Thoughts

真得很妙。。。应为一个人的一句话，我认识了三位又可爱又无理头的小妹妹们，之后更认识了一群又一群的“同道中人”，再来又认识了这些同道中人的朋友们。。。  And the cycle goes on。。。 isnt it amazing?!!

So, these trio is my fren making avenues, they are also my getaway portal… whenever i need to be distracted or refusing to be in reality, they are the ones i throw myself into… going thru their videoz, youtubes, music etc… Its really efficient!

However, looking at them make me feel emotional at times… cos i see myself wasting time when they are working so hard to treasure time and cherishing the present… what the freaking am i doing???

There is so much thoughts in my head, but i refused to blog it down… not jus becos i am not sure if i want ppl to know, but also becos once i put in words i have to acknowledge the situation and whatever that is knotted in my mind and heart.

I find myself very contradicting, all the thoughts leading from one end to another… i am just a very confused person who just live one day to another and not having anything goal or plans for this life… Planning is just like making resolutions, the common entity is the end result… it never happens.

These few days been great, at least i am starting to feel relaxed… to the extend that i really attempted to not go to work… Every morning i have a long conversation with myself, debating to go or not to go to work… which ended up as me late for work :X Living like this is horrible, 对不起父母 & 家人 & 朋友 更对不起 自己！

All these answers in my head and not manifesting in actions, what am i waiting for??? Waiting for my miracle?