Yesterday is Yesterday, Today is Today, and Tmw will be Tmw......

Yes, i'm homefree!~ And yes, it seems like i'm not quite set to Zzz-land, looking at the time of this new post, i think i may be jetlagging... Then again, i like to explore a lit further, listing the few possibilities on why i not ready for Zzz..... since i'm heating up my siew mai(x2) and hotdogs (x2)... (my mum tells me tat good things come in pair mah...) *GRIN*

Ps. No... no... no... Not exactly supper lah... Got a lit hungry from taking the flu med jus now mah...

Here goes...

1) Jetlag
The all time fav explanation without having to explain further... hehee..

2) Hunger
Well, i did mention that i was having a running nose with headache, after taking the flu med its really making my stomach alit grumpy... And rumor has it that one cant Zzz when they are HUNGRY! And i do get headaches when i am hungry / empty stomach.

3) Work on mind
Half of me is hoping that i need not work tmw, so feeling a little not so gd may be worth it, but the other half of me... "the more sensible one" think otherwise, afterall work in the office is picking up and by no means i wanna miss any of the action. We shall see wat happens tmw then. Afterall... Today is Today, and Tmw will be Tmw......

4) Question.
Met up with a fren today and was chatting abt BGR stuffs, exchanging views on relational issues. Then my fren posed a good question to me today, one that i do not have any answer yet...

It started with me telling him that i know clearly that i still love my ex, and that he will always have a place in my heart. And that I am quite happy with the way things are now, loving him from a distance is sufficient for me. Becos i know that we can never be and i wouldn't want to be together with him any more. Besides, i'm also quite sure that no guy will be able to accept the fact that their gf will have another man in her heart other than themselves. And i'm not expecting anyone to accept that, cos i cant accept that myself.

Then he asked a very good question, he asked if my options are open for future/new relationships (something like tat... not exact words but meaning abt the same)... As usual, i started to give him crap answers, cos he really caught me there... I replied that i do look forward to be in a new relationship, afterall i can like someone easily. And hopefully the new love will wear out the former love.

But i have no idea wat i was saying that tat moment... i was bz trying to defend myself once again, i was trying to be positive though i think i am thinking otherwise.

• Loving someone and liking a person is completely different, loving him unconditionally and comparing it with liking someone else is like peanuts vs the elephant. I am really not sure if i will be able to forget him, and i am really hoping+wishing+praying that there will be someone who will come along and replace his place in my heart. I hope i am wrong, but i am afraid that no one will / is able to do just that.
• There is also this part in me that says: "Maybe i do desire for a new relationship to take place, but i dun have the guts to go into one." Cause i really dunno how well i can take that type of blow any more.
• Then there is this part of me telling me that i watched too much drama, and time will prove that i will be up and going once i let go of and get over this Mr HIM; I will meet someone and love again.

I guess all these 3 points are true and my conclusion is..... not to think so much... i decided to take a day at a time... See my title? Yup, wats past is past... Today is the impt thing; Let tmw worry abt itself... afterall i cant do anything abt wat has not hap yet rite? ^_^

I've finished my makan and i think i will go lie down again and try to enter Zzz-Land.

Adios Amigos!