upset i am and how they are demeaning me...

What a big joke huh...
maybe there is no professionalism in me...
Maybe yet again its all my fault...
I'm just incompetent, incapable, not reliable and not trustworthy;
And all that i do is for good of me and only me...

Ya, maybe tats it...

I am sick of all these...
To think all these things get to me,
and stand between the work i like and the once upon time ppl i liked...
Yar.. i forgot, it was once upon a time,
cos they all resigned.

I told myself time and time again,
since i am so unhappy i can leave when the bond finishes,
jus simply do my own thing, dun need to be so committed...
No one bothers anyway...

Maybe the education i rxed was too good...
they manged to drum into me that while i am still in the company,
i shld still do my best and all i can to fulfill every duty and requirement that is expected to me...
I must be dreaming that i can just smoke everyone out in this last 14 mths of bond,
and just wash hands and leave.

This realli sucked...

Not to mentioned the amt of apologies i made on their behalf...
and all the "entertainment" i will be doing to rectify the crack with the other party
maybe i shld tell them how much trouble they cause to the other party,
lest the they think i am jus making trouble?

Nah... wats the point... u think they believe???

I AM SICK OF APOLOGIZING FOR MISTAKE OF OTHERS,
AND YET THEY FELT POINT AT ME SAYING ITS MY FAULT!
!##$^$%$#@$@*&&%@#$@!#$@#@%@%@!%!@%@%@@!$

烂

被电话叫醒，
头痛得像脑浆不停地在头骨里撞来撞去，
好久没发作的老毛病也出现了，
手抖得像老人家一样，
。。。

接了电话， 下了一跳，有点像被骂。。。
害我。。。 ￥#￥#·%￥—……￥#%……￥#%#·！

Now i am doing the aftermath work...
U say after medication for head,
can drink beer and tong whole nite?

I crossing my fingers...

华语， 华语， 华语

因为眼看回家的日子指日可待，
所以兴起想看看自己的华文退步了多少。。。

近期在这的家庭小组都是以华语来进行的，
因为小组组长的妈妈也在，
为了要让他参与，
我们以最大努力以华语进行。。。
就再这时， 我猜发现自己的华文真的有点差。

是该连连自己的母语了！！！

昨日与今日

在圣经里，我们会读到犹太人有一个重大的日子叫 Yom Kippur.
英文的意识是 Day of Atonement.
在全年里这一天对他们来说是最神圣，最严肃的。
它的主要题材是补偿和悔悟为罪孽反对上帝和同路人。

这一天他们会进行一个25小时的斋戒于祷告，
并且进行一系列的礼拜式。
同时任何人也不能工作，运用任何电器。
至今， 他们还在遵守这等等的“不可以”；
所以也没有广播或电视，没有公共交通，连机场也是闭合的。

可是时间的催促一把这一切的意义渐渐地淡忘了；

我们巧遇一对年轻犹太情侣，

他们自叹虽然没一样条例和礼拜都还保留着，

但诸多年轻人已忘了这一天的意义。。。

我想我们华人也一样吧，

我们这一代也是一样。。。

过年过节的意义就是一家团聚，

无论大家在哪里工作，或工作有多忙

都应该把工作放下， 回家团圆。

可是， 现在方不下工作的人越来越多；

即使放下工作，有的也是往外跑， 和朋友玩得较多。

我们人类到底是进步了还是退步了？

我们是保留了传统还是保留了传统的形式呢？

吉他

这是我房间的沙发，

平常就是坐在那儿看着墙练吉他的。

而这是我唯一的观众。。。

真是辛苦了它的耳朵了

Meal #8 of 101 - My Breakfast

平常不吃早餐的我竟然改性了！

不但一定要吃早餐，

现在还要把早餐弄得美美的

。。。应该是看太多TOP CHEF了

*grin*

Meal #7 of #101

The make-do Singapore Laksa!

My hsemate's Laksa...

no "liao" so use ang mo dumplings....

My Laksa - Bean Sprouts, spagetti noodles,
diced and satueed chicken breast meat and ang mo dumplings...

Meal #6 of #101

Cheese Fondue Meal

Cheese Fondue in its designated pot.

Chicken franks, sauteed mushrooms,
pasta and some carrot & cucumber stix.

Abit of white wine - Emerald Reisling,

for the pot and for our throats.

Breadstix in a Singtel mug... kekeke

Pieces of raw fish seasoned with olive oil, salt and pepper...

suppose to toast in oven first then can dip into the cheese.

Makan Time!

Pasta topped with sauteed mushrooms,

and the cheese fondue over it!

Trees... trees... and more trees!!!

Underwater Palace - Eilat Underwater Observatory

Just came back from a wonderful holiday, well i din think it was that fantastic, until i think back on the last few days while i was there...

One advantage of working overseas, is that you'll get more chances of travelling ard, and this time i took the opportunity ti drive to Eilat. Its was a long awaited trip, and i was determine to go there.


I opt to drive down to Eilat, and it was somewhere abt a 5hrs drive. It wasnt as tiring as i tot it would, considering the fact that i only had 3hrs of sleep before i set off at 6-7am. The only thing i really felt was the ache in my outstretched arm position to the steering wheel. It was really cool to sped off in the expressway, and through the desert at a speed u can never do in Sg. ^_^ Can u imagine my excitement and delight?!! IT WAS ADRENALINE PUMPING MAN!!!!


Then of cos there are the mountainy, winding round and round roads where big drops of perspiration roll down my cheeks with breath holding moments... The height was definitely disturbing, the round turns were even more disturbing and with the fantastic view of edges where nothing but a yellow line holds definitely did not help to calm my heart down to peace. But i thank God that i made it, all glory to God for the safe and sound reaching to the bottom of the crater... i think there is hope for me to overcome this fear of driving mountaineering roads... :P


When we got to our destination, it was abt 12-1pm... we checked into the youth hostel which is a fraction of the cost of staying a hotel... its really ALOT cheaper lor... but then the comfort and luxury level of cos is heaven and earth lah... But then its still decent in the youth hostel, after all i am still youth.... *grin*


First stop was the Underwater Observatory of Eilat, its one of the coolest place in Eilate... realli... u got to believe it, there is plenty of shade and aircon if u need them... kakakaka... Let me intro the sections one by one k... There was the Oceanerium, where u get to see a short video of the underwater world introduction to the Red Sea. Its a short short 30mins clips, with the seats moving vigorously... and my oh my its really a seat belting show.


Then there was the turtle pool, and the turtles were realli huge!!!! I seen turtles b4 lah, but not tat big lor... I think its as big as my "hamster" fren lor, its scary and its definitely not very polite, cos it kept splashing water when i walked by... and the water kana me lor... but he is too big to be calculative with... hee...


There is also the Sharks pool... big sharks, with stingrays and big fishes which i dunno wat are they... but they are big and maybe ferocious, else i dunno how they survive with the sharks in the same pool rite?


There's also the rare fish section, which i think its a little scary... cos the entrance is dark dark de, then they hang all the dried versions of the sharks, hammerhead sharks, and their jaws, and stingrays and etc.... GROSS LOR!!! Inside is also dark dark de... eerie and creepy, feel like my most feared creature may appear any time... so stressful... But the fishes inside were very pretty and some which i had not seen before. They come in all shapes and sizes and colors as well... one tourist was so engross in looking at the fish that he hit his head against the takn glass... hahahahaha so funny... he was in pain and the gf/wife was giggling at him, and of cos so was i... laffing uncontrollably on the inside... internal injuries... There was the funny type of sea horse with something that looks like the thing i dun like... and i stumbled a few steps back... scary...


Next is the fabulous coral section, the corals are v v v v v v v colorful!!! with some good selections of fishes inside. The combination is really good, and i really dun mind jus sitting inside there and jus looking at the fish and corals for hrs...

And the next stop another fantastic must do, the tower of the observatory! The tower has a underwater section where u can see the underwater world of the red sea, i believe its an enclosed area... else i dunno why the fishes will come so near the glass... i noe i am not that attractive to fishes.... Its a beautiful place!

And the most interesting thing is, there is a mailbox inside this underwater area. The sign says that if we were to post cards or mails from there, there will be a special stamp logo of the observatory on the article. The silly me, run all the way back to the entrance area to get postcards and happy happy come back write... with the closing time closing on me... i think i thrashed the cards... :( When i am done, i realized that i am left with only 2 stamps... !#%#^#%$#@! So in the end i only send out 2 from there... As for the rest, i only post it at the city center...


Best part is... i was writing this post card to my mum, and suddenly... I CANNOT RECALL MY HM ADDRESS!!! i panicked man! i really panicked... *slap forehead*...Nice postcard, with colorful fish for my mama, and then thrashed by my cancellations of address everywhere on the behind... sigh.............


However, there is still one thing i dun get it and i really am annoyed with the place... They have this tupid special exhibit call THE AMAZON... WOW BIANG!!! Fishy fishy place why have reptile exhibits?!!! LIVE ONE SOME MORE!!! WOW BIANG!!! WOW KAOZ!!! WOW LAU!!! Reptiles for wat?!!?!?!?! make me so stressed out the whole day.... i totally give that WHOLE area a miss lor.... The authorities shld really reconsider man, RED SEA and reptiles of Amazon got no relations lor... dun try to bluff me k... i studee little little i also not they NOT related lor... sigh.... buay tahan!


ahhh!!! so long le ah... ok ok ok i give u all a break... i continue i my next post hao le... ^_^

Keeping a secret

I have been marked and tagged as one who cant keep secrets,
one who cant contain herself and burst out sharing the good news she has,
even its not confirmed... Overly optimistic...

But then, i dun think i am overly optimistic lor
cos i place my trust in God,
God has the final say... ALWAYS!!!

I really dun care wat ppl say,
cos as it would in the army,
the one with highest rank counts!!!

Now i understand why i was told
" i am ready...... "

I SAY AMEN!!!

If you havent seen the last post,
then u beta backtrack and see it before reading this...

My reply to that last post is ...

I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!
I SAY AMEN!

Say... say... say...

God the Son says, “It is finished!”

God the Father says, “It is done!”

What do you say?

Drama

久违了的温度
不可能会再有
还会想念多久
还会怀念多久

Meal #5 of 101

One dish meal

Simply cooked the egg noodles in boiling hot water,

with salt and little bit of oil.

Stir fried some chicken fillets with mixed veggies with thickened sauce,

pour over the egg noodles.

Then for some greens;

dunked some greens in boil water with salt and oil

And place them in the plate.

VOILA~!!!

Meal #4 of 101

Entree

Decided to try making something new,

got some smoked salmon and salmon roe from the supermarket and bread stix.

A thing layer os egg omelette with a bit of cream cheese with chives,

then a layer of smoked salmon and abit more cream cheese with chives,

and the final layer of salmon roe over it.

The idea was to take the entire triangluar thingie and wrapped the breadstix,

like a skewer to usher into your mouth.

But it was an idea only,

my taster say this combo nt bad.

^_^

Main Dish

Cant rem if the entree with the same day with this,

but wat the heck...

This is a pan fried fish fillet seasoned with salt and pepper,

the side is a stir fried leek with cubed carrots.

There is also the mixed veggie steamed rice,

which i forgot to take pic.

Healthy meal i must say,

but my taster say portion too little,

abit nt enuff...

Then and now

I looked back and saw

I no longer have what i had before

BUT

i have now what i hadnt had before

......

I did lose alot of things over the years,

silently everything slipped thru my finger tips

But i realized tdy that not all the losses were worth recouping

I also realized with the losses,

i gained new things...

i dunno if these new things are good or bad,

BUT all is not LOSS.

STARTING OVER ... ...

Ps. Thats alot of i and buts huh...

Lazy Sat at the beach...

was very very very bored staying home,
tv sucked and hsemate was on the lappy...

So i decided to go out for a walk,or rather for a little sun...

My trusty PDA still ok lah,i think the pic looked quite nice,
considering i was snapping away blindly...
Cos the sun was too bright and i cant see my screen at all
so i figured out the framing area i wan and jus click click click...