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Numbers 23:19

“God is not a man, that He should lie, nor a son of man, that He should repent. Has He said, and will He not do? Or has He spoken, and will He not make it good?

bummed out…

Totally feeling bummed out… not sure if its the suitability of the scene or if i am jus whining too much… i dunno… but i do whining as much as i am breathing… is the job making me depress or i am making me depress?

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Translations

English to Vietnamese:

It has been such a long time, but yet i cannot forget the gentle breeze that brought my mind such liberation... a simple thought that helped to resolve a seemingly dead knot in my head... It is all in the mind, it is all about how we think.

Nó đã được như vậy một thời gian dài, nhưng tôi không thể nào quên được những làn gió nhẹ đã mang giải phóng tâm như vậy của tôi ... một ý nghĩ đơn giản đó đã giúp giải quyết một nút dường như đã chết trong đầu của tôi ... Đó là tất cả trong tâm, đó là tất cả về cách chúng ta nghĩ.

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Vietnamese to English:

Nó đã được như vậy một thời gian dài, nhưng tôi không thể nào quên được những làn gió nhẹ đã mang giải phóng tâm như vậy của tôi ... một ý nghĩ đơn giản đó đã giúp giải quyết một nút dường như đã chết trong đầu của tôi ... Đó là tất cả trong tâm, đó là tất cả về cách chúng ta nghĩ.

It has been such a long time, but I can not forget the breeze brought liberation of my mind so ... a simple idea that helped solve a button seems to have died in my head ...It's all in the mind, it's all about the way we think.

Keepers

I consider myself as "old skool", I like to see ink on paper, and books should be in physical and tangible states where my fingers can run thru the cover to the pages within. I like the smell of colour faded papers, as of they have been kept their silence for years, waiting for people to uncover the treasure within its pages.

Books are not merely books, they are keepers that holds and protects... I have always loved books since young becos I know they are not merely pieces of paper that have been binded together. Words are descriptions of objects, scenarios, circumstances, people and ,of course, feelings & emotions... and all of these in general term = INFORMATION. Alternatively, I like to view such information as expressions of an individual.

If you come to know of a certain treasure map, and u can obtain in a relatively easy manner, would you want it? And if you have tis map on hand, what would you do with it? Will you go and get that treasure? Books are like treasure chests, tangible keepers that holds intangible treasures of knowledge & information, rumors & wisdom... and expressions...

直到你不找我

记得当时谁路过 

秒针忽然停顿过   

气温湿度曾骤变太多

记忆不停重叠过   

你的表情提示过    

爱的可能是我

想法很乱 幻觉太多    

疑虑很大直到说不清楚    

心算太慢 但仍然算错    

找对人   偏错过   

直到开始想喜欢我    

直到终于不喜欢我    

直到碰上一个   逃避一个
追不上 躲不过

直到开始找不到我  

直到终于不想找我    

直到你擦身过  才认得我    

彼此也在折磨    像当初  

想法太乱  直觉对么    

疑虑很大  直到爱不清楚    

当这世上  全怀疑我错    

总有人 相信我 

直到开始想喜欢我    

直到终于不喜欢我    

直到碰上一个 逃避一个   

追不上  躲不过

直到开始找不到我    

直到终于不想找我    

直到你擦身过  才认得我    

彼此也在折磨    

像当初。。。

投降?

关于人生这无耐，
我也不知所措。。。
此时也只能 无耐地。。。
被那无耐的无耐 无耐着。

我反复地问我自己
真的是束手无策吗?
还是为了掩饰自己放弃的借口?

是我没用。。。
这一关始终没能过，
也没能预测什么时才能过。
与其给自己希望不如坦白面对自己?
一个人 不可能自己单方面 解决问题，
即使只是一件。。。

Keep on believing...

Encouraged... truly encouraged...

明天以后

爱情总让人折磨
所以我们才选择做比情人更好的朋友
我对你感觉胜过爱情
因为有你给我勇气
给我用不完的运气

其实也想好好爱你
只怕到最后不小心让你伤心
对不起我对你再好再亲密都不能在一起
最后看你在别人怀里
有天我会找到我的唯一
还微笑祝福你

Strange vs weird

Once upon a time, an ex-colleague congratulated me for being strange but not weird, and further explained that it was a complement... he definitely left hammering questions marks on my head... until i heard that he was complained and "released" and sent for psychiatric evaluation a month later. Now thats another story for another time...

Recently, i concluded what he said is somewhat true; there is a difference in strange and weird.

Frankly, i am find with strange, but i dun think weird sits well with me... cos the dictionary.com definition says weird is on a equal level with EERIE.

Stay strange, keep away from weird...

Tired.

Dun u know?

You who does not, do not have the right to complain !

Bloody annoying idiot, get lost!

石康钧

As much as my frens do not like him,

i really cant get myself not to go search for his new EP.

I like his voice.

田馥甄 - 寂寞寂寞就好 (HQ 官方版MV)

Crash and burnt

I had to get this out of my system, and somewhere at the back of my mind, I wan to do this gracefully… God help me…

Ok, how should I put it? In simple words, they are “ I CANNOT TAKE IT ANY MORE! ” . I do not want to know anything, I do not want to analyze anything, I do not want to check all factors before deciding if I should charge myself as the guilty party just becos there is simply something I could have done and didn’t do which ended up in this mess! I am sick and tired of feeling whatever I do, it’s a wrong move, and whatever I do always results in a tragic emotional mess for the whole family. I am sick and tired of feeling sick and tired.

At work, I can work with the guidelines; there are objectives which I can work towards it. The project may be painful, but there is always an end to it. In a relationship, if it doesn’t works out, breaking up and steering clear of each other isn’t a hard to do, even if Singapore is a small place. But family, the one that sticks with you for life, the ones whom you cannot choose but automatically loves is not like a boyfriend of a husband that you can leave and walk out of.

Damn it! Why do I have to know that everyone in the family is feeling the same thing, yet we all are not standing on the same platform, same line, and same reference? Damn it! Why is it that the one with the knowledge has the same responsibility to initiate the flow? DAMN IT! WHERE IS GOD WHEN I NEED HIM?!

YES! I know I am blind with tears, blind with anger, and blind to see where God is and what he is doing, blind to only see that I am alone in this pit…Its been years that this is going on, and I swear I would have jumped off a building long ago. Years after years all matters were just buried over. Damn it when is it going to get resolved?! WILL IT EVER GET RESOLVED??? Like a haunting ghost, it keeps coming back… tell me how long will it take before I jump off the ledge or allow myself to just speed and crash.

I am burnt, is that too hard to understand?

You told me, if I dun wan my life any more, I can give to God, at least do some recycling. And I did. Then all the more the waves come are even stronger, more suffocating? Work we had overcome, relationships we too walked thru it, then why is the most impt family aspect still status quo?

I dun wan to hear anything encouraging, I dun wan to hear any consolations, in fact… I dun wan to hear anything. Can someone just untangle the bloody mess? Can you all just let me walk away… walk far far away…

TO GOD:

You are God, you are able and willing. I really dun care how or wat, I and gving you tis tangled mess to sort things out. You are my God, you look out for me. You settle this thing. I dun wan to be vexed or upset with this any more. I will steer clear, and keep out of sight. You settle… not just about this incident, You settle the problem at the root cause.

New Job?

Coming 30th August 2010 will mark the end of my probation,

time has passed easily with nothing much to do each day.

It has come back to the point where i am the center of stand still where everyone is going around like busy bees...

I hate it when i am not able to do anything to help,

i hate it when i am not participating in the work,

i hate it becos it simply alienates me ...

Work stress i can handle, but i am never willing to handle home tension.

I can handle work in non emotional, feelings detached manner, and they still get resolve.

But home tension is different, becos u never noe what they want.

More Hebe!

I am definitely her fan!

Cant wait to get my hands on her solo album!!!!!!!!!!!

聽誰在唱歌

A fellow human being who shares the same sentiments as me...

OMG Lunch Cook Off

Well, i have been to cook in the office for a long time,
and this is the OMG Cook Off Lunch...

This IS it!

Nothing fancy, cos i still abit shy to take out my cooking utensils and stuffs.

The food in the tuperware... freshly bought from Giant.

The cooking barangs includes the cutting sheets, cutting knife & rice cooker...

U can also see the Instant noodles and canned baked beans.

My new toy...

Nice blue, but honestly i would have bought pink/green/orange if i had seen it...

Dunno is dun have or the Giant i went already sold out the colors liaoz...

Preparations will begin in 30-45mins...

with the following menu...

Yong tau foo soup with udon noodles

Baked beans with octopus like chicken franks

* Ps. Dun think will have change to upload the cooked product... Cos have to fast fast cook, and fast fast eat then fast fast wash up. :X

shhhhhh.....

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The finished products!

:) Homecooked taste :)

Tips for travelling

Extract taken from Paul's blog tdy...

1. Avoid museums. This might seem to be absurd advice, but let’s just think about it a little: if you are in a foreign city, isn’t it far more interesting to go in search of the present than of the past? It’s just that people feel obliged to go to museums because they learned as children that travelling was about seeking out that kind of culture. Obviously museums are important, but they require time and objectivity – you need to know what you want to see there, otherwise you will leave with a sense of having seen a few really fundamental things, except that you can’t remember what they were.

2. Hang out in bars. Bars are the places where life in the city reveals itself, not in museums. By bars I don’t mean nightclubs, but the places where ordinary people go, have a drink, ponder the weather, and are always ready for a chat. Buy a newspaper and enjoy the ebb and flow of people. If someone strikes up a conversation, however silly, join in: you cannot judge the beauty of a particular path just by looking at the gate.

3. Be open. The best tour guide is someone who lives in the place, knows everything about it, is proud of his or her city, but does not work for an agency. Go out into the street, choose the person you want to talk to, and ask them something (Where is the cathedral? Where is the post office?). If nothing comes of it, try someone else – I guarantee that at the end of the day you will have found yourself an excellent companion.

4. Try to travel alone or – if you are married – with your spouse. It will be harder work, no one will be there taking care of you, but only in this way can you truly leave your own country behind. Travelling with a group is a way of being in a foreign country while speaking your mother tongue, doing whatever the leader of the flock tells you to do, and taking more interest in group gossip than in the place you are visiting.

5. Don’t compare. Don’t compare anything – prices, standards of hygiene, quality of life, means of transport, nothing! You are not travelling in order to prove that you have a better life than other people – your aim is to find out how other people live, what they can teach you, how they deal with reality and with the extraordinary.

6. Understand that everyone understands you. Even if you don’t speak the language, don’t be afraid: I’ve been in lots of places where I could not communicate with words at all, and I always found support, guidance, useful advice, and even girlfriends. Some people think that if they travel alone, they will set off down the street and be lost forever. Just make sure you have the hotel card in your pocket and – if the worst comes to the worst – flag down a taxi and show the card to the driver.

7. Don’t buy too much. Spend your money on things you won’t need to carry: tickets to a good play, restaurants, trips. Nowadays, with the global economy and the Internet, you can buy anything you want without having to pay excess baggage.

8. Don’t try to see the world in a month. It is far better to stay in a city for four or five days than to visit five cities in a week. A city is like a capricious woman (or a capricious man, if you are a woman): she/he takes time to be seduced and to reveal him/herself completely.

9. A journey is an adventure. Henry Miller used to say that it is far more important to discover a church that no one else has ever heard of than to go to Rome and feel obliged to visit the Sistine Chapel with two hundred thousand other tourists bellowing in your ear. By all means go to the Sistine Chapel, but wander the streets too, explore alleyways, experience the freedom of looking for something – quite what you don’t know – but which, if you find it, will – you can be sure – change your life.

As an old hippie, I know what I’m talking about…
The text was taken from my book “Like a flowing river”

http://paulocoelhoblog.com/2010/07/20/tips-for-travelling-eng-port-esp-fra/

The Goal Should NEVER change

It has been increasing difficult to keep things in order, in control and possibly in restricting the untamed tongue that had coupled with a FFT (Fast & Fiery Temperament). Its been a month of new job new company, a month since I got my car, a month since my last entry and a month of less to almost no drinking. It’s an achievement? Nah, it’s a restriction otherwise aka known as a clause under the Driver Responsibility.

A month ago, I decided and set my foot down to join S and A. But by divine intervention, I have left them hanging in the air, because I am no longer certain. The evening we celebrate my joining, was the same night that sparked me not to. The first nugget of advice he gave was “Our goal should never change…” It was like a bomb dropped, a flare gun going off, it was crystal what my next step should be……

The ONE thing I can do best…

Many times the tongue has been a wild loosely disciplined entity, and the freedom it has mostly comes in situations where I personally felt a response is required immediately. As Pastor said, and many experiences too, when you do not know what to say, it’s best to smile. This is an extremely difficult thing to do man!

Is this situation a trial practice? With such news I really don’t know how to react or response, of course hearing this news from a 3rd party is a time buyer… certainly an advantage… While trying to remain calm, I can only force myself to thing if there are things we can help her with… I’m sure she will say she is doing fine with the support of her family. The model answer to my thoughts is only 1 word, PRAYER!

Things that are beyond my control, beyond my reach are best intervened by God. Things that I think are within my abilities, I am learning to start with going to God first, without rushing ahead like a mad dog. This lesson is one of those where I have yet to graduate, since a long time back.

Unexpected “appraisal” day

It was an unexpected “appraisal” day, I dunno what she told her, but it came up as I needed help and direction. I admit that I had used the words loosely to allow her to feel she is not alone, but it did make me go “ARGH”. I can feel her frustration when she kept emphasizing on me not having a goal.

The truth is, it is true that I love to look to her for an annual appraisal for practical career progression. It is true that I thought she would be able to help me. But I guess I have decided to take after God. From the day I went crazy looking for a purpose in life, I broken down when I am not able to identify a goal for myself… aimless being drifting in the world is a sentence worse than death.

It was God, It was Jesus, who came to me and tell me its alright, who told me that my life is not a bounced cheque waiting to be cashed, but rather a cheque in writing. And I am the one who is to fill up the cheque, I am the one who says where the cheque is used for and how much worth is this cheque going to draw! I guess I am spoiled with such love that I can do anything I want and make anything happen in Christ.

Able to live a life that has been planned out, sit back relax and wait for doors to be open by God is amazing. I also thought I will turn into a disgusting lazy worm, but it came out differently… In fact, I am all the more eager to do things once the task is given.

Things happened because of planning, but for me things just work out; simply because God did the planning and my role is to just rest and follow.

selfish

It was a selfish agenda to have people depending and relying on me. All because I am not able to identify, find my purpose in life. It is a sentence worse than death! Without purpose, without a reason to live, it is the same to be as waiting for death to come. This is one thought I cannot bear, the one thought that can drive me to jump of a building any time.

Having people to need me and rely on me is wrong, not only because I am not able to help them, but I deprived them of their divine help which brings them much more than copping with their needs? How can I be so selfish that the help I gave only made things worse and to go on as nothing happened?

Its coming…

I can feel it… its going to come to pass very soon…

Not sure how i will react, not sure if its a yes or no;

But i do know that i will know what to do when the time comes.

A load off the mind

Tonight might just be the night, the night where we all can have a easier to enter the zzz land. Though i feel a little queasy, but the paperwork is set and if all goes well, coming Friday might just be the day.

Though i am paying for the vehicle myself, from deposit to upfront payments to taxes and installments, but i am still happy with this present my family gave me. The present they gave was the approval for the car. Surprised? :) You wanna make a guess what is the other load off my mind? Its not having a car of my own, but its the NO MORE TORTUROUS walks thru the sgcarmart.sg and Ubi Automart!

Thank you Jesus! : )

Vulnerability

They said I am a typical fit to the descriptions of the horoscopes, be it the astrology Gemini, or the Chinese zodiac Goat, or even Bazi – Eight Characters analysis… I am one who is often said to be an advocate, mediator, and even a strong hard piece of metal shield. I am independent, strong and hardly gets down by anything. I thank God that all those are true, but its true only becos God was the one who enabled me to be. I always believe that God is the one who gives us the desires in ourselves, gives us the passion and the ability to satisfy that same desire.

As hard as the metal can be, it can only protect things that are of physical impact; but it is powerless to the forces that cannot be seen by the human eye. Love is vulnerability, and the only weakest link of the chain. Like I have often said, to love someone is to hand yourself naked self over to the other party; it’s like surrendering to him/her/them your bare heart allowing them to treat it in any manner they like. And in this world, there is no one who has my heart like my family does. But we have a problem, or at least I have a problem… and this problem is like a thorn in the flesh where the wound has been inflamed. Each time an incident comes up, the wound would hurt like hell. I really hope that this thorn be removed and that the wound will heal as if it has never been in place before.

This is my family, people whom I can never stop loving, even if I am bleeding, or crippled or paralyzed. Of course I can choose to leave and be riddance of it, but I prefer not to… I choose not to… If I decide to be here with them, then my mind, my heart, my thoughts and my body have to be here with them. Regardless in any circumstance or any issues.

“Singapore General Hospital”

I am kinda happy when you come knocking on my MSN, not because you are offering me a position in the midst of my job search, but because you thought of me as someone who wouldn’t mind low pay and sweating my weekends away with you. I never really knew what you thought of me, especially with all that mambo jumbo on Bazi calculations… but tonight I do know that I passed you looks test… hahahah Hey, u asked for it yourself, you gave yourself away… and no amount of sidetracking you do is able to smoke and distract me k… Well, I do know that I have the upper hand @ this chess game of ours.

Silence

There are times when things are hard to let it off your tongue, words that are either so heavy that they went back down your throat, or extremely light that it evaporates before it has the chance to be instructed to its destination.

Be it truths, explanations, or white lies… submission to silence is inevitable. Though picture paints a thousand words, but silence encompassed all that is to be said and unsaid.

Lets have a little faith.

Exhibition booth neighbour

My first impression of him:
Look like some taiwanese actor, not handsome or cute looking but gives an impression of a down to earth quiet character, humble, serious, introvert, passive... more of engineering person than sales.

My guess of my impression to him: friendly, loud, smile loving, talkative, restless strange maybe weird...

2nd impression of him:
He shaved. hahahaha... mysterious maybe?

Wonder wat is his Chinese name, and why he ask for my name card... I dun sell health care equipment wat... do u think he will headhunt me becos of my ultra friendliness?

Day 01 - morning

Live from 119 Genting,
and in point form... more or less lag...

Lost as bat, cos its day numerous uno, a deep impression of a power smile which turned out to be the GM.
Following after, a shocking discovery... I just hope I hadn't done any image damage to myself in my Facebook history.


First official sales meeting, first in a sales environment, first time so bored and decide to go "lunch" alone... but think my breakfast to powderful cos I totally not hungry, thus resulting in a teh si & bao takeaway.

Quick Updates

Since the last post, i had been occupied with interview and deciding between companies that had offered me a position in their company. As usual, i could not make out which is the best offer. But i was reminded of my previous experience in deciding between offers… that God had said to me not to take the best option; it was then i realized God was telling me there was no best option, and no matter what i chose, He is there to make sure it is a good option.

Still, i was struggling… and i decided to attend my first Sunday church service in 2010. That one Sunday did what i couldnt do in days, i had my decision. Though much murmuring was surrounding me, as the other company had offered me a better sounding designation and higher basic pay with a possible good commission should i clinch a big project. But, i guess it was God’s courage, i kept to the decision. So, in 7hrs i will be reporting for work, as a Project Sales Engineer.

Today, we also celebrated my grandmother’s birthday! I can see that she was and still is very happy, all 25 of us were there singing and wishing her Happy Birthday! The most encouraging thing was my grandma suddenly broke out into prayer, thanking God for everything before her eyes right after we sang happy birthday song to her… She is thankful for all of us, i melt! My grandma has always been and still IS a great role model!

Then there is one other small thing, i finally had a chance to see some of the outreach gestures by my church, which all along i tot there was none. It was a very encouraging Thursday evening to see so many ppl who are all for sharing the good news! Though this faulty lamp stand has not lit up yet, but its really warmed up by what she saw… :) I hope in the near future, the broken lamp stand will resume the light bearing task.

Wild goose chase... hahaha

The constant reminder and counting done by the closest of my frens were well intentions, though its not sitting well with me on the inside; I'm not saying that its not good, but i really do appreciate these ppl who cut the bull and tell me straight in the face. Anyway, the count has brought me to almost a year since i left my last position in any form of formal work.

Yar i've been browsing around... routinely go on JobDB & JobStreet and sending resumes for positions i thought would be appropriate or even interesting. I admit i've been messing around with some companies, and going to the interviews. But little seems to attract me. Then a grp of pro frens come along and offer to help me by getting me to do personality tests, and one grp even did my Ba Zi Ming Pan Calculations. Suddenly, i get caught up in this swirl of THIS & THAT! Hey, its scary and when it swallows u up, its like quick sand. Our Creator had unparalleled foresight to build within us a spirit, a part of himself as the last line of defense, from losing our minds. This spirit suddenly awakened and rang the alarm, BIG alarm, that says "HEY! SOMETHING IS WRONG! WAKE UP!".

Personality Tests and character analyzing are great tools to use when looking for directions in life. But when you place too much emphasis on these results, they basically dictates your life... why cage yourself in a washing machine and go round & round till u puke???

Yes, i do work along a boundary, to see where my limits are and how far i can go. But i am never in it for too long. SO why should i start now? Ya! SO i SHAN'T & i WON'T!
No more tests, no more calculations, no more horoscopes, enough is enough.

As someone said, i shld do the right thing and not just keep doing things right.
i should give weight to my spirit, and not overwrite it just to avoid conflicts;
I should and i want and i will... TRUST IN GOD.

Thks Jac!

Jac says:
Abba, bless June. Give her the desires of her heart. Let her be spoilt for choices when seeking for her next career. Men's words have no power over us, but Your words are alive and active Lord. You are the alpha and the omega. The beginning and the end. Blessed is June's kneading Bowl. Let her be fruitful and prospers in watever that she sets her hand on. Give her a career that she will enjoy..
and be passionate abt...and that will allow her to develop the gifts and her talents...that her life will gLorify you. Amen!

June Lim - Beloved Child of God & Successful Cafe Owner says:
AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN AMEN

Careers for ENFP Personality Types

Whether you're a young adult trying to find your place in the world, or a not-so-young adult trying to find out if you're moving along the right path, it's important to understand yourself and the personality traits which will impact your likeliness to succeed or fail at various careers. It's equally important to understand what is really important to you. When armed with an understanding of your strengths and weaknesses, and an awareness of what you truly value, you are in an excellent position to pick a career which you will find rewarding.

ENFPs generally have the following traits:

• Project-oriented
• Bright and capable
• Warmly, genuinely interested in people; great people skills
• Extremely intuitive and perceptive about people
• Able to relate to people on their own level
• Service-oriented; likely to put the needs of others above their own
• Future-oriented
• Dislike performing routine tasks
• Need approval and appreciation from others
• Cooperative and friendly
• Creative and energetic
• Well-developed verbal and written communication skills
• Natural leaders, but do not like to control people
• Resist being controlled by others
• Can work logically and rationally - use their intuition to understand the goal and work backwards towards it
• Usually able to grasp difficult concepts and theories

ENFPs are lucky in that they're good a quite a lot of different things. An ENFP can generally achieve a good degree of success at anything which has interested them. However, ENFPs get bored rather easily and are not naturally good at following things through to completion. Accordingly, they should avoid jobs which require performing a lot of detailed, routine-oriented tasks. They will do best in professions which allow them to creatively generate new ideas and deal closely with people. They will not be happy in positions which are confining and regimented.

The following list of professions is built on our impressions of careers which would be especially suitable for an ENFP. It is meant to be a starting place, rather than an exhaustive list. There are no guarantees that any or all of the careers listed here would be appropriate for you, or that your best career match is among those listed.

Possible Career Paths for the ENFP:

• Consultant
• Psychologist
• Entrepreneur
• Actor
• Teacher
• Counselor
• Politician / Diplomat
• Writer / Journalist
• Television Reporter
• Computer Programmer, Systems Analyst, or Computer Specialist
• Scientist
• Engineer

***** So i didnt stray from my basic instincts after all! Engineer & Computer Specialist… I’m Happy! ***

The Kyle in us

Kyle XY was a drama which i stumbled upon through online TV, and it intrigued me. The way they had introduced the lead actor, Kyle, and the ambitious plot that the production had wanted was captivating. The way Kyle learns, is absolutely amazing but the one thing that strike me was how much he appreciates his new found knowledge. Most of us, or rather me, a new found knowledge is similar to a new toy, you play with it and u leave it aside when u find something new. But the character Kyle leaks the scent of gratitude, and cherishes each new piece of knowledge. Its a drama, and things can be dramatic or idealistic. But i think its a great reminder that learning itself is something to be thankful for! In my search to collect information, to build up my own library, i guess i may have lost the true intention of building that library within me; allowing quantity of information to overwrite quality, failing to filter the true importance.

There is alot we can relate to Kyle, and alot more that we can get from the show. But i shant tell u any, lest a spoiler be seen.

The first season of KYLE was really interested as we speculate the mystery of his birth, and it was all the more interested to watch him learn… 1 new thing everyday, and i believe we all can relate to his learning experiences in one way or another.

I’ve a slight different preference on films, dramas and movies than others… So dun come complaining to me if u did not like it. Becos i do enjoy this drama, which sadly had announced that there will be no Season 4, nor Season Finale… sucky huh… God, please get those producers to give KYLE XY a proper ending and not the rotten Season 3 ending!

KYLE IS COOL! :)

Dear God...

I have been complaining a lot... haven't i?


Things are the same but yet, they seem different for me; The very things I thought to be unchanged are no longer the same.


It's strange to be not on-sync with the very world I live and grew up in, as if I do not belong here.


Some said truths are often go challenged, but they always triumph. Is that true? There are others who say there is a price to pay for success, but we determine the worth. Is that true?


People also say that there is no absolute, and that only change is constant... That I know is not true. : )

AndroBlog

Greetings...

I am andro, messenger of me mistress, the Blogger.

She'll b ard more freq, w me now.

Pleased to have met you.

cheerz.

Moment

This is it!

Its NOW or NEVER!

Breathe! Keep eyes on the target! Dun take back the foot u lifted to step out!

Rem... this is the closest u will ever get!

Its NOW or never~!

It runs in the blood!

It’s the cool night that I really love, and sitting down to just think abt stuffs… Yes, I do admit that I think a lot, and I really enjoy doing it… :X It’s really strange that you know someone better after they have passed on, and more astonishing to find the same traits running in my very own blood. I remember my secondary school days when literature suddenly grabbed me and started this frenzy of poetry writing. It was a school trend that I had set on fire, even the teachers joined in to help us improve on our poetry writings. The spark in the teachers eyes were burning with excitement.

To think of it, I never did share with my grandpa about this sudden interest, this poet ambition was such a way off thing that my parents cannot understand why where I get the inclination from. I wish I had, cos if I had done so, we would have much more to talk abt and relate to each other ? I distinctively remember my parents wondering why I like reading and poetry so much, when neither of them can stand words and characters… Now I have the answer, becos I take after grandpa. In fact, I take after ALL of my “upstream” … :D

Grandpa Lim – Real life poet… I am impressed! Now I know why I like reading and poetry when neither of my parents is into it. He taught me wat free spirit means… and how long I had forgotten abt it.

Grandma Lim – Keep of memories in ALL ways, she keeps the littlest things that draws any relations to any memories. Her fierce fight against loss time was victorious! She too loved reading, she was the one who gotten me glues to the book cupboard in her hse whenever I am there.

Grandpops on my ma’s side – Coffee lover who once owned coffee shops, and taxi driver… Coffee drinking was a ceremony when kids turned adult in the family… only adults can drink coffee, so u can guess how much I am into coffee last time. Not to mention my love to take cabs… HEHEHEHE

Grandmama on my ma’s side – The biggest trait got to be the love to feed ppl! Cooking itself has no meaning, but if you are cooking for ppl u love, it’s a different story altogether! The one year away from home was the best experience I had, cos I know I was cooking for my friends and buddy!

Mum & Dad ? Well, if you know them, u will know I am the exact replicate of them… can’t complain! :)

Whats on your heart?

Hebrews 8:10
10“… I will put My laws in their mind and write them on their hearts…”

Many of us have been taught that we cannot trust our hearts. We quote verses like “The heart is deceitful above all things, and desperately wicked…” (Jeremiah 17:9), not knowing that Jeremiah was referring to the man who had not received Jesus as his Lord and Savior.

I have had people come to me and say, “Pastor Prince, I don’t know what I should do with my life.”
“What is on your heart?” I asked one of them.
“I would love to work among children.”
“Then work among children!”
“But I am waiting on the Lord to tell me to do that.”
“Well, He has given you the desire, so go and work among children!”
“But the desire comes from my heart. How do I know if it is of God?”

My friend, once you are saved, you have a brand new heart (Ezekiel 36:26), and you can trust the promptings of your heart because God dwells in you and He leads you from within. And don’t worry because His promptings will never contradict His Word. It will lead you to good success.

Often, you find that when you follow your inner promptings, it is actually God who has put those desires in your mind and written them on your heart. I remember years ago when I approached one of our church leaders and told him, “I really think that you are called to be a full-time pastor.” It turned out to be a confirmation of what he already knew on the inside. You see, God was already leading him from within. Today, he is one of our full-time pastors.

If you enjoy something and desire to do it, then go for it! Go with the flow. God Himself says that He will guide us from within. Let’s not doubt Him. And don’t worry about the outcome. Your part is just to follow the flow. God’s part is to work in you both the willingness and the performance of it! (Philippians 2:13)
Beloved, because God has given you a new heart, He will write His desires on it. And as you fulfill these desires, you will bring forth fruit, and not wither and die. Whatever you do will prosper!


You've done it...

陪我聊一聊

你有说过如果想要找人聊聊，自己会找得到适合的听众 。可是，我真得找不到。。。找朋友逛街吃饭看电影，往往是他们向我吐露心事，说他们的烦恼； 在这样的情况下，你说我开得了口吗？即使找到人后，我想我也开不了口。。。

莲常常抱怨我有事不找她，她常常生我的气，因为她觉得我不信任她。但我难过的心情，我真的不知道怎么说。。。现在的我开口前，眼泪就不自觉地流下。近期的我不比以前了，可能是极限到了吧，眼泪已不再受控制了。

我已经把自己逼到这儿了，我看不到前方的路，也不知道那路是哪儿；但这一切并非我担心的，我担心的是自己真的已变成朽木。。。 朽木不可雕的雕，再怎么努力，怎么逼迫自己也无法。。。。。。

难过

难过，

难过，

难过，

难过，

难过，

难过，

难过，

说不出的痛 真的好辛苦， 大家都好辛苦

难过地喘不过气来，或许 可能。。。

My reply to Substation

Good day!

My apologies on a day's late reply to your email, i felt that i had to show some sincerity and responsibility to honestly ponder and answer your questions,
thus the delay.

I first heard of Substation was many years ago, when my school had participated in a theatric and stage management course. Although i can no longer remember the people i met, but the impression of wanting to be involve with theatric works was strong. On seeing the hiring ad, i thought it would be good to revive some of the childhood dream to be part of the Substation. I do understand that the Substation is beyond theatre works, and i felt that it is a good opportunity to get introduced into Arts and learn new things in a all new arena.

It has always been in my plans to move on from an engineering scope of work, to a more people oriented position. Generally, i love to do aliasing and coordination works, meeting different people and getting to know them and their needs. I do not have any academical knowledge or experience in marketing, but i have 101% commitment to give, especially when my passion meeting new challenges to overcome.

Thank you for the heads up on the salary, to be real frank, i had expected a pay cut but not that low though. Nevertheless, i say to you, tell me what can i do help make that change sooner. :) I would love the chance to make a difference.

Have a good week ahead!

Cheerz,
June Lim.

Shit happens

As i ponder over my day of not so ideal events, the term "shit happens" came...

The unbearable noise of renovations and drilling that will drive u nuts is more than enuff to make u want to check into MIH on yr own. Following with a series of places u had to try before finding a place to rest yr feets and drink some water and yet not being able to do anything. I shall rem to charge my lappy everyday, @ least i can go library for wireless SG; all power points are hogged by ppl in starbucks or any place with decent table and chairs. Then coming home to find the $3k+ lappy be stuck in a endless loop of startup and black screen is like the toppings of a very bad cake...
BUT STILL! I dun think these are shits... jus unpleasant experiences...

Besides, shitting shld be a daily thing, so shit happens... well... daily!

:X

Desktop

The world is like yr user desktop,
when in e hands of evil
dun think w world can b any where beautiful.

In yr hands, u call e shots.

收回！

把眼泪收回！一点眼泪也不许掉，不许滴！

不是骄傲，不是坚强， 什么也不是

我承认我并不是什么好人， 我只是一个骨子里 暗地里莫名的倔强

有什么时候眼泪能解决得了问题？

没有！最后只有两个选择：

1。 翻脸到底就为一口气，为她误会我而道歉

2。 和以往一样 若无其事地让它过去， 当从来也没发生过；把那口冤气当药吞回去

我一直在想，如果我自私一点，可能这一切就不会发生的；

至少不会让我看到他掉眼泪，也更不会是我惹她生气

好心做坏事好像是我的“特色”， 一个挥不掉 赶不去的 “特色”

不完美的人生 我理解 也尽力完美化

我真的有很尽力， 不论是自己或是身边的人，我能给的我都给了

真的。。。 我也已经空了

现在，我只剩不服输的倔强

所以，更加不能掉泪。。。 一定要把眼泪收回去！

damn… my Chinese suck…

当事者和旁观者本来就不一样，看到的感受的迷惑的都有一定的差别，所以当自己从当事者的身份被调换成旁观者时 会一再的提醒自己把那张嘴管好。可是，有时候真的替对方紧张到非跳出来不可。。。

她一直在转牛角尖，一直在圆圈里绕；像是被蒙上了双眼底一直走。明明就可以把眼罩拿掉， 但嘴里一直在念没有光看不见。。。

而你

今天又掉眼泪了，你哭着说你没有办法相信“爱”了，因为上一段感情失败也述说了你的失败。。。 更证明了“爱”这东西是假象。

我问你：一段感情，爱情只需要一个人 就能秤的起来吗？

Example: A relationship is like a car, and love is like the fuel. Going into a relationship is like getting into a car, and hoping to progress to a different place. But for the car to move, fuel is required. The max capacity each of you is able to carry is only 100%, and the car has a fuel requirement of 200%. If only 1 of you is give your all to the car/relationship, the car can only move that far. And soon you find both the car & yrself no longer have any fuel left for either.

If both parties are giving their 100%, and still the car is not moving, it only means that either the car/relationship is faulty, or the type of fuel from either party is not correct. A car with fuel mixed with petrol and diesel will die eventually, not becos the fuel is a myth, but becos of incompatibility.

U cannot say blame the fuel if the car is not working the way you want ah!

 

And there is you, stop complaining about the government, complaining about your friends, about company, can u stop short yr gap for 1 min? So all your options are shit, still… u made the choice to stay put so shut up and think wat u want, then go find ways to get wat u wan. Here’s a tip, complaining doesnt help u get what u want; State yr requests to the right person and work it out lor! At the rate you going, u’r heading for doom!

 

Damn… my English sucks too…..