How changes come about?

I saw an interesting quote on the TV mobile, while on a bus heading home… It said :“ You move one when you are sick and tired of being sick and tired…” I cant say BRAVO for sure, but it did stick a pin to my ribs…

When you are young, the whole lot of ideals that you carry on your back din seem to have any weight… In fact, it was the more the merrier… all in waiting for age to come so that things can start happening. Then as you grew older, you realised that its no just age that has to be right, the greens in your pockets are the things that counts… those were the elements required before any action begins.

In the name of focus, all steams ahead to work for the light at the end of the tunnel… days passed, weeks passed, months passed, finally… years passed… Till one day, i wonder about my life’s purpose and why am i working like that? What did i want? I cant remember at all?!!

Now, as i sit down and take a moment… pause for a while… i realised that all these were not necessary… a chase after the wind… ME DUMB DUMB… Yes… DUMB DUMB IS ME!

Know what? I think i am sick and tired of the unknown, i am sick and tired of waiting for the time to come, for things to happen. I am sick and tired of being afraid of going too fast and end up on wrong directions. I am sick and tired of being afraid of snakes, sick and tired of a “steroids addict” personality…

I want to go back to where i was once fearless, to just take what i want and be what i want… to reply questions with “That’s God’s job not mine…”

I dunno when i pawned my courage and faith for fear and worries, i dunno how passion and focus was drowned by distractions and scepticism… but i want to redeemed them. Today, i think i saw the pawn shop closed, with a sign hanged on its gates. It said “ Pawn Shop closed. All items already redeemed by Jesus.”  :)